The day after the confirmation of my false pregnancy, I decided to lock myself in our room. Wala akong gustong gawin kundi pakiramdaman ang aking sarili at ibuhos lahat ng sakit sa pag-iyak. My husband slash boyfriend is worried. Ayaw niya akong magkulong pero sinabi ko sa kanyang isang araw lang. I just badly needed to feel myself. Alone.
I specifically told my assistant I am taking a break for today. I doubt I could get up tomorrow in a normal state tho.
From: Love
I'm here already. Please eat, at least.
Ayaw niya talaga sanang magtrabaho pero ayoko namang maging unproductive siya para lang alagaan ako. I don't need it din kase. All I need right now is myself, honestly. Parang ang sarap mapag-isa.
Hindi pa nga ako nakakapag-type ng i-re-reply, may dagdag na tatlong messages na agad mula sa kaniya.
From: Love
Send a pic of yourself eating, sweetheart.
From: Love
Or else, I'd cancel all my meetings for today.
From: Love
You're making me really worried.
Hindi ko siya ni-reply-an. Kumuha nalang ako ng saging na inihatid ni Josie sa'kin kanina at binalatan iyon. I took a picture of myself eating the banana and sent it to him via IG.
khalilsaldivar: Where's your rice?
hannahsuarez: love, I don't even have the appetite buti nga kinain ko ang saging, eh
Coz of course, it's saging. Kahit pa siguro sobrang sama ng mood ko, hinding-hindi ko matatanggihan ang saging.
khalilsaldivar: Fine. But please eat rice during lunch.
khalilsaldivar: Btw, your puffed eyes make me want to hug you right now.
That made me smile a bit, tho. I only replied him a 🤗 emoji.
After turning my phone off, the loneliness crept in me like a hungry lion anticipating for its prey. The thoughts I've been having for hours now dawned in me again.
It would have been wonderful if the result came positive.
It would have been thrilling to plan my child's future.
It would have been dreamy to have my own little family.
Look at how that moment changed my perspective in life. Nakakagulat ngang hindi man lang ako natakot para sa sarili o sa mangyayari sa career ko nang maghinala ako kahapon. It was if I was naturally ready and subconsciously been wanting for a child.
Siguro nagustuhan ko rin ang ideyang maging ina dahil sa nakuha kong reaksyon mula kay Khalil. It was heartwarming. He never fails to amaze me by throwing the right words at the right time.
It was a life-changing scenario indeed. Hindi lang nabago ang pananaw ko. Nabigyan pa ako ng kongkretong pangarap.
Ang maging ina.
Ang magkaroon ng pamilya.
Thinking about it all made me realize it wasn't just about the painful part of losing hopes. It was also about having to taste happiness, even in just a short period of time.
And it was the same time I said yes to Khalil. Finally, we broke the barriers. No terms. No conditions. Just love. It's something to be celebrated as well.
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