Every Ending (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 36

I swallowed the lump in my throat as I watch him getting closer. Hindi ako natinag sa kinatatayuan at hinanda ang sarili para sa susunod na sasabihin.

"I don't expect you to suddenly forgive me or something. Gusto ko lang magpakatotoo sa 'yo. That even there are many things to keep us apart... naniniwala akong mahal mo ako, at gano'n din a-"

That's the moment when everything around me feels unreal when time suddenly stops like the way my heart stops beating and then bigla akong nawala sa sarili ko. Because suddenly, Gen cupped my face and kissed me.

Gen. Kiss. Me.

I close my eyes as I felt his lips moving gently and passionately against mine. Every move of his lips makes me crazy, maybe because he didn't even move and I felt ashamed knowing that I don't have any knowledge about it.  

Tumayo ang lahat ng  balahibo ko sa batok nang gumapang ang kamay niya papunta dito at mas pinailalim ang kanyang mga halik.

That thing makes my eyes widened, getting me back to my senses and realizing what he's doing. I place my hands on his chest and slightly pushed him. Inilayo niya ang mukha niya sa akin.

Mapungay ang mata niyang nakatingin sa labi ko. He licked his lips and looked at my eyes, still holding my nap and face.

"W-what are you doing?" Gulat kong tanong.  My lips shivering.

"I kissed you," paos niyang sabi at isang beses ba sinulyapan ulit ang labi ko.

My face heated at what he said. 

I know that. Alam ko naman na hinalikan niya ako! But the question is... why?

And worst, I let him do it!

Nagseryoso siya habang tinitignan ako. Binitawan na niya ang pagkakahawak niya sa mukha at batok ko at bahagyang lumayo sa akin.

"Why? You don't like it?" Seryoso nitong tanong na nagpakunot ng noo ko. That's not even the matter.

"Bakit mo ginawa 'yon?" I asked, despite the fast beating of my heart. Hindi pa din naka-move on sa biglaan niyang halik.

I swear, I saw the glimpse of irritation on his face while looking at me.

"Seriously?" He asked, hindi makapaniwala. He rested his hands on his hips and looked away.

Padabog niyang binalik ang tingin sa akin.

"You said that you have feelings for me, right?"

Ramdam ko ang pamumula ng pisngi ko dahil sa biglaan niyang tanong. "D-dahil sinabi kong may feelings ako sa 'yo kaya mo ako hinalikan?"

I  probably look so stupid here.

He frowned.

"No. I kissed you because I love you, at ganoon ka din. What's the matter? Why are you complaining about it?" He said, trying to calm and not to sound pissed.

Natulala ako.

So ganoon pala 'yon?

Pwede ng maghalikan basta gusto niyo ang isa't-isa.

I blink twice, thrice, many times. "I-I mean... h-hindi naman kasi tayo, eh." I whispered the last one.

But I assumed he heard it the reason my face heated more out of embarrassment. Damn! Hanggang kailan ba ako mapapahiya sa harap ng lalakeng 'to?

I saw a glimpse of amusement on his eyes. Para siyang natatawa na naaawa habang nakatingin sa akin.

"Anong problema do'n. Eh, pwede namang maging tayo." He said. He licked his bottom lips and bit it.