Drowning

Chapter 20

There is nothing more classy or powerful than showing forgiveness and grace to someone who does not deserve it

Allison oh my lord is that you!? An excited Abigail yells as she runs towards me. Why is she running to me as if we friends, I thought we were very clear about our friendship when I said slut and bitch to her

What are you doing here I ask bitterly not hiding the not so happy to see your face. When she notices my demeanor she dyes her hype down

My grandparents moved here so im visiting for the winter break she says with a nervous smile. Can't blame her since im giving her the death glare and Chloe and Stacey catches on fast so they don't intend on being very welcoming

Well huh have a nice winter break I say lamely as try to move away from this confrontation

Wait! Ally can we talk... She asked with guilt laced in her voice and I stop dead in my tracks

If you don't want to talk we can go Stacey whisper not so soft on my ear as she gives Abby the stink eye

To move on, you need to forgive
Linda's words stick through my brain like a sore thumb. Shutting my eyes and taking deep breaths to prepare me for this luxury decision, notice my sarcasm

Fine, I say turning around, and all three girls are surprised by my decision. It's okay I will get you guys at the ice cream shop I ensure Chloe and Stacey. They give me an assuring hug before leaving me to face my past

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You look amazing Abby explains with her eyes taking in my new appearance

Thanks... I mutter out awkwardly not sure where the hell this conversation is going

So Alabama huh, living in the old west she tries to make a conversation and I get frustrated

What do you want Abby? Like we both know this is not why you called me I say annoyed because she's wasting my time

I'm sorry Allison, how I and Kenny treated you was uncalled for, we just didn't know how to react she pleads in a sign her eyes glossing. Is she about to cry? Why is she crying

Are you kidding me! That's all you can say! We were friends for over 10 years she the time when I needed you the most you bailed both of you! I was alone Abby and bullied and you knew what happened! But you guys threw me away for what! I shout at her with rage and pain seeping out of my voice and I can't help but bang the table, and what does she do she just sits there all in pitty as if she dealt with the taunting at school

We never meant to hurt your ally... You were acting out you shaved your freaking hair! We had to fetch you blacked out at parties it was tiring ally... That wasn't you she, states with sorrow in her eyes

That was me! Abby that was me, I was hurting but in the end, I was still your friend Allison reed I state in a shaky voice and falls into a full-blown sobbing session. Can someone please freaking tell me why the heck is she crying

I feel guilty every single day for allowing Britney and her gang for hurting you...mostly I feel alone because you were my best friend... So yes I regret walking out on you as a friend because it hurts knowing that you wouldn't do the same mistakes I did she cries out and sniffs like a puppy that has the flu. That's when I realized there's no point in going in a constant circle, there is no point holding this anger towards my ex-friends

Look I forgive you, and im done haunting myself with mistakes you guys chose to make, there is no point in me hold you accountable for my outbursts, what happened...

And I swear all I won't leave your side again she cuts me off but I quickly silence her

But that doesn't mean we friends again Abby, sure I forgive you but what you did shows that you were never a true friend I say cutting her off and her face looks like a car road over her

I understand, and you right I can't just expect to be walking back in your life... But could you find it in your heart for me to try and fix it she pleads as she grabs my hand and looks deep into my eyes, only difference now is that my eyes hold no darkness, there is a warmth that weathers over

Okay, but for now I need space I say standing up and she nods understandingly while she sniffs continuously. She tries to hug me but I give her my hand, I said I would forgive but I didn't say I would dive right in the ocean, fuck know that will make me sink

See you around Allison she says in a shaky voice before she turns around and walks away. I know I did the right thing, although I can see how sorrowful she is I refuse to let her in so easily, it's time to put the past behind me, so im sorry to say it but it is