Don't Give Up On Me

Don't Give Up On Me. Broken

Don't Give Up On Me

Rated: M16+ on Fanfiction.net

Originally found on http://fanfiction.net/~RunWithJacobBlack

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Jacob's POV 

I couldn't believe it! She had picked him again! I should have known better . . . but for just a second I thought that she had actually picked me. I thought that she was over him, forgotten him altogether. I should have known better. I was stupid for thinking that she had actually forgotten him, and picked me. I was just the stupid kid with a crush, that's all she saw in me, I was sure of it. 

I ran through the forest of Forks and then soon La Push. It didn't matter how fast I was going, it didn't feel fast enough. I felt like something was chasing me and I knew what it was. It was my own fear, the fear of losing her again, the fear of having her pick him again over me. My own fear was chasing me, I could feel it. I ran past Sam, he heard my thoughts and what I was going to do next and he ordered me to stop and stay, and for the first time, I could and had ignored him. I hadn't ever ignored his Alpha commands before. I hadn't been able to, but now I was stronger. I knew that I was rightful Alpha of the pack, but I didn't want to be in the pack, let alone its leader. In my eyes, I wasn't strong enough to be a leader, of any kind. I couldn't even lead my own life to the way I wanted to, so how was I meant to lead others? 

I ran through the night and then finally got to Seattle just before dawn. I was able to find a place deep in the city to stay. No one was going to easily find me in Seattle and that was how I wanted it. If she did eventually choose me and love me like she had said, then she was going to have to prove it. She was going to have to come and find me and when the time came, I would know that she was looking for me. I knew that we were meant to be. She was my life and she was my true love, soul mate, my imprint.  

Things just had to work out for us. I couldn't live without her, it was a simple fact. I couldn't and wouldn't live without her. I didn't know how I had lived without her before she had come to Forks. All I remember is her coming and there's no memory of anything before that. It was like she had erased all my memories of my life before her. I didn't know how to be happy anymore without her at my side. It was her that made me smile, kept me calm. And now I was just a hot-headed wolf that needed to get a life . . . but as far as I could see it, I didn't have a life without her. I felt so determined to make things all better for her, to take her pain away after Edward had left, and now, he was back and I was the one left with the pain . . . with only one person that could take it away. But I wasn't completely sure that she would pick me in the end. The only thing I could do was hope that she would. It was the only thing that I could do.

My phone suddenly rang. I picked it up, hoping it was Bella that was ringing. Of course it wasn't. It was only Embry. I flipped it open and closed it before he could say anything. I didn't want any calls, I only wanted one, but I at the same time I didn't want the call. I wanted her to find me, without any contact. I turned it off, and fought the want the call her.  

Having my phone off did nothing to help. I threw it at the wall, causing it to shatter.  

That helped.  

I didn't have any money to buy a new one and I had no idea where there would be another phone to use. I wouldn't need it for safety that was for sure. I was a werewolf for crying out loud! I was stronger than a vampire, stronger than any human. I didn't even know why I had a phone in the first place.  

It felt like a good waste of money if you asked me.

He left, I thought, she was finally forgetting him and falling for me . . . and now . . . My hands turned to fists just thinking about it.