Come Home To You (Book 1 of You Trilogy)

Kabanata 10

"Walang honeymoon?" Wawa smirked

Kamuntikan na akong mapairap kung hindi ko lang naisip kung saan nanggaling ang tanong niya. Para saan pa? Khalil and I are not lovers.

I am currently packing my things coz we'll fly back home na any moment from now. My friends are here in our villa, bugging me while Khalil's outside. May inaasikaso lang. 

Yesterday, I tied the knot with Khalil. Yes. We married each other. It was a private beach wedding. Okay na sana ang civil wedding, sa munisipyo, kaso Dad told me to push through my 'dream' wedding. Maybe for 'pampalubag-loob' which I honestly don't need naman talaga.

Maganda ang naging venue. The backdrop was the blue skies and ocean. Classy ang rose gold motif. Flowers were everywhere. It was dreamy, I must admit. The setup was exquisite. But I realized, it was not my dream wedding at all. Oo nga at gusto kong ikasal sa dalampasigan pero napagtanto kong walang wala ang dekorasyon kung hindi ko naman mahal ang lalaking pakakasalan.

Hindi ako sentimental pero naisip ko lang, wedding is not about how grand the celebration is, it is about the person you share that solemn promise with.

Maybe if Khalil and I were really in love with each other, then I think I could not ask for more. Or maybe, I would wish for something. I wish Mom was there, holding my hand, soothing that suffocating feeling of walking towards the man I wish I should not be marrying. 

Matapos niyang umalis sa bahay, hindi na kami nakapag-usap pa. Bukod sa naging busy ako sa trabaho at sa kasal, hindi narin talaga nagpakita si Mommy sa'kin.

The absence of my mother made everything even heavier, atleast for me. I cried in travail while walking in the aisle. The guests thought I was the happiest, little did they know I was dying inside.

"Mag Maldives kayo Han." Claui suggested

"Pwede ring Bora." Bench added

"Sama kami." 

"Tanga ka Josh. Honeymoon nga, sasama tayo?"

Wawa crossed his arms and smiled like crazy. 

"Bakit, Clau? Pwede naman yun. Sa ibang suite sila para alam nyo na, may mabuo agad." humalakhak pa siya

"Hindi pa naman namin 'yan napag-uusapan ni Khalil. We're both busy kaya baka sa susunod nalang. So please stop whatever you're thinking." 

I wish I could tell them the truth, kase sa totoo lang, nakakaguilty. The sparkle in their eyes and the realness of their smiles bug my conscience. 

This wedding costs so much. I am not just fooling my fans, I am fooling my friends too. And this is certainly is a pain to the core for my own mother. Thinking about it all makes me want to redo everything. But then, nothing could be done inversely now. 

"Busy? Diba sobrang naging busy ka last month? Hindi pwedeng pause muna kase bebe time?" Bench raised his brows

"Sobrang bigdeal sa inyo ang honeymoon no?" umirap ako

Kagabi pa nila ako kinukulit actually, doon sa reception.

"Duh Hannah malamang. Mainit pa kase bagong kasal kayo, why don-"

"Saka na nga lang kase." 

"Alam mo minsan hindi kita maintindihan. Dream wedding mo ang beach wedding pero parang off ang air mo kahapon. Tapos ngayon naman, ayaw mo ng honeymoon eh noong kayo pa ni Fahren, kulang nalang-"

"Hindi ba pwedeng nagmature lang ang isip, Claui? Maraming trabaho si Khalil at ako rin naman kaya hindi na muna ngayon." pagsisinungaling ko kahit hindi naman na ganun kahectic ang schedule