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[12] Little Energy

I have no energy and very little motivation to work on the poem and fanfictions I am currently working on.

so I decided I'd suck it up and write about that. :]

it happens to be the same thing everyday.

I wake up at 2 pm because I stayed up 'till 4 am ,, not being able to sleep.

I don't even care to check the exact time on my phone.

I just feel like I can't.

gravity feels heavier each and every morning.

so I conclude ; " I'll just lay here for now. "

for now is for hours.

eventually the sun's already going down and all I've done is stared at the grainy popcorn ceiling above me.

I've got quite a few notifications.

other days ,, I'd actually check them.

but for now I don't even feel like I have the energy.

just typing "ok" is to much right now.

so in two days I'll just reply with "oh sorry lost my phone it fell down a sewer drain and then a frog ate it but I got it back haha lol XD".

so for now I put the covers over my face and roll over to the wall.

I don't wanna think anymore right now.

I just wanna sleep.

I feel a lot better actually getting my feelings out about this woah-

honestly doing anything is just really hard for me ,, I'd rather just rot away in bed doing absolutely nothing. I even grow bored of just breathing ,, I feel like it's to much work for me sometimes. I often think life isn't worth living cause I just don't have the energy to live it honestly.

if you have a friend or family member like that I honestly beg of you to be patient and supportive of them. thought sometimes you do actually need to push the to do stuff like go outside. I was forced to today and I will actually admit ,, it was a little good. . I even got a picture. :]

sorry it's sideways ,, Wattpad likes to do that.

but anyways ,, just be patient with them and love them. they don't mean to be a burden on you or anything ,, just things are hard for them to do. the world doesn't give a shit if you feel like that ,, so be someone who does ,, which is a good friend. :]

I love you <33