Taming The Beast (Ruthless Series #1)

Kabanata 22

I cried so much. I wake up at around 3 am. Gumising ako na gulong-gulo parin. Umalis ako at sumakay sa kotse ko pauwi.

I cried so much yesterday. Buo na ang paniniwala ko sa mga nakita at nabasa ko kahapon. But I want to know it from, Lewis.

Ayoko at natatakot ako na sa bandang huli'y magsisi ako dahil sa maling paniniwala ko.

Wala sa sariling naglalakad ako sa condo. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang pagtumba ko. Nakinig ko ang boses ng lalaki na nakabangga sa akin pero umiling lang ako at mag-isang tumayo.

Ramdam ko ang paninitig sa akin ng lalaki pero hindi ko ito pinansin. Nagdire-diretso lang ako paputa sa unit ko.

Maybe because of too much emotional pain I've experienced last night, physical pain can't hut me anymore.

When I hold the doornub I put the key inside the hold. I'm not shocked when it's open. He is probably inside.

I don't know if I'll go inside or not. Going inside means I have to see him, I have to face him. Kaya ko na ba?

I know to my self that I decided to know things from Lewis fist before doing things. But after what I've found out and what I've saw... I don't think I can face him now.

But I'm already here, so I better be going. At isa pa ay hindi naman ako sigurado kung nandito pa ba sya at gising pa.

Nanginginig ang mga tuhod ko bago pumasok. Namawis ang mga kamay ko ng makita ang bulto ng isang lalaki na na katayo.

There, I saw the man that I love furiously talking to someone on his phone.

His here and still awake? But it's already 3 am in the morning

'Was it Ylena? Did they have a misunderstanding?' Sumakit ang puso ko sa naisip, pero agad ko din itong inalis sa isip ko. I have to be brave. I have to guther my strenght para malaman ko ang katotohanan.

By that, maybe... I'll be fine.

He looks at me. Kita ko ang galit at pag-aalala sa mga mata nya. Parang gusto ko na lang magtago dahil Sa mga titig nya na nagpapalambot ng tuhod ko.

The sight of his deep set of eyes feels  like I'm getting drown by the deepest milky way in the galaxy.  I can't breathe.  I feel like I'm out of air.

I sighed at the thought of drowning by his stares.

Before I was so happy seeing him worry about me, but now? Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala pa ba ako sa mga nakikita ng mga mata ko at sa mga ipanakita nya.

Nilapitan nya ako, kitang-kita ko pa din ang galit sa mga mata nya. Sumibol ang takot sa dibdib ko dahil sa galit na ekspresyon nya.

"What fvck, Leviathan. Where have you been?" galit at madiin nyang sabi.

I didn't talk. Nanatili lamang akong nakatingin sa kanya while he contuine talking.

" I was woried about you! Where have you been? You're not answering your phone! I went to the bar to look for you but you're not there. Damnit, Leviathan! I'm worried sick about you. I look for you over night but I can't still find you. Damnit!"

He look really furious. Is he really furious about me and not because he had a misunderstanding with Ylena?

His eyes are dark. Gusot ang kanyang polo at magulo ang buhok. Mukha syang puyat. While looking at him, I can't feel ther fea anymore. All I can feel is heartache seeing him looks like this. I gulped.

Did he worry so much about me? Didn't he sleep because he worry too much about me? Did I gave a him hard time worrying about me? Parang may kung anong kumiliti sa puso ko dahil sa isip.