Big brother

Chapter 4 repeated

Okay so it didn't post for some people so here it is again!

Cassi's pov

First day of school

Zac just dropped me off at school and I walked inside and watched him drive off with tears in my eyes. I wanna go home. I wanna call Zac and make him come to school with me or take me home but of course I can't do that. I honesty don't understand myself. He's huge he's scary looking he has tattoos everywhere he's built and yet I trust him with my life already. I don't get it. I should be terrified of him. He was going to be in jail for crying out loud! Who knows maybe he's already been to jail. I walked into my first hour class. "Sit by Wes please." my teacher Mrs. Davis instructed pointing to a guy in the middle of the room. I nodded. "I'm Wes and you are?" he asked. "I'm Cassi." I whispered. He smiled. "You're

Zac's "little sister" ain't ya?" he asked making quotes around "little sister". I nodded. "Ya know he's a good guy." Wes said with a slight smile on his face. "Yeah he is..." I trailed off. "People here will try to turn you against him. Don't listen to them okay? Just know Zac is a good guy and he'll never hurt you alright?" he asked being serious. "Okay." I said unsure. He nodded and turned back to the teacher. I couldn't stay focused. What did he mean?

At lunch

"Hey new girl! come sit with us!" A girl yelled after I got my lunch. I blushed but made my way over to the table. I timidly sat down. "So Zac is your like "Big brother" or whatever cause he didn't want to go to jail right?" she asked. "Yeah." I said. "Watch out. I heard he's been to prison before. Not just jail but prison. That he acts all nice and shit but he's really planning to rape you. I heard he's violent and will hit you when you make him angry. Don't piss him off and stay as far away from him as possible." She looked straight into my eyes the whole time scaring the shit out of me. I knew I shouldn't have trusted him so quickly. I got tears in my eyes. I've been raped before and it's been the worst experience of my life. I slowly began to eat my lunch. "Aren't you going to say anything?" she asked. "Thanks for warning me." My voice cracked. "Aww sweets don't cry." She cooed. "How can I not?" I asked my voice strained trying desperately not to cry. "If you play your cards right maybe you'll leave with just a few bumps and bruises..."she trailed off. "But maybe not." Another girl said. I gulped. I finished eating and went to my last class of the day.

After school.

He's here to pick me up. What do I do?! Act normal? No. Act distant just stay away. I got in and looked out the window not saying a word to him. "Bad day?" he asked. I shrugged. "Words Cassi." He warned. I didn't answer him I continued to stare out the window. "Cassi what's wrong?" He asked worried now. I shrugged. "Cassi please answer me." he sounded pretty worried. It's an act Cassi. This isn't the real him. "Are you mad at me?" he asked. I shrugged. "Cassi say something. Anything." He said almost begging. "Go home." I said without realizing. I still want to believe in him I want to believe Zac is a good guy and I want his house to be my home. Wait a fucking second. Wes. What Wes told me!

"People here will try to turn you against him. Don't listen to them okay? Just know Zac is a good guy and he'll never hurt you alright?"

Okay well damn. "Sorry." I said almost crying. "What's wrong?" he asked confused. "A girl told me some things about you that scared me and I almost believed her well I did believe her." I replied guiltily. "What'd they say?" he asked. It seemed almost as if he was nervous. He probably just doesn't want me to be scared of him. "That you were violent and would hit me when you'd get angry with me, and that um you wanted to uh rape me and uh you've been to prison before..." I explained. "Cassi babe none of those are true okay? I'll never abuse you in any way." He told me giving me a quick smile before turning back to the road and heading home. I began thinking about it and realized how stupid I was being. "Zac, I'm so sorry. I know how stupid I was for believing her now I don't know why I did I knew in the back of my mind the whole time that what she was saying was utter bullshit but I guess I had to go full retard for a while." I said randomly in the middle of the silence. "Cassi it's okay I'm just glad you know she was lying now. Watch your mouth though." He replied. Really. That's what he got? "sorry." I apologized. "It's okay just don't say it again." He told me. I nodded. "Cassi I know you get tired of me telling you to use words but communication is important okay?" he asked. "I know I'm sorry. I've been talking more than I ever have in my whole life though. I didn't even know how to talk until I was 5." I replied. "Fucking hell. Who are your parents and why didn't they teach you that?!" he got angry. "I don't remember my real mom but my real dad was just an alcoholic he didn't do much for me and my mom died when I was 2 months." I told him. "My mom died too." He said. "Really?" I asked. "Yeah. They're watching over us. They're our guardian angels. They love to here our voices too." He smirked. i sighed dramatically. "You're a smartass." I remarked. "Language!" he warned raising his voice making me jump. "Sorry." I whimpered. "Cassi I didn't even yell. Are you sure you're not afraid of me?" he asked. "It's just the sudden loudness that scared me..." I tried to explain. "I wasn't that loud Cassi." He sighed. "The thought of being in trouble scares me." I sighed. "Ah. There it is." He said. "What do you mean?" I asked. "You've been abused and when I just raised my voice at you, you thought, cause of past experiences, that I was going to abuse you as well. You're not afraid of me you're just afraid." He explained but mostly to himself. "Yes actually." I agreed. He seemed proud of himself for coming up with that. Actually he should be proud of himself. I didn't think of that and I'm the one with the issues. "Why do I have to be so screwed up?" I asked myself. "You aren't screwed up. Don't let me here you say that again hear me?" he asked. "Yes sir. Sorry." I said. "It's okay. Just try not to put yourself down so much it's not good for your self esteem." He declared. "Why do you care about my self esteem?" I asked. "Believe it or not I do care about what happens to you when you leave my house in fact I hope you don't just disappear from my life I hope you stay in touch with me. Having low self esteem can effect you a lot. It can lead to self harm too. Something I can tell you've already done." he sighed. I looked down at my exposed thighs. Yes I self harmed no it wasn't on my wrists. It was on my upper thighs where I thought no one would notice them. "No ones ever noticed." I whispered. "Well I did and don't you dare let me catch you. I want you to talk to me or to someone else don't self harm alright? it's not good for your health and like I said earlier I really do care." He sighed and pulled into the driveway. "Get started on homework if you have any and I'll start supper sound good?" he asked. "What if I need help?" I asked shyly. "Then I'll help you?" he answered like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Oh. Okay. Thanks." I said awkwardly. I've never had help on my homework. Ever. I've never had the guts to ask the teachers anything so I've never had any help at all. "What were you expecting me to say?" he asked with a slight chuckle. "I didn't know I've never asked anyone else for help before." I admitted. "Not even teachers?" He asked. "Not even teachers." I confirmed. "Why?" he asked. "They were always mean and rude never wanting to do anything with the kids and I was definitely not a favorite." I said. "The school I put you in better answer your questions if they don't, tell me. Got it?" He asked. "Got it." I smiled at him. He messed up my hair then went off to cook supper. I started on homework and finished but had a couple questions after I was done. "Supper is ready!" he said from the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen to see him at the table eating already. "Sorry you were taking too long." He shrugged. I giggled but grabbed a plate and filled it up. "Did you need help?" he asked. "Yeah but I skipped them. I'm done except for the ones I needed help on." I told him. "Good." He tried saying. "Eww." I said disgusted. "It's not that gross I didn't even show you my food." He said laughing. "Don't!' I said already knowing what was coming. He opened his mouth showing me all of his chewed up food. "Nasty Zac!" I said covering my eyes. He was laughing so hard he could hardly breathe. "Your face!" He laughed. "What about it?" I asked. "You looked so disgusted!" he said. "I was!" I pointed out the obvious. "That's what I'm saying!" He said. "Oh." I said realizing how stupid I am.

After supper

"And then x=10 then you plug back into the equation to find angle CB." He explained. "So 4 times 10 plus 25 is 65 degrees and that's the answer?" I asked. "Exactly." He said. "Thanks." I said and wrote it down and shut my math book. "Go shower and get ready for bed you have school tomorrow." He told me. "Okay." I said and shoved my books in my bag and ran off to shower.

Zac's pov

I'm really hoping Cassi will sleep in her own room for just a couple of hours because I have some shit I gotta do for the gang and I can't have her in my way. Not that she's a nuisance I just can't have her getting scared of me or hurt if she follows me. It's weird. I've never cared for anyone in my life my mom died when I was 3 and my dad wasn't the greatest so I've never given a single fuck about anyone in my life and I care about Cassi so much already and I've only known her for 4 days. I've never even loved anyone and I really do love her. I want to make sure she's healthy happy and safe at all times. Is this normal?

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