Drowning

Chapter 6

Playlist: therefore I am by Billie Eilish
Cold by Maroon 5 ft future
Ally it's time to wake up, a soft voice stirs me awake, and as I open my eyes it's a blur for a second so I rub the burning sensation that prickles in my eyes

Holy shit am I not dead yet I groan at the sunlight that peers at me because my cousin just has to open my curtains

No silly but it is your first day of school, she says with a small smile as she makes herself comfortable on my bed, But I can tell she has a lot to say

Let me guess I have no choice but to go I sign in defeat as I run my hands through my knotted morning hair

Look .. Allison, I just wanted to apologize for being so intrusive and well me ... I guess I just thought things were the same as before but, that cannot be possible... Look what I'm trying to say is that I'm really happy that you here you know, don't mind my dad his always so serious but my mom and I hope you feel welcomed here she says genuinely. For once I try to push my bitch demeanor aside and try to be nice, I mean I should be the one apologizing

It's okay I breathe out with a tight light smile and her eyes instantly light up

Cool, oh, and by the way, my mom went in too the office and dad left for his campaign, but she left a note for you on the refrigerator Stacey rambles on before she disperses out of my room.

Oh and one last thing we leave in 30 min she says jokingly as she props her head behind the door. I can't help but groan and throw the pillow at her, evoking a laugh from her .twat

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Take medication don't take medication, fuck it I'm just going to indulge in it. Ally your therapy session starts at 3 pm right after school, we will have a discussion when I get back home tonight xoxo aunt sally. just great more things to do that I don't want to do, I swear if slicing my wrists caused this much stress then I should have done it properly. I glance at the time on my phone,30 minutes is long overdue where is this girl I've been staring in front of the refrigerator like a fool

All righty whose ready to hit the road, miss 30 minutes herself chirps out excitedly. I could of being sleeping

Let's just get it done with I say bored, you know I could seriously use some marijuana right now, maybe that will spike some emotion besides the loss of interest

Oh, come on grumpy pants it's not going to be that bad, well .. for you I hope she says in a distant voice before she throws me a candy bar and energy drink, which startles me. What's up with her

Are you seriously going to apply lip gloss right at this moment I ask annoyed by her persistence to look good for freaking school, I mean the girl looks like a glam doll from the Barbie and Ken movie. Stacey wears a red floral mini dress and black high heels boots, her hair sweeps in a neat but messy ponytail, this showing her stunning beauty as aunt sally .she reminds me of how self cautious I used to be about my appearance before my dreadful experience happened, but now I just don't give a shit... I mean my tight ripped black jean and a loose grey T-shirt with compact boat radiate stay away from me, and I would be lying if I said I did my hair today because I used my fingers as a comb to untangle the knots leaving my hair completely wavy and loose.

Okay okay I'm going she says defensively as she pulls out of the driveway and onto the road, and throughout the drive, she rambles and chit chats to me about god knows what because I tune her out and stare off into space, I rather look at passing trees and hay then pay attention to this dreadful conversation.

Did you ever think of cutting your hair and dying it pink or blue? I question out of the blue a sudden thought popping into my head

What, I wouldn't even have the guts too she says In shock at my question but I'm not surprised by her answers.