Once Bitten, Twice Shy.

I'm sorry I've been distant.

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I woke up to Addy kicking me "Adalynn..." I groaned "Momma!" She said happily I opened my eyes slowly the sun bright as my eyes adjusted. "Morning Lilly." I said "Morning." She said I sat up and stretched "Did you guys sleep good?" I asked they both nodded "Hey Lil can I ask you something?" I asked she nodded "If you could choose where to live with Justin and I or with Luke and Sam where would you choose?" I asked she shrugged "I won't be mad no matter what you choose..." I said "Well... I guess with Sam and Luke because I'd be by myself and get anything I wanted." She said I smiled at her "We give you everything you want..." I said "I know... but I have to share with Addy and there I wouldn't have anyone to share with." She said

"But that's not a reason to want to move." I said "she lowered her head "Are you happy when you stay there?" I asked she nodded "And you think if you stayed there forever you'd be happy?" I questioned "You wouldn't have Addy there to play with you all the time..." I said "Well I could still see her right?" She asked I smiled "Yes of course you'd still see all of us I just want you to make sure this is what you want you can't just move back and forth." I said she nodded "I know." She replied "So is that what you want? To live with Sam and Luke?" I asked she looked up at me and nodded "Okay. I just want you to be happy sweetie." I said she crawled over in my lap and hugged me "I love you." I said "I love you too." She replied.

We all three laid there for a while cuddling then Sam came in shortly followed by Luke "Do you want to head to the house?" Sam asked I nodded "Would you come too? I'd feel better if you were there just in case." I said to Luke "Of course." He replied

I had Crystal keep the girls and the three of us went to the house I unlocked the door and went inside it was quiet like the kind of quiet that just makes you feel sick. I walked down the hallway to the bedroom passing the kitchen the blood was still on the floor. I stared at it beginning to replay the night in my head "I'll clean that up." Sam said interrupting my thoughts "I can call the maid." I said "It's alright." She said placing her hand on my shoulder.

I walked into the bedroom and began packing my bag just shoving things in it quickly so I could leave some things were thrown on the floor from them rummaging through everything "Are you okay?" Luke asked I jumped startled by his voice "I'm sorry." He apologized "It's okay." I said taking a deep breath "I'll be right out here if you need anything." He said walking back out of the room I sat down on the bed and called Justin "Hello?" He answered "Were you sleeping?" I asked "Off and on." He said "I didn't sleep good either... I miss you." I said "I know babe I miss you too." He replied "We came to the house to get some clothes and things." I said "How are you doing?" He asked

"Honestly Justin I am terrified... and I want to sell the house I can't be here alone anymore and I don't want to raise our kids in this house where she..." I said he cut me off "Okay baby whatever you want to do, we still have my house out there it's on lockdown when we are home and we can stay in hotels anything to make you feel better." He said "I don't know what to do to make me feel better..." I said "Well we'll start by selling the house and we'll go from there." He said I nodded "Okay." I said "Well babe I'll call you later okay I'm gonna try to sleep." He said "Okay I love you." I said "I love you too and if you need anything call me." He said "Okay." I said then we hung up.

I picked up my bag and went out to Sam and Luke "Are you ready?" She asked "More ready than ever... I want to sell the house so if you could get a team to come pack up everything and talk with our real estate agent and get the house on the market...." I said "Okay I can do that..." She said agreeing with me but you could see she was hesitant I put Phoenix in her cage, Justin took Esther with him on tour so I only had one dog, and we went out to the car.

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Weeks have went by Justin's birthday passed... then Addy's... then mine being pregnant on your birthday is not fun, march turned into April and boy did the month fly. Justin and I agreed to let Lilly stay with Sam and Luke. Addy and I have been staying at the mansion but I know we can't stay here forever... the house sold and our things are in storage. I laid on the bed with Addy watching cartoons my phone buzzed "Hello?" I answered as Justin's face popped on the screen "Hi." I said "Daddy!!" Addy yelled and grabbed the phone from me "Hi baby how are you?" He asked "Good." She replied laughing "I miss you!" He said "Miss you!" She replied "Man I can't believe how much you're talking." He said she giggled and threw the phone at me I laughed and picked it up "Hi." He said with a smile as I held the phone up showing my face "Hi." I said with a smile "How are you feeling?" He asked "Tired... But I'm okay." I said "How are you?" I asked "Good I miss you." He said "I miss you too." I replied

"I'm going to fly to Canada to watch the hockey game with dad and Jax I want you and Addy to fly out Josh is coming it'll be a good time." He said "Justin I have barely left the house; except to go to the doctor; in months..." I said "so what a great time to make an appearance." He said "Justin I am fat..." I said He chuckled "Aaliyah you just have a belly you are not fat and you have a baby inside you." He said "Ugh..." I groaned "Come on you'd get to see me and Addy can play with the kids..." He said "Fine... I do want to see you." I said he smiled "Good I want to see you too these months have dragged along." He said "You're just saying that I keep tract of the things you're doing you've been having fun." I said he smiled "True but I still miss you." He said "I miss you too." I said "I'm going to fly out to New York for a couple days why don't you come out with me and we'll go to Canada together?" He said "Umm..." I said "Come on I want to go to church and see Rich maybe it would be good for us to go together and it might help you to talk to him." He added "Okay... What about Addy?" I asked "What if you drop her off with your family then your mom can drop her off before we head to Canada." He said "Yeah I guess that could work..." I said "Well let me call her and get things arranged then I'll head out to New York." I said "Okay perfect I can't wait to see you." He said "Me too love you." I said "Love you to babe see you soon." He replied then we hung up

I called my mom and she agreed to keep Addy, then I packed and we headed out.

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After hours on the jet we finally arrived I drove from the airport to my house; my mom and sister ran to the car scooping Addy out of her car seat before I was even out of the car. "Thank you for keeping her." I said "Of course sweetie." My mom said kissing me "How are you? You haven't returned my calls..." She said "I know I'm sorry since the... incident things have been crazy and I've been laying low." I said "I know honey I'm glad you're okay but we are your family and we just want to be here for you... you just have to let us..." She said I hugged her "I know thank you mom..." I said "And you better let us know when this new baby comes we'll fly out!" She said I nodded "Okay... I'm sorry I'm so distant with you guys I'm just trying to get this figured out and keep everyone happy." I said "I know just don't spread yourself too thin you've always been the type to try to please everyone else and you forget about yourself." She said I nodded "I know." I said "Well I really have to go I'll see you in a couple days when you bring Addy to New York." She said "Okay sounds good." She said I walked over and kissed Addy "See you soon baby." I said she hugged me and puckered her lips I smiled and kissed her again "I love you." I said

Then I said goodbye to everyone else then headed to New York.