Our Dirty Secret -l.t. [Book II]

Chapter 5

Leticia Ray's

"Go"

I blink back at Louis. Is this surrender already? "What? No. I can't give you up just like this. I- you said we will make it work. I-I could try to beg some more, Louis." I said desperately, taking his wrists to shake his arms lightly.

Louis simply shook his head. Is this really defeat? What the hell? What happened to fighting even if the world is against us?

"Trust me, okay? We shouldn't upset mum no more." He responded, holding my face to kiss on my forehead. I was mad but knew it was all on me. Although more than ever, I was confused. I thought it was Louis and me forever. He just said so hours ago in the kitchen. What happened to that? It was all a bluff?

I gave him a disappointing look before picking myself up from the floor and forcing my way to help my mother pack my things.

It was all a blur after that. No one was talking and it was not like I have it in me to talk. I didn't notice Louis left my room nor how in a blink of an eye, almost all my stuff is packed and ready to go.

"It'll be enough for starters. You should rest, Leticia." Mum said as I sat up on my bed. She gave me one last look before she went to turn off the lights.

"Mommy, I'm sorry..." I managed to trail off sadly.

"I know you are." She replied before closing the door behind her.

It was dark. I couldn't see anything anymore. That'll probably much resemble my own world. I should get used to this one way or another, or else it'll consume me for the worst. Gosh, I felt betrayed. We could've fought for what we have some more. We could've resist more or run away. But we ended up like this...

Thinking about those things over and over again, I ended up falling asleep at the edge of my bed. This day turned into a nightmare.

"Leticia, darling, wake up. Come on. It's not time for you to sleep in." I felt someone shaking me vigorously. Did I dream everything up? I hope that was the case, really. I'll trade my soul for that.

I open my eyes slowly. It was still dark with a little hint of light from in front of me. "Louis?" I hummed sheepishly.

"Shhh." I heard him shush as I shifted my sore body a bit. I'm feeling the toll of crying already. I wish it would stop. It's not like I wanted to speak with him either way. With that, I stayed silent just as he told me. What more does he want? He is already giving me away like some free change. "I know you're mad at me, baby. But hear me out first." He tried to coo as he stroke my hair gently.

My face softens a little, but I still did not let out a word. "Let's grant what mum wants in the meantime. If we would try to negate her while the fury is still fresh, she won't understand and hear us out. I promise we'll make it work, didn't I?" He asked. I could only nod. "I heard mum talking to dad earlier. Apparently, she didn't specifically tell him our situation. With that, we could still interact there. I'll take the car drive you to school. We could still go on dates and whatnot. Meanwhile, I'll make sure to persuade mum again when she had cooled off. " He tries to explain his case as I watch fingers fiddling with each other.

I sighed and glanced up at him. "Really? Is that the truth?"

Louis gave me a weak smile before messing my hair. I couldn't help but giggle softly. "Really. It's the truth. When did I even lie to you?" He replied before engulfing my body to his with a hug. "I'll miss you tons, my baby. But it'll just be for a little time. Don't cry yourself to sleep anymore, okay? I'll make sure we can go back to the way it was before." He reassured.

I know for the fact that it'll be hard to cope up with the environment of him not being there beside me. Just thinking about it is enough to make me shudder. Will I be able to make it for a week even? Louis had spoiled me too much that I might just not make it for real. I am overreacting, but no one would understand.

I hold both of his shoulders in horror when a bitter idea crept into my mind so suddenly. "Hmmm? Baby, do not give me that look, please. It's just temporary. Don't make it harder for me." Louis whispered before pressing yet another kiss upon my forehead.

"B-but, what if another girl came into your life? More beautiful? Smarter and just so irresistible!" I gushed out. I am scaring the shit out of me, but that's a possibility. Louis is a lady's man after all. "What if you've liked her more than me? And then the distance just makes it harder that you've decided you're better off with her? Louis! I can't have that!" I started to wail again as I clench my fist against his shirt ever so tightly. I don't wanna go!

"Leticia," I could hear his frustration from the way he sighed my name so deeply. He tried to snap me out of my trance when he shook my shoulders firmly. "Look at me. Just look at me."

I frown but I could only let my gaze fall to his face with tears streaming down my cheek. My voice became small after that. "Isn't there any other way, Louis?" I begged. I know this is hard for him as well, but I couldn't just let go of him like that. No. Never ever.

"Baby, babygirl. Tell me then... Would you rather you never see me again or have this setup with me? Promise I'll take you with me as soon as I can. " Louis tried his best to explain it to me. I could only frown deeper as I look down to my lap. "I could ask you to run away, you know. But I do not think I could give you the life you deserve right now. And besides, I know you would not want mum to hate us forever. This is the safest choice we could take. "

I sat there in silence as I try to comprehend what Louis is saying and not reject it completely. "Just a little sacrifice for us to be together forever. Won't you want that for us?" He asked.

"I do," I whispered in defeat.

"Won't you behave then and be a good girl for Louis?" He hums before picking me up to sit me over his lap. I sighed before snuggling closer to his figure. He kept rubbing small circles against my back as he waited for an answer. We both know where this is heading anyway. I do not have to utter the word at all.

I could only sniffle and silence my sobs against his shoulder. We would really be apart for quite some time after this. How frequent is often even? Does he mean every day? Twice a week? Or once a month? This is not helping me at all. "Could we still eat lunch at school?" I asked.

"Hmm? I thought you wanted me to eat lunch with my friends." Louis stated. My head snapped up to give him a look. I look at him disapprovingly. Is he being serious right now?

"You're mine at lunch," I said firmly. Louis chuckles as he tries to lighten up the mood.

"The better." He smiles weakly as he cups both of my cheeks within his warm hands. "I never said I didn't want to." He added softly before kissing my nose to trail his lips over mine.

The kiss we shared that night feels feather-like. It was there, and I was so scared all of the feelings will be gone along as soon as our lips parted. It was a different level of anxiousness that I feel like drowning from here there. Nevertheless, I couldn't stop as I try to kiss Louis deeper. I needed to feel anything but that. Even if I lost all the signs of breathing- of living. So long as I'll falter within his arms, I would be alright. That's what I wanted to tell him, but I am afraid I would be selfish again. He's simply looking after our future, and the least I could do is to cooperate and trust him.

"Darling, breathe." Louis chuckles as he detaches his lips to me. I have so many things I wanted to say, but I am not sure where to start. I couldn't help but smile a little as I hear him chuckle. I could only imagine what he is feeling inside, and yet he had chosen to comfort me instead.

"I'll miss you..." I trailed off.

"I'll miss you too. You have to be a big girl there, okay? Don't let anyone else spoil you but me. You're my princess." Louis smiles as he squishes my cheeks together. "I love you, Leticia. Don't ever forget that." He continued before peppering me with kisses.

"I love you too," I replied with a few giggles.

We will be alright.

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Hello, everyone! I hope you're enjoying the continuation of the story so far. Louis and Leticia have still ways to go. I will try to update as much as I could, get into a rhythm, and be able to have an updated schedule again. Thank you so much for supporting this story up until now. Stay safe! :))