The Wolf

Ch. 10: Alex's Confusion

~Alex~

Driving in the darkness of night, the hum of the heater and Nico's soft breathing are all that I can hear.

I think about what Nico and I just did. I think I was still in shock about it. I just made out with my best friend. My lower half aches with longing and I have to mentally scold myself.

What the hell did I just do? Nico came onto me, and I even told him no.  But when Nico kissed me a spark ignited something deep within me, and I wanted  to kiss him, like I have never wanted to kiss anyone before.

I feel my crotch harden and start to think of something else before it becomes unbearable.

Nico was drunk, really drunk. I mean, look at how he is passed out right now. He said he wanted to drink away his problems, and that I was one of them. When Nico said I was reason enough to drink about, my heart fell; I didn't want to put Nico in such a state, ever. I could only wonder what his other problems were.

I think back on my arrival to the party...

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I decide to park my car behind Jake's house; just in case the police came, so I could escape quickly without getting stuck in all the traffic, it happens often at parties this size. I climb the high, brickwall and jump down the other side; it was a piece of cake.

I walk in through the back door and integrate myself to the party. It was already crowded and people were drinking and smoking weed. I wade through the sea of people to get a drink. I get a beer and drink it slowly. I look around at the familiar faces strewn around the room. I join a game of darts, then pool, then someone pulls me onto the dance floor and I dance with a few people. It was pretty enjoyable, except when people kept trying to make a pass at me.

I'm dancing with yet another person when I look over and see familiar black hair. Is that Nico? No way, why would he be at a party? Well, I guess I don't know Nico that well anymore to be surprised about his choices, I think bitterly.

I see the person with black hair, that I can only assume is Nico, dancing with a girl. They are all over each other and it makes me grimace, then they stop dancing and I see the girl kiss Nico. He doesn't reject the kiss, he just accepts it and even kisses back. I look on with surprise.

For some reason my wolf seems restless and whines at the sight. I just convince myself it's because my best friend, or ex-best-friend was making out with a girl he probably doesn't even know.

The girl I was dancing with tugs at my shirt, she tries to pull me in for a kiss, but I pull away. I wasn't about to kiss someone I didn't like. I walk away from her and exit the dance floor.

I look back at where I last saw Nico and see he's disappeared. I run my hands through my hair, I shouldn't approach him, right? He seemed really mad at me yesterday, and at school, all day, he was avoiding me like the plague; even in the class we had together. I just wanted to talk to him and apologize for not noticing it was him earlier.

How could I be stupid enough to not notice? The way he called my name so familiarly, those blue eyes, that raven black hair, and that smirk that tugged on his lips. He had grown a little, not as much as me, but he also looked different. So much more different than the Nico I knew. He looked haggard at moments, his eyes seemed haunted, his clothes hung off of him. His tan was gone, his smile was a rarity, and he was so quiet and jumpy.

I need to help Nico. I have to figure out what happened to him, and I have to make up for lost time.

I'm interrupted from my Nico-infested thoughts when I see Kyle talking to some of the other jocks. "Hey!" I say loudly so that he would be able to hear me over the booming music.