Chasing the Addiction

Keep on Rolling

"Live for today, plan for tomorrow and party tonight."

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"Eve, he broke up with me!" 

Cassie flew into my arms in the middle of the school hallway while I cuddled her, feeling extremely guilty (but would never tell her why)

In all honesty, Andrew breaking up with her relieved me 

It made me hopeful, ecstatic 

I couldn't wait for things to pick up between us

Things were already hot, why not make it hotter? 

"I'm so sorry girl! You can find someone better. In fact, how about we go out this weekend? You can meet some other guys like him." 

I was kidding myself; there were no other guys like him 

He was his own beautiful person

"I don't know if I'm ready. Maybe..."

"You don't get a choice in the matter, it's up to us. Right girls?" 

I turned to Stacey and Sarah, who nodded and patted her on the back 

"Maybe we can do a repeat of last weekend. Remember how fun that was?" 

Cassie stared at us with glistening eyes

"Okay, fine. I've always wanted to try ecstasy..."

After she said that, I understood what Andrew meant when he explained how eager she was to try everything 

This girl would be the death of us

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Crowded, dark room

Lights flashing

Music pumping

Dancing, grinding

Arms flailing

Laughter, smiles, drugs

Smoke everywhere

Hair flying

Hell, I'm flying

I was here physically, but my mind wasn't 

Another line

Another rush 

Another hit

Another new level of high 

Giggling, laughing, dancing, playing 

Life was great

We grinded along to the beat until our bodies were numb 

He smiled at me from across the room 

I followed him to the bathroom 

Watched him shoot up something in his vein

Kissed him until I was dizzy 

Took a shot of whiskey 

Pressed my body against his, drove him wild

Did another line

Went back to my friends

There was Cassie, flirting with some cute guy

"You go girl!" I mouthed to her

So many lights, they were beautiful 

I watched Shelby as she grabbed an LED hula hoop 

She twirled and danced with it like it was nothing

The sight was breath taking, the way the hoop spun around carelessly

The whole time she smiled, using her hands and body to guide to hoop to its destination 

I was mesmerized 

Then I was sober.

And that was my Friday night

Saturday night on the other hand, was a different story 

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