I'm going to be writing this over a couple days this time so I'm going to include dates n shit
7th December
I would say megan don't read but you won't care anymore haha
I'm falling for Chloe-the best friend I have that I really like that I wouldn't say the name of- really hard. I can't help it but every time I see her I feel happy and I get butterflies. I haven't had proper butterflies before, unless I have to go on stage. In a way though this is worse than me liking megan :/ I know Chloe wouldn't hurt me anywhere near the amount megan did but it sucks. She's straight. And it hurts all the time cause she always comes to me for boy advice and how to talk to her boy crush if he's down. It's lovely knowing she trusts me but i just wish she liked me back. All of the boys she likes treat her like crap and it's horrible cause I know that if I was with her I'd never hurt her and I'd make her happy but y'know she's not that way inclined. We had German together today, which is why I'm saying this. She's such a funny girl, I spent all of my German lesson laughing at either her funny faces or her terrible jokes. I really need to stop falling for her, I mean I've literally just been crushed because I liked someone and I don't want that again.
8th December
Today was cool, didn't really do a lot. I had a few laughs with chloe and soph and rachel. Also I spoke to megan today but that was just to get my feelings out. I wish I'd have said more to be honest but I don't like talking about my feelings, plus I wouldn't know how to start. It was proper emotional though, I gave her a goodbye hug and didn't look back, I really wanted to but I knew I'd cry. It's like in a movie where the two main characters leave each other and you can tell from one persons view that they're trying so hard not to look back. Hahaha I'm listening to oltramere while writing this and it just makes it so much more emotional. Well it's only ten to eight but I'm going to sleep soon. I think I'm going to update this as it is and then do a few days again cause I can't be bothered to continue with this hahaha
