"w-why did you ignore me earlier...when ben was hurting me?" i rasp out
his eyebrows furrow for a second before it seemed like something hit him and his face fell in guilt, his body tensed and his jaw clenched slightly realising what his did
"t-that was you?" he says still in shock with his mouth open a little
i nod and swallow the lump in my throat.
"i'm gonna kill him" he says harshly
"ross, why did you ignore me" my voice becomes more stern
"i didn't know it was you! i promise you, kenzie you have got to believe me"
do i?
"even if we weren't together i would do anything for you, i never planned on falling this much in love with you, the past week has been nothing but torture, i just want you kenzie, please tell me the same"
i missed him so so much that words don't explain.
but do i think this is a good idea?
nope. no not at all.
"i-i don't know" is all i say
he stays silent, my head falls back down so my eyes glance at the couch, i close my eyes slowly and a tear that had been waiting to fall for what felt like forever finally fall and land on the black fabric beneath us
i hear ross sniffle slightly but kept my head down, i knew he was hesitant on the next move but he pulled me into his embrace, letting me break down and finally let everything out
what i needed.
with my head buried in his chest whilst both his hands were holding me tight, tighter then ever before, like someone was about to come and rip my from his grip
our arms squashed between us we stay there, in silence, apart from the few sniffles and little cries from one another we both soon pull away
he puts his hand on my cheek and pulls me up to look at him, his eyes glance down to my lips and back up to my eyes, he licked his lips slowly before he started to lean
oh no.
i find myself leaning in also to the man i shouldn't still be in love with
the man that i hadn't met lips with for at least 4 months.
the man who means everything to me even though he shouldn't
the man that broke me into tiny tiny pieces and left me alone to pick them back up
the man i thought i meant everything too
the man i lost because of his actions.
the man that makes me feel like i'm on cloud 9
the man that means everything to me
the man that helped me through so much without even knowing how much he was trying
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