From Zowie To Zuwaira

chapter fourty

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Hollaaaaa

Zuwaira

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"What was that"i said hitting his chest hard
" what was what"he asked innocently
"The stunt you pulled in there, what was that"I glared and he smiled
" whats wrong with me protecting whats mine "he smiled and i rolled my eyes before walking pass him to our room
" well this food looks delicious and am going to finish it with or without you "i heard him say entering the room
He sat next to me and began to dig in with an exaggerating morn
" ehmmmm this is so good"he added dramatically closing his eyes and i didnt know when i subconsciously swallowed hard.
"Try it "he said bringing the spoon to my mouth but i masked it up and looked away picked my phone and began to press it. 

The first thing i saw was Zarahs picture which is my wall paper. I suddenly felt guilty for not calling since we arrived
I immediately dialled yusrah's number.
"Zuzu" she beamed
"Yussy how are you, how is my baby, "
"Hmm dama i know you didnt call for me rather your baby"she hissed
" no na,"i whined
"She is fine,  after crying she slept off when she woke up she was about to cry again but i took her out to play" yurah explained
"Ohh my poor baby" i pouted removing my niqab and the scarf
Rayan was still making sounds  so i would want to eat the food but i brushed him off though i am starving
"Is she close" i asked yurah i heard a liitle shuffling before.
"Mummy" Zarah whined with her babyish voice
"My baby i miss you so much "
"I miss you too" she said amd began to cry
"Mummy you left me" she added sobbing
"Haba Zara dont cry,  you are a big girl now do you want farida and salim to laugh at you " i asked her
"Immediately you are on holiday Anty yusrah will bring you to us okay"
"So please dont cry okay or do you want to make mummy cry?" i added.
"No " she said and i smiled

"Dont worry i promise to buy you a lot of toys before u arrive"
"Mummy and also our baby Arif"she eager added and i smiled
" okay and also a baby Arif"i said and she screamed in excitement.
She was telling me about how her day went before the phone disconnected. I turned and my eyes landed on his . His back resting on the bed and his eyes on me. He had a frown on his face.
"What?" he asked
"The phone disconnected "i said
"Thats what you get for forgetting your husband" he shrugged and i rolled my eyes.
I picked up the plate from his hand and went to the corridor to eat because i was supper hungry and i could here the sound of his chuckle from the room
I ate quietly enjoying the ocean breeze. When i was done eating i closed my eyes and i drifted into my own world of thoughts.

How will he react when he finds out about my past. Will he still love me
Does he now? I asked my self
He has never said he loves you so where did u get that from"my conscience cautions
But he acts like he loves me* i defended
What if he doesn't" i felt my heart burnt at the mere thought of him loving me back
*back*? I asked my self.
I love him? **
Do i*
Yes* that was the only answer  I could give myself
Yes i love him. I didn't know when i began to smile.

I didnt know how i was feeling. I didnt know what was happening to me but i loved it. I just confessed my love for him to my self  and it felt good . The feeling of loving someone felt good. It felt too good that it scared me . i was tired of denying and lying to my self . i took in a long breath , with my eyes still closed the smile not leaving my face. And thats how i slept off not because am tired but because i was at peace .

With only one thought in my mind
*him*

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I was surprised to see me wake up on the bed. I could smell his scent even though he wasn't there.
"Where is he" like as if answering my question he walked in with a three quarter and a black singlet holding a paper bag
"You are awake?" he said more of a statement than a question closing the door behind him