Jimin
when you can't sleep
In the middle of the night you laid awake, staring at the ceiling. So many thoughts were racing in your brain, making it impossible for you to fall asleep. The constant noise in your head was giving you a stinging headache. No matter how hard you tried to stop thinking, it didn't work. The more you tried, the more overwhelming it got.
This was your third sleepless night in a row. Lately you had been doubting yourself, your life choices and your future plans. You felt like you had no control over anything in your life. The confidence you had once felt was completely destroyed, leaving you with nothing but insecurities and fears. University was whipping your ass, making you feel like you weren't good enough.
The amount of stress it was causing you was beyond words to grasp it. What were you going to do if you decided to drop out ? Was there anything in this life that you were good or passionate about ? All these questions that you had asked yourself during puberty times were reentering your life, and they had gotten only more overwhelming.
Turning to your side, you saw Jimin's peaceful sleeping face. Seeing him felt like taking in a deep breath. Sweet relief momentarily washed over you only until your worries grabbed the upper hold again.
You were sunken deep in thought, not realizing that you had been staring at him. When Jimin's eyes fluttered open, you didn't notice at first.
"(Y/N) ?" he whispered in his sleepy hoarse voice.
"Hmm ?" you hummed, snapping out of your daze. "Did I wake you up ? I am sorry."
"Can't you fall asleep ?" he asked instead of answering your question. Shaking your head no, you fought off the tears that had formed in your eyes.
Jimin tenderly caressed your cheek, tucking the strands of hair that had fallen in your face behind your ear. Silently you looked at each other and that was enough for you to understand him. He told you that he was there for you with his eyes, with his gentle touch. You relaxed immediately, feeling the tight feeling in your chest ease away.
"No matter what happens, even if everything goes wrong that could possibly go wrong, we have each other" Jimin told you. "I don't know about you, but that's enough for me. Knowing that even if I were to lose it all but still have you in the end, I wouldn't care."
A tear escaped your eye when you heard him say such sweet things. He wiped your tears away, giving you a sad smile.
"I can't stand to see you cry" he whispered. "Don't cry baby, let me be the only thing in life you need and I will promise to never disappoint you."
"You are right" you agreed, "What am I worrying about ? When I have you in the end of the day, everything else doesn't matter. I am sorry that I keep on forgetting."
"We will work things out together" he promised, taking your hands in his palms and kissing them. "I promise to always be there for you."
Shifting closer, you nuzzled your nose against his, making him giggle. His eyes were sparkling as he looked at you. If there was one thing you did right in your life than it was loving him. You strongly believed that faith had Jimin come into your life. He was your anchor, your force to keep on going.
"Talk to me" you said to him, smiling. You could feel his warm breath on your lips as he softly chuckled, the comforting sound of his laughter filled your ears.
"Do you want me to bore you to sleep ?" he asked and this time you laughed.
"No, stupid" you said, kissing the tip of his nose, making him scrunch it cutely, "I like listening to your voice. It calms me down."
He adoringly looked at you, pecking your lips sweetly. His soft lips felt heavenly against yours.
"(Y/N) I love you a lot" he smiled from ear to ear as the words left his lips. Even though you had been in a relationship for a while now, your heart burst whenever he told you he loved you. Perhaps, you would never get used to hear those words from him. They were way too special to ever feel ordinary.
"I love you" you responded, and he began to kiss you.
Your room was warm, Jimin was warm and your heart was warm. You liked the little bubble the two of you had created. It was your own little world where there was only room for the both of you. It was your safe place. A perfect world in which nothing but love existed.
Your fingers in his hair, his hands holding your face, you kissed each other like it was your last kiss. You wanted to lose yourself in him, forget all that was weighing you down. The intoxicating taste of his lips had you drunk in love. Jimin's hands travelled down to the rim of your shirt which he then pulled over your head with a little struggle. He began to place butterfly kisses along your neck down to your collarbones.
Letting him take care of you, you were able to regain a sense of hope and security. He loved you until you were healed again.
Cuddled against his warm bare chest, you closed your eyes and finally drifted off to sleep. The next morning the two of you slept in late and spend the rest of the day cuddling in bed, Jimin reading the novel he was currently reading to you and goofing around - just remaining in your own little bubble for as long as possible.
