Laments of Broken Strings (Arte del Amor #1)

Chapter 34

Happy 18th Birthday, my dearest Nyx Lyrica Pajarillaga!

It's June 24 today and I'm writing this on your 14th birthday. Nakakainis naman, kailangan namin umuwi agad. Akala ko ay makakasama pa kita nang matagal ngayong birthday mo.

I am bored, at kahit four years from now mo pa 'to matatanggap ay isesend ko na para masaya. Kapag nabasa mo na ito, baka mas lalo mo akong mahalin. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Naiisip ko, does the 18 year old Nyx still love me? Tayo parin kaya?

Sigurado kasi ako na kapag eighteen na tayo, ikaw parin yung pinakamamahal ko. This may sound cheesy, but please take into consideration that I am just 15 today! Do not hold this against me!

But seriously though, I really, really, really hope that I am still with you today.

Kung hindi man, baka kasalanan ko na iyon.

Baka sa panahon na ito ay marami nang nagbago at marami nang mga tao ang dumating sa buhay natin, Nyx. But you know? Despite everything that would change, I think I will still choose to love you, and only you over and over again. Who likes change anyway?

I may not know everything at this age but I'm sure of what I want.

Your happiness.

Kung ano man ang mangyari sa apat na taon bago mo matanggap 'to, you should know that I'd be okay as long as you are happy. I will give you everything if it meant seeing you smile.

Sa bawat araw, kahit gaano kahirap, smile.

Kung nakikita mo lang ang mga ngiti mo mula sa mga mata ko, you would love yourself a million times greater, or even more. That is how beautiful your smile is.

You see... I don't want to lose you ever. Sana hindi nalang matapos itong mga araw na masaya tayo. Gusto ko, tayo nalang palagi. Ikaw nalang parati... pero fate doesn't really work the way we want it to, hindi ba?

If life doesn't agree with my wish to be with you forever, that would be okay as long as you are happy.

If you are still my girlfriend today, thank you for staying.

Thank you for making me the happiest person who ever lived. I have been blessed to be loved by Nyx Lyrica in this lifetime, at hilingin ko man na sana ay pati sa susunod, sapat na sa akin na minamahal mo ako ngayon.

I love you.

I will love you until the day that I die, and maybe even after that.

Forever,

Railey Sky.

Walang tigil ang pagbagsak ng mga luha at pagtakas ng aking mga hikbi habang binabasa ang e-mail ni Railey para sa akin. At exactly 12 midnight, my phone showed a notification of this message he sent four years ago.

Hindi ako makapaniwala! "Bakit ka ganyan..." bulong ko sa kawalan habang umiiyak. This is just proof that he's really been thinking about having a future with me. Sa unang segundo ng araw ng kaarawan ko ay napaiyak niya na ako nang ganito.

Paulit-ulit kong pinapasadahan ng tingin ang bawat letrang nakatipa sa screen ng laptop ko. I just couldn't believe that even after death, he is able to reach out to me. Ang daya daya talaga ng lalaking 'to.

I started typing a reply, knowing there's not even a tiny chance he's going to receive it.

Railey,