“Did you file a case against…Evans?”
I asked Uno about that. I know that Evans was not really happy about that pero may kasalanan ‘rin siya ‘dun. I just can’t take his anger towards me…he’s really a good friend to me after all. Ayoko namang masayang ang pinagsamahan namin because he was really a good friend and a good person.
“Yeah.” He replied. “Ayoko lang kasing may gumagawa sa’yo ng ganun…”
I nodded at his explanation.
“I know.” I said. “Hindi ko lang talaga alam ang gagawin ko dahil galit siya. We’re good friends but I can feel my guilt creeping inside me.”
He wrapped his arms around me. He kissed the top of my head to calm me down.
“Hayaan mo na.” simple niyang sabi. “Hindi mo mapipilit ang isang tao na nadadala sa damdamin niya. He’s emotion was taking over him, and it’s not easy to cope in that kind situation.”
“I know.” I whispered. “How about you?”
“Hmmm?”
“Anong naramdaman mo ‘nung umalis… ako?” I asked him, looking hesitant.
I wanna know. Gusto kong malaman kung paano niya nakayanan ‘yun. I was selfish that time and I was scared. Bumagsak ang damdamin ko at nagpa-ubaya ako sa bugso ng emosyon ko. I don’t know what to do that time and breaking up with him was the best thing to do that time…
It was toxic. Hindi na namin kaya so I choose to let go kahit na pareho kaming masasaktan. Sobra-sobra na ang nangyari noon kaya naman naging toxic na ang lahat. We were in hole na kailangan naming pumili kung magpapatuloy ba kami o tatapusin na namin ‘to? But I choose the latter part because for me…it was the best option that time.
“Masakit.” Sagot niya. “I don’t know what to feel that time. I feel like I’m numb that time. Nawalan ako ng gana sa lahat because you’re my only inspiration. You’re my support and my home…but you choose to let go.”
“I’m sorry.” I said while looking at his eyes. He smiled at me.
“It’s okay.” he assured me. “Alam ko naman na may problema ka. May problema tayong dalawa. Kaya nga sinabihan kita noon na lumaban tayo pero ayaw mo na talaga.” Malungkot na sabi niya. “I can fight for us you know? But I guess hindi talaga sa’tin ang tadhana. When you left, I asked myself, anong ginawa kong mali? May kasalanan ba ‘ko? Am I a bad boyfriend” then he chuckled. “I was doubting myself to the point that I feel insecure. I don’t know why but it was killing me.”
I feel a lump in my throat while he’s telling me everything. If I wasn’t selfish that time…kami pa kaya ngayon? Nasa magandang kalagayan ba kami kung hindi kami naghiwalay?
There’s the ‘what if’s’ question inside me.
What if we didn’t broke up?
What if I stayed that time?
Ganun pa ‘rin ba kami kung magpapatuloy kami? I don’t know…but I guess….
When the love is true…it last forever.
“Tell me more. I wanna hear it.” I urged him.
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Through Days and Nights
Romance"Don't forget me, please. I will always love you and support you. Remember me. I love you." *** Gabbie, a 3rd year Tourism student from UP Diliman has a crush on Uno, a Musician-Psychology student from UP Diliman, for the longest time. But there is...
