PROFOUND SINS

always with you.

Love is depressing at the same time it's my life.

I have been waiting for that purity from gates of my soul.

Always standing there, I really don't know how to live without you, even if it's possible to do that.

I learnt everything about life, but no word did ever separate you from me.

I used to be the reason of your slow sweet breadth.

Your breathing gave me a reason to live.

The outmost reason of my life was to live with you and for you.

Now when I see, it does not work like that.

When I see my desperation seeking attention of him.

I get the answer of my awkwardness.

Love is what we portray not  what it wants to be understory .

Under my slow depressing smile, you were the only one to notice my hidden world. Without any fears, you were the only one who loved entering it.

You wanted to know me,

Not only adjusting to what others know.

But you wanted to know it all, all about me.

You wanted me to tell you all about my hidden horrible life.

Why would anyone ever in their life will want to listen to my life and show a care about it.

You really don't get it all.

The whole world for me is ironically  established empire.

Which is so ironic of its own existence.

What comes, goes back.

I do believe that and have faced that, but only half of that.

Is it ironically correct now?

Well I won't answer that.

Ask it.

Ask your own heart.

The answer to the questions raised in your world now.

For me my world was his existence I don't know why. But it revolved around him.

My gravity was his soul.

So here now I am not able to stand again.

He disappeared in the black hole. Making my life color all dark kohl.

Oblivion was when he left me. The sun didn't die, the earth didn't shatter but my world surely is now extinct.

Toys are what we played by, while playing with them I didn't realize when I was manufactured as one of them.

With flow of time I got surrounded by many new versions realising the dying time in my hand.

It was all slipping slowly until I found you. My world froze,

being a standby was easy for me.  Because Now I find it pathetically unreal to know that I am the only one.

The only one you ever wished for.

Never thought about fulfilling my aspirations, but now I am amazed to know that i did accomplished yours.

I never thought that I can be someone's dream but did fear of being a nightmare.

Never thought of being loved but thought of being erased. Never thought of being yours when you can't be mine.

I guess it all works like that. To leave it all and move on is the way of life, but it is not as easy as it sounds.

Because I want to cling to your memorizes all lifelong. Believe me I can do that.

I can stay all nights awake with you alive in my head, dispatched but displayed in the curtains of my mind clearly.

You did go.

It gave me a reason to live. You gave me a list to do.

You gave me a way to choose and to follow.

Which I will follow, not alone but always with you.

You dried but never died,

Your sent faded but never distended.

U left me...but my soul is always with u ...!!!

Life is a irony but i love ironic heroes...!!!

U did not portray what i wanted ..but enacted it marvellous...!!!

U did lie but a truth ...!!!

I loved u is not enough because i love is still less....!!!

U did go..but never dissipated me...!!!