Dangerous Innocence [ATARAXIA Series #2]

Walls

Ganther Uries Neric Asuncion's Point of View

I woke up because of the blinding ray of sunlight through my window. Mabilis akong bumangon ng makita ang oras. I'm late. I took a bath right away and wore my uniform. I grab my bag and open my door but my forehead knotted seeing Onyx in front of my door. He's smiling. 

"Good morning, Ga-" He didn't finish his sentence when his eyes landed on my neck. I immediately covered my wound. His eyes darkened. He looks angry right now. 

"What happened to you? Why do you have a wound on your neck?" His voice was calm but it sounds dangerous to me. 

"T-this is nothing, Onyx I'm just clumsy enough to slip and-" Tumigil ako sa pagsasalita ng makitang lalong dumilim ang mga mata n'ya. Without a word, he holds my wrist and drags me back into my dorm.  He slams the door shut. And put me in my bed. He turns his back to me and looks for something. 

"Onyx, I-"

"Don't talk just stay still." Wala akong nagawa kundi tumahimik. He came back with a medical kit for me. He sat beside me. And silently treats my wound I flinch when the cotton with alcohol touched my wound. 

"I'm sorry," he whispered and blow my stinging wound. I choose to shift my eyes away from him. His presence is too much for me. Onyx always makes me feel the authoritative aura that pulls me. But at the same time a gentle one. He can be both. A demon and an angel aura without any pretending to be. Hindi katulad ng ginagawa ko. 

After cleaning my wound he put a gauze on it. Saka iniwan ulit ako pero hindi rin s'ya nagtagal at bumalik sa pwesto ko. I stood up thinking that we are going to go to the class but he pushed me gently to sit in the bed again.

"Onyx may pasok tayo." I said and fix my glasses na tumabingi dahil sa pagtulak n'ya sa 'kin paupo. He stood in front of me which made me look up at him. Because he's towering over me while I'm sitting on the edge of my bed. 

"Tell me, who did that?" He intently looked at me while asking that. Umiwas ulit ako ng tingin.

"Onyx, this is nothing-" 

"BULLSH*T! NOTHING? I'M NOT STUPID URIES! THAT F*CKING WOUND ISN'T SOMETHING YOU GET FROM CLUMSINESS. IT WAS FROM A F*CKING DRAGGER." I almost jumped in my place when he shouted. He even calls me Uries which is my second name. Malamig ang tingin n'ya sa 'kin. Bigla n'ya akong hinawakan sa balikat. He's gripping me. 

"I'm a f*cking killer, I know what's dragger wound can be looks like. Tell me who did that?." I shrug.

"I-i don't know. H-hindi ko nakita sa sobrang dilim ng hallway." I lied. Tinitigan n'ya ako. Bago binitawan ang balikat ko.  I thought he'll let me go but he pulled me to stand up and cage me to a tight embraced. Rinig ko ang buntong hininga s'ya. Sunod-sunod na pagbunga ng hanging. Na para bang kinakalma niya ang sarili.  

"I'm sorry for not protecting you from that f*cking dragger. I should know better that they'll be targeting you too. Damn them. I'll rip their head off in their neck for hurting you. Listen to me, Ganther you are not allowed anymore to go anywhere without me. You'll stay with me every f*cking second." 

"B-but-" He cut off my words.

"No buts. I'll protect you. I'll never let them hurt someone I love." Para akong nanigas sa kinatatayuan ko. Hearing that word from him makes my feelings go mad. My heart is hammering in my chest. Napapikit ako ng mariniin. No, I need to come back to my senses. I can't let these feelings drive me. 

"Yes, Ganther, I fall for you. And it's your fault why I'm feeling like this so you need to catch me." I slightly push him away.  Pinilit kong h'wag ipakita ang nabubuong emosyon sa loob ko. I need to avoid this feeling.

"Don't try to hide your feelings. I can see it in your eyes. Ganyang-ganyan din ako no'n. I keep denying it. Ganther, I know this is all of the sudden. I made you suffer and here I am saying that I do have feelings toward you. Kahit ako hindi ko maintindihan I just woke up one day confused. This is not the right time for this our lives are at risk in this f*cking place. But let me do what I wanted to do. Protect you..." His eyes emitted an emotion that made me weak. 

"What are you afraid of, Ganther?" His voice is sounded soothing to me. Gusto kong umiwas ng tingin. Gusto kong magtago.  Because right now I feel like as if I am standing on a thin ice floor. Konti nalang bibigay na. 

I never appreciate others' feelings because for me it's just nothing. A distraction, a waste, and a useless thing in this world. It'll just destroy you. To change you into someone you'll never imagine. 

"You're afraid..." He whispered. I want to answer that I'm not. Being afraid is not part of my world. Kahit kailan hindi ako nakaramdam ng takot. Why would I be scared? If deep inside I know that I'm scarier than what I'm facing right now. 

Seryoso kong sinalubong ang tingin ni Onyx. Walang pag-aalinlangan ang mga mata n'ya. Desididong-desido talaga ito sa gusto n'ya.

"Onyx, you don't know me. Having me is your side is big havoc." Nakita ko ang pagdaan ng pagkalito sa mukha n'ya. Pero sa huli ngumiti s'ya. A smile was full of hope and determination. Which is new for me. 

"If you are pertaining na magiging pabigat ka sa 'kin sa laro nila, it's not true Ganther. I'll protect you. I promise that. Mark my work, Ganther I'll never let them lay their fingers on you. Magkakamatayan muna bago mangyari 'yon. " I want to avoid his eyes, the way those words let out in his lips made me feel secured. And for my whole damn life of mine, no one made me feel like this. Only him. Para akong bumalik sa pagkabatang binigyan ng pag-aalaga ng magulang sa oras na 'to. Did I lose? Natalo na ba ako kung sasabihin ko wala na akong planong tumakbo at tumanggi? Talo ba ako sa laro sa pagitan namin?

I went here to play their lives like I used to be but I think this place isn't an ordinary stage where they're my stupid chess pieces. Onyx isn't an ordinary king piece. I have just mistaken him for a toy. I got curious about him because the first time my eyes landed on him in the bar his eyes said that he is a lost soul. Looking for something he didn't find. His eyes were cold but inside it was warm. He is warm and that warmth makes those emotions that I buried years ago become alive and it's now running in my veins. I'm defeated in his warm? This is not supposed to happen. 

"H-hey what's wrong? you're shaking..." I was snapped back from deep thought by his concerned voice. Hinaplos n'ya ang pisngi ko. 

"O-onyx..." I can't even hear my voice while saying his name. I'm too clouded by flooded thoughts. 

"Yes," He beamed again and at that moment I know I just raised my white flag. And the walls that I made to protect me from falling disappeared. Onyx Ollivander Faiz Leighton breaks my walls.  And I just found myself hugging him and saying. 

"Onyx, let's fight together..." He hugs me tight back as if he doesn't want to let me go anymore. I smirk I placed my head and leaned to his chest. 

I might let my walls break into pieces doesn't mean I'm done playing. I can change the game. I can change my tactic. They'll still be my pieces on my stage. The walls have fallen but it doesn't mean the game too. That walls didn't affect my desire for destroying other's life. And while playing let's just say I'll protect my king in this game while ruining others...