"I sometimes wonder why I even bother."
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Cassie finally left after she confessed and told me what really happened
I couldn't find the right words to say to her
So I just said nothing
What more do they want from me? I felt defeated, and in some ways....
...(I hated to admit)....
I felt left out
I mean, they all got to experience something together, and I wasn't a part of that
Even though it was something I NEVER would have wanted to be a part of
I pondered some things in my head, like, "What would I have done if I was in their shoes?"
Would I have mustered up the courage to say no and walk away?
Or would I have actually given into peer pressure?
I want to say I would've said no and left, but my mind tells me that probably isn't what would've happened
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All of this chaos because of a boy that Cassie likes
Unbelievable
If I was mad yesterday, then I was furious and outraged today!
First of all, I awoke this morning for school, got ready and while I was going through my phone to check for messages, I ran across a little text from Stacey saying:
"Go look on facebook. Now."
There, on Cassie, Stacey and Sarah's wall was a picture
No ordinary, cute picture of them
Of course not
It was them at the party, in the back room in dim light, taking turns hitting the bong
Smoke bellowed out of Cassie's mouth as she raised her head and closed her eyes
Sarah had her mouth open wide and was laughing
Stacey was holding her stomach and rolling on the floor in laughter
Meanwhile, I frowned
Thankfully, I wasn't in the picture, but my best friends were
And whatever they did reflected back on me, so I might as well be in the picture too
But I couldn't even imagine an image with smoke coming out of my mouth
The person who took and tagged them in their picture was no other than the biggest bitch (and pothead) at our school: Shelby
She was one of the bad girls who always wanted us normal girls out
There was a mutual dislike between us, and it's always been that way
She didn't like our nice clothes, or pretty smiles
She was jealous
Besides, she'll probably drop out soon
You can't come to school everyday with a red nose and droopy eyes and expect to pass
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This is the worst day of my life
This is horrible
This is cruel
This is bad
Very, very bad
By the time I went to school, the picture already had over three hundred likes on facebook
Crap.....
Thankfully, it was removed
But it will be forever branded inside our classmate's minds, because as soon as we walk in we're greeted with smirks and knowing looks
Everybody knows, everybody has seen
And since I associate with them, people think I was there with them. So far I've gotten:
"Whoa, Eve, didn't know you did that stuff"
"Was that your first time smoking?"
And,
"Feel free to come home with me, baby, I'll smoke you out anytime"
Some of the guys now thought I was easy
Just because you do drugs, people think you're easy? That's insane
But if I think that I got it worse, it was ten times as bad for my other three companions
I felt bad for them, yes
But this feeling of "you deserve it" popped up a time or two
Later in the day, Shelby decided to pay us a "nice" little visit while we were at our lockers
She had medium length dyed auburn hair with bangs
It was difficult to decipher her eye color, because most of the time her eyes were bloodshot
It wasn't just a rumor that this girl did drugs
It was a fact
She sauntered over to us with a gigantic smirk on her red lips
She was skinny and wore a skimpy black skirt with red fishnet stocking and a tight red top
She looked like a whore on a street corner, yet she didn't mind her appearance one bit
It was too bad she was gorgeous, but in a porn star kind of way
"Looks like your shell was finally cracked last night, bitches" she said, then turned to me
"It's your turn next, babe. First hits on me!"
Shelby walked away, laughing her behind off
I would never bow down to her or give in
But in the back of my mind, questions remained unanswered:
What do drugs feel like?
And which ones can make me fly?
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Chasing the Addiction
Teen FictionEve considered herself a respectable girl before finally coming to terms with her one flaw: addiction. She always made promises to herself to never drink, never act or dress inappropriate and most importantly never to try any type of drug. However...