I wasn't enough.

Chapter 17

Lucy's POV

I still can't believe she's gone. Today is the funeral and my husband can barely dress himself let alone go outside and see all his friends and family at the funeral. I'm sure all he wants to do is stay home and cry his eyes out until the pain ends but he has to be strong since he's the oldest of three; Him, James and then his sister Rebekah. The is no doubt Rebekah would be crying her eyes out today so David will be there for her. I just wish I could help him right now with what he's going through. Sure I don't know what it feels like to have a parent die but I do know what it's like not to have a parent. My father left when I was six and my mother never re-married so I'm the only one. But surely this is similar right?

"Hey honey, you ready?" I called to David who was currently in the bathroom

"Uh, yeah I'll be out in a sec" he called back with a hushed voice

"Okay I'll be in the car".

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"Wow the church is beautiful isn't honey?" I asked trying to lighten the mood

"I guess so" he mumbled as he took off his seat belt "we better head inside".

As the service went on you heard quiet cries and sniffles. Seated next to my husband was sad, he was so tense and rigid that it was hard to even hold his hand. He didn't want anyone to touch him especially his brother, if James tried to talk to him or touch his shoulder he would flinch. I cupped his chin and turned his face to mine "David, it's okay. You'll be fine. I'm here for you" I said to him with a soft tone in my voice "I know. I just miss her" "it's fine David, we all will" I replied after giving him a soft peck on the lips. He rested his head on me while we waited for the service to end. When the priest finished talking David and his brother walked over to the coffin along with some of their uncles and carried it out into the Hearse.

We followed along in our car and drove out to the cemetery. Only a few people were invited to come as it was a private cemetery, the uncles, aunts, nephews/nieces, David's brother/sister with their spouses and David and I.

The cemetery was peaceful with a light breeze in the air and the sun shining through the clouds. It sort of looked like it was Evelyn (David's mother) shining down on the cemetery from heaven. It brought me great joy. We placed flowers onto the coffin then it was lowered. After it was fully down we all left and went back home. No one was up to having a family reunion while one person was missing so it was a mutual agreement.

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On the way home David phone started to ring but because he was driving it he couldn't answer so I grabbed the phone.

"Who's Emily honey?" I asked with curiosity rising within me "Oh just a coworker, can you let it go to voicemail I can't deal with work right now" "Sure honey".

So this Emily was a coworker, how do I not know her? I know everyone that works at David's restaurant. I know this is nor the time or place but the questions itching inside me and it has to get out "How come I don't know Emily?" I asked politely so he wouldn't get upset "Oh um, she's new" "But why didn't you mention her earlier?" I asked more eagerly "Um I don't know I just-Uh honey can we not talk about this right now I just lost my mother please?" David pleaded "I'm sorry honey. I know you're having a hard time and I'm making it worse. We can talk about his later I'm sorry" "Thank you" David replied kissing the top of my hand.

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The drive was long and quiet but we arrived home eventually and honestly I was exhausted. I walked into the lounge room and splayed myself out on the couch. David called and told me he's going to have a shower to which I sat up. For some unconscious reason I decided to sneak up the stairs when I heard David talking to someone on the phone "Emily why did you call me today?" He asked "My mother just died and I can't-babe I know you want to see me but I'm not feeling up to it" he told Emily over the phone. Why us her calling her babe? He wouldn't cheat on me we made a vow! "I'm sorry babe, I'll sneak around tonight okay? Yeah I love you too. I'll talk to you later, bye". What? I can't believe him! How could he? What would posses a man to do something like this? He's my world, he means EVERYTHING to me and what? I guess I mean nothing to him. I can't believe I thought he was the perfect husband. Who in their right mind would cheat on the one person they're supposed to love? What kind of person is he? I feel like our marriage was a big lie. Fuck him! Quickly walking up the stairs I storm into the bedroom "Oh hey baby what's wro-" "Don't 'Hey baby' me you asshole!" I said cutting him off "Did you think I wouldn't find out what you're doing?" I yelled heat rising in my cheeks "What are you talking about?" David asked with a quivering voice "You know full well what I am talking about, I know you're mother just died and you're going through pain but What the Fuck? You're such an asshole!" I yelled even louder literally fuming "I don't know what you're talking about Lucy. If you'd just explain I would understand better" David replied with a calm voice. I just wanted to punch his face right now. "How long have you been seeing Emily?" I say with a trembling voice on the brink of tears "Baby, I-I" "Yeah that's what I thought. You're such a coward! You can't even admit to your own wife that you've been cheating on her." The tears just started flowing and felt like they wouldn't stop. "Lucy I'm so sorry" David said reaching for my shoulder I whacked his hand away and stepped back while wiping my tears "How many times?" I questioned "What?" David asked dumbfounded "How many fucking times have you cheated with her David?" I said louder, hot tears rolling down my cheeks "Um, a lot" he replied scratching the back of his neck "Have you cheated some many times that you can't even count? We're you still seeing her when you found out about the baby?" I asked tears still falling, it felt like Niagara Falls was coming out of my tear ducts "Yeah and yeah" "Are you fucking kidding me right now?" I slid down the wall and plopped on my butt, placing my face in my hands "So all the times you were 'working late' you were with her weren't you?" I was so tired I couldn't be bothered yelling anymore "Yeah Luce, look I'm sorry I-" "Don't say you're sorry. If you were sorry you would have told me the first time and never went back to her. And like an idiot I would've forgive you" I sat in thought for a little while when I spoke again "Did you go and see her when we were on that date in Chinatown? Was that her on the phone or did you actually go back to work" I hope with all my heart he went back to work "Um, I went to see her" David replied remorse in his eyes. I was s peach less. My heart hurt so bad that I thought I was going to die. It felt like a thousand daggers were thrown into my heart, pulled out and thrown back in again. I wanted to physically rip my heart out so I didn't have to feel the pain of what's happening. He cheated on me with no doubt a beautiful girl and didn't do any higher to stop himself. Did he not think of repercussions his actions would cause? Did he ever think of me? "Why did you do this David?" I asked tears continuing to fall "I don't know. It was stupid and dumb and I would never want to do anything to hurt you honey" He was hurt. "THEN WHY DID YOU CONTINUE TO CHEAT? IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HURT ME WHY DID YOU DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE?" I yelled with venom in my voice "I'm sorry I'm truly truly sorry. I love you and only you" I screamed in frustration "That's not what you told Emily before on the phone! Just stop making up lies" I said "Lucy I want to fix this I love you" "You only love me because I'm carrying your child!" I said standing back up "That's not true! I've always loved you!" David yelled "Just leave. I need some time alone. I'm exhausted and I don't feel like arguing anymore" David looked at me hesitantly then scurried out of the room. What an ass.

Hey ladies and gentlemen (If there are any) here's another chapter. Yay! I'm so happy I have another chapter up :)

Lucy finally found out. I literally almost cried when I was writing this I don't know why lol I'm too emotional haha

Anyway sorry for taking so long I just started school again. For those who don't know I'm from New Zealand and start school in February. I have homework and stuff like that so yeah..

Thank you guys so much for continuing to read this book it means a lot to me honestly. Please comment and vote it would be totally wicked! Okay bye bye love ya'll ❤ xx

Oh and yes Holly Marie Combs is cast as Lucy sorry I didn't know how to add cast. Also Brett Tucker is cast as David not necessarily with an Australian accent because I pictured him with an American accent