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5.

Today I sang during music nobody judged me, they actually smiled and clapped for me.

You weren't there, but your friends were, they also didn't judge me, I think they actually,

respect me.

During lunch you came up to me and said that just because I can sing, and that I earned the respect of his friends and some of the people at our school,

doesn't mean the abuse will ever stop.

I think that was the first time you actually addressed the fact that you abuse me,

my mom, found a few bruises scattered around my body. I knew she wanted to ask me whether I was self-harming,

I will never forget the face my mom made when I  told her that,

I was self-harming.

I know I will never forgive you for what you have done,

But you have my heart in your palm. When you tell me to kill myself I will,
I've tried. I'm waiting for you to tell me that I should kill myself .

I'm waiting for you to mean it.

I still see the doubt in your eyes.

I still see the hesitation.

I still see the fake facade you put up.

I still see you're breaking inside.

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