Unpredictable • cth

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I did stay silent for a moment. I was trying to process weather or not he was asking because he was trying to ease my mind or because of my ruin us comment. I wanted to say yes but for some reason my mouth simply wouldn't open.

I was screaming yes in my mind, telling him I love him endlessly but my mouth wouldn't move. Perhaps it be the shock of it finally happening, of the two of us finally putting a label on it and showing the love we have for each other to everyone else. Or maybe it was the fact that he was finally mature enough for us to be more than just Ella and Ryder.

"I know it's not the way I wanted to do it, so you don't have to answer to anything I just-"

"Yes."  I was quick to cut him off, my eyes flicking up to my ceiling as my body flipped back against my mattress.

"Really?" He spoke in disbelief, I can only imagine is mouth and eyes wide as I answered. "Really baby? You wanna be mine?"

"That's all I've ever wanted." I hummed as I spoke into the phone, my eyes shutting as I was purely happy at the simple question.

"Fuck I wish I could kiss you so fucking hard right now." Ryder mumbled, his voice sounding purely euphoric.

"Come kiss me than." I hummed yet again, my body feeling as if it was floating.

I had always been quick to switch my emotions. Including the situation right now. I had been so in my own head, full of lack of trust in myself and others. I wanted so badly  to just allow the happiness of the moment fall over my body, pushing any negative emotions away from my mind.

He was perfect and he was officially mine. He was mine, utterly and forever mine.

"I'll come see you before you leave with your dad." He spoke into the phone with a giggly tone.

He was now following behind in my actions, allowing his body to float up to cloud nine. I can hear him sigh in relief over and over again, repeating 'yes' under his breath multiple times like he was trying to make sure it wasn't a dream.

"Be ready before school and I'll come and say hi." He spoke almost in a whisper.

"Your mine." I whispered back, knowing he was smiling like a pure idiot on the other end of the phone, just as I was.

"Your mine." He spoke back in the same tone, I could almost hear the dimples from his smile coming  through the phone.

His face materializing in front of my eyes as I stared up at my ceiling. I genuinely felt like I was floating. The drug that I couldn't get enough of was now mine and no one else could get high off his love but me. His smile was coming down from my ceiling, the pure image of his face shining down on my own.

My mind was quickly pulled back out of my cloud state as my head fell to the side looking at the picture that had been glued back together and sat back in its original place.

My mom loved Ryder. I knew if she was here when we both had our falling out she would have loved him the same. She could always see the good in people, she can see past the mistakes that we are normally so quick to define  someone as. But if she was here we may have never had the falling out in the first place.

My mom could get anything out of Ryder. In fact Aunt S had to often times call my mom over to get him to fess up on something he did. So she would have talked him out of doing what he did that day before he even stepped over the threshold to my front door.

I pulled the phone away from my face so Ryder couldn't hear me anymore, my eyes gazing on the picture. "You would be proud of him mamma, he's keeping his promise."