Save me. Im about to fall (Jimmy sullivan)

save me i'm about to fall (jimmy sullivan) Help me

<P>"come here bitch!! you're mine now, you'll never get away from me, i own you."</P>

<P>1 blow</P>

<P>2 blows </P>

<P>3 blows</P>

<P>I was covered in bruises. he his me so many times. i could feel it</P>

<P>I woke up screaming. it was only a dream but it felt so damn real.</P>

<P><EM>I don't deserve this. i don't deserve this. he said he'd get help. he wants help. this isn't safe</EM></P>

<P>it's all over my body. i examined myself in horror of what Todd has done over the two years</P>

<P><EM><STRONG>why</STRONG>. why have i let it gone this far. why didn't i take my chance and run</EM></P>

<P>this isn't me, the real me would fight and would never let this happen to herself. the rape has gotten me down</P>

<P>i remember that day so well. I was walking on a sidewalk. it had to be about 6 or 7 pm. it was November. it wasn't cold here in California. I remember being thrown into a wall and bleeding, I remember he wore a mask. he didn't say a word, he didn't use a condom. he hit me and punched me and smacked me until my face was all red and bruised. He knew what he was dong. I was histarget. and then he did it. i must have been unconscious because when i woke up it was daylight again. i screamed untill someone would hear me. but no one did, i forced myself to get up. my body ached all over and it hurt so bad. i went to the hospital and got myself checked out. they never found the man.</P>

<P>Tears blinded my vision. they fell down my face like a waterfall. the memory was enough to make me want to kill myself, but i always remained strong for Cheyenne.</P>

<P>I began to wipe my face. i turned on the shower. </P>

<P><EM>maybe a shower will wash away there memories of hatred</EM></P>

<P>i stepped in, the water felt good. the steam took away my worried and gave me a blanket of security. i washed away my fears and stepped out.</P>

<P><EM>where am i anyway? this isn't my apartment.</EM></P>

<P>I got dressed and walked around the place.</P>

<P>then i remembered last night</P>

<P>Todd hit me and knocked me out in front of all those people, he was normally not like that. he treated me normal when we where out. i guess i was wrong</P>

<P>Jimmy stood up for me, did he take me home?</P>

<P>I saw some awards and photos on the table,<EM> this must me jimmy's</EM></P>

<P>there in front of me was things that avenged sevenfold won over the years of being a band. i smiled to myself. it's a shame i didn't get to see it all....</P>

<P>Todd ruined everything.</P>

<P>someone came in the front door</P>

<P><EM>HIDE!!</EM></P>

<P>they walked around and entered a bedroom. i peered through a crack in the door i was behind.</P>

<P>"i don't know man, she's gone. we can't let her go back to that monster."</P>

<P>"yeah, that's Amy, remember her, my ex, i have to keep her safe"</P>

<P>he's on the phone with someone. he's worried about me</P>

<P>Todd would never find me here.... would he?</P>

<P>i stepped out and went into the kitchen. i decided to fix myself something to eat. </P>

<P>Jimmy appered in front of me</P>

<P>My heart skipped a beat</P>

<P>"you're still here"</P>

<P>"yeah.. i am" the words couldn't form and come out of my mouth i must have looked like a babbling fool</P>

<P>"it's been a while amy, how have you been"</P>

<P>he cracked a smile and sat down, he montioned me to come and sit next to him. there where butterflys in my stomach</P>

<P>"im alright"</P>

<P>"no, your not, i saw that man hit you, you where shooken with fear."</P>

<P>"don't worry about that, i must be going. i'll um, i'll see you later Jimmy"</P>

<P>he had a sad look on his face, i didn't want to leave but i couldn't stay here</P>

<P>"yeah, sure, here's my number, incare you need me, ok"</P>

<P>i smiled</P>

<P>"thanks"</P>

<P>I left and went back home. now i have to decide how to get away from todd this time. </P>