Torn

Chapter 59.1/59.2 Combined ✓

"There is another thing you must be made aware of. In passing your essence from my womb to your birth mothers, your soul was torn. You would not have survived in your world otherwise. You had to remain a mortal in the eyes of the world." Her eyes become dark and distant.

My brows shoot up to my hairline. Goddess this is so much to take in. What the hell does that even mean? My soul is not whole? I'm missing apart of myself? Am I not human?

What the actual fuck?

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I sit beside the Godd- my mother... and I'm sure I look like a fish out of water. My eyes are huge, and my mouth is gaping open. Nothing makes sense. Except for the fact that I am dead, that I understand perfectly.

"Okay. Let me get this straight. My soul was torn because my parents aren't my actual parents, and a Goddess of wolves is my actual mother. When I was alive, I was human but I'm not actually a human because like I said my soul isn't even in one piece but even that doesn't matter any more because I'm dead!" A hysterical laugh bubbles up my throat. "And I never thought I would miss the days when my biggest concern was falling in love with my two best friends."

"Yes, my daughter, you are now one of the immortals. In death you have shed your mortal shell to become who you were destined to be. I am sorry you had to find out like this. I had to protect you; I could not have people finding out who you were before it was time. It was the only way to ensure of your safety. I had to take her essence away from you and so your soul had to be torn." Her voice is so sad, and I have the strangest urge to hug her.

I scooch myself closer to her and lay my head on her shoulder. She leans down and presses a soft kiss to the top of my head and a feeling of peace pulses through my body.

"Would you like to meet her?" She asks me.

"What does that even mean?" I pull away to look up at her. "Meet who? Godd-mom? You need to understand that I am so confused right now. This is too much to take in."

She smiles down at me. "Your other half, my daughter. Would you like to make your soul complete?"

"I... uh... yes?" I barely manage to get the word out.

"By accepting, your soul will no longer be torn, it will bind itself together again. Though I have a favor to ask of you once you are whole. Will you to be my eyes and ears?" Her voice becomes heavy, as if she is asking me for the world.

"Your eyes and ears? What would I be looking for? Does this mean you are sending me back?" My heart clenches at the thought of going back.

"Yes, my heart. You would be going back. Your death was the beginning of the end, as per the prophecy. As much as I am painfully sorry that you had to go through this, your death was necessary. The blood of the three have now been combined, so your return will be imminent." The Goddess stands and begins walking down the hill and slowly I get up to follow.

The grass tickles my bare ankles, my beautiful wedding dress flowing around me. I look down at my chest to see the stains of my blood splattered across my chest and my eyes widen. The red dress. Serena saw this coming.

"You do not have to accept my task, which is a decision only you can make. The reason I ask this of you, is my council has been tainted. They are blocking my sight and I am not sure how. Something dark this way comes. I need you to be my guide, daughter. Know that if you accept my task, I will be right beside you the entire time. I will never leave you for as long as that is in my control." She squeezes my hand tightly.

"Okay. I can do that. I can be your eyes an ears. I want to go back. I want to be with my mates." I nod vigorously.

"You need to understand that this will not be an easy journey. Quinn and Xander are currently trying to bring your soul back, to heal your body. If you decide to go back to Earth, and you agree to undertake this task, there will be no turning back." The warning in her voice rings clear but I have no doubts that this is what I need to do.

"I understand. Let me do this for you, mom."

"There is also the fact that you will not be a regular Luna. You are the daughter of the Moon Goddess. The Daughter of the Moon and Sun. A deity. You will become the Queen of the wolves with two powerful Alpha mates at your side. The epitome of the Alpha Ultima. Everyone will bow. This, my daughter, is what you were born to be." Her voice is filled with pride, and I hold my head higher.

I continue nodding my head like a fool. I can do this. I can figure out how to be more than just... me. In the end, it doesn't matter what I must endure. Quinn, Xander and I will handle it all as a team. As the ruling Alpha Ultima. The Goddess grins at me widely, pride showing in her beautiful eyes.

"Very well." She nods and turns to the side. "Let us meet your soul."

"Wait!" I yell. "There is one thing you haven't told me yet."

"Ah. I figured this would come." She smirks down at me knowingly.

"Please, just tell me this one last thing before I meet my soul. If you are my mother... then who is my father?" I question.

She smiles down at me fondly, another far off look in her eye.

"The moon only bows to one, my perfect daughter." She smirks and before I can ask any further questions she looks away. "I welcome you, Lupin." The Goddess turns away from me and waves her hand.

Faster than the blink of an eye, a massive white wolf with eyes like blue ice stands before me. I yelp and take a step back, causing the wolf to whine and lower her head. The last thing I ever expected was for the missing essence of my soul to be a wolf.

I really shouldn't have been surprised. My mother is the Goddess of the Moon. The mother of werewolves. I should have known when she mentioned I was not human that I was meant to be born a werewolf as well.

"Do not fear her, daughter. You were born to be together, and she has missed you. She will never lead you wrong. Place your trust in Lupin and you will thrive."

I look between the beautiful moon white wolf and the Goddess, before taking a moment to compose myself. Once I feel more in control, I take a step towards Lupin and drop to my knees in front of her.

"Hello, Lupin." I say softly.

I reach my hand out and she takes a step towards me. My fingers run through her soft fur and Lupin lets out a low grumble of contentment. I lower my head and allow her to place her furry forehead against my own.

"I accept you, Lupin." I whisper.

As soon as the words leave my lips, blinding pain spreads through my chest and a fierce scream tears its way up my throat before it all goes black.

"Good luck, my sweet, perfect daughter." My mothers voice echoes in the blackness around me.