Taming The Beast (Ruthless Series #1)

Kabanata 30

Lumabas ako ng kwarto. Balak ko na sanang magpaalam para umalis na. I really need to go home. I miss my son. And I don't like Lucas and the others to worry about me.

I don't know yet kung paano ko ipapakilala sa kanila si Kenzie. It's really hard for me to think of a scenario where I will introduce my son to them...Mine and Lewis' son.

May kung anong kirot na naman akong naramdaman sa dibdib ko. It is always like this every time I think of Lewis as Kenzie's father. I admit I am hoping that he will accept Kenzie. Kahit hindi na kami magkabalikan kahit si Kenzie na lang ang tanggapin nya.

Kenzie is my world, and he deserved the world. He deserved love...

I sighed. Dirediretso lang ang lakad ko hanggang makarating ako sa sala.

There I saw dad and mom. Nakaakbay si daddy kay mommy habag nanunuod sila ng movie using our large flat screen T.V. I bit my lip and stare away from them. I am happy seeing my mother happy but there's still a pain in my chest. Maybe...maybe because I know to myself that no matter what happens hindi na maibabalik yung dating kami ng pamilya ko.

Huminga ako ng malalim at muling ibinalik ang tingin kay mommy at daddy. Pinagmasdam ko kung paano ngumiti si mommy habang masayang nanunuod ng movie ang lalaking mahal nya. I don't want to ruin my mom's happiness, kaya kahit gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na she have to at least let dad know her importance. But I can't. I can't just ruin her happiness.

Her happiness is the nost important thing.

My sight shifts on my father. There's a big smile on his face but I can see in his eyes the guilt and sincerity but the love in his eyes dominant all the emotions I am seeing in his eyes.

Suddenly I felt my lips form into a small smile as a tear falls down my cheek. I immediately wipe it and look at dad again.

Maybe... I was wrong. I think dad already know my mom's importance. He already knew and she loves her. I can see everything in his eyes. Yeh right, I was just too blinded with my anger at him to the point that it is so hard for me to believe him and see his gentleness, but you can't blame me right? Aftrer all the heartaches and pain that experience, you can't blame for it... But at least now, I'm slowly learning to see and feel everything from my dad.

I am really certain that I am slowly forgiving him.' Kunti na lang, Kunti na lang dad, I know to myself that it will not take a long time for me to learn to forgive you so please don't give up on me dad. Don't give up in our family.'

Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa kanila with a smile on my face. Dad immediately noticed me. I saw him smile when he feel my presence, dad watch me kiss my mom's cheek. Nakita ko kung paano lumungkot ang mukha ni dad noong hindi ko sya hinalikan sa pisngi gaya ni mom.

Nakayuko lang si dad habang pinagmamasdan ko sya. But when he rise his head at nakita nya na nakatingin ako sa kanya he immediately smile at me... a sad smile.

I sighed bago nag paalam kay mom. I know dad is waiting for me to bid my good bye.

My dad is already doing his part and it is time for me to do it.

"Aalis na po ako." I told them. Nakatitig lang sa akin si dad hanggang sa magsalita si mom.

"Aren't you staying here with us?" she asked I immediately shook my head.

"I have things to do mom. I really need to go babalik din naman po akpo. And also I want you to meet someone." I gave her a small smile.

Yes, I want them to meet Kenzie soon.

"Lev..." I heard dad say.

I didn't say anything and let him talk.

"If this is about me-" I cut him off.