Far Better Than

Chapter 37

Zea's POV

Maaga akong nagising ngayon. Well 7:34 palang naman ng umaga. Marami akong iniiisip at dapat isipin, ang pagpapakasal kay Jace at kung ano ang nangyari kay Sean. Nag-aalala ako para sa kanya, sa ilang taon naming pagkakaibigan kilalang-kilala ko si Sean. Siya yung tipo ng taong hindi tumatakbo sa kahit na anong sitwasyon. Ano na kayang nangyari sa kanya? Ganun ba nya kaayaw na magpakasal sa babaeng sinasabi nya to the point na umalis siya ng bansa? I know that it's not my business but then concerned ako sa kaibigan ko.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone at tinawagan ko si Sean. Mukhang in-off niya ang phone nya para walang maka-contact sa kanya.

Since hindi ko siya maka-contact, maliligo nalang muna siguro ako.

After kong maligo and magbihis ay lumabas na ako ng hotel room ng tumunog ang cellphone ko. It's an unknown number, hindi naka-register sa contact ko.

"Hello" I said.

"Good morning, wife"

"I'm not your wife, Jace." That's the truth - not right now, not before. I feel that I am not a wife and I will never be. After what happened before between me and Jace, I don't want to get married anymore. Not because I'm bitter but hindi na iyon ang life ko, hindi na iyon kasama sa mga priorities ko. And now he called me his wife. I don't know what to feel anymore.

"We need to talk Zea and I know that you know that." He replied.

" Wait for me in the lobby, please. I really wanted to talk to you." His voice sounds very gentle, I can sense that he really wanted to talk.

"Okay, I will wait for you then"

After a while, nakita ko siyang palabas ng elevator. Inaya niya akong mag-usap sa isang coffee shop.

"Zea about our wed---"

"Jace, please hindi naman natin kailangan magpakasal. If ginagawa mo lang ito because you're guilty about what happened before then please stop. I already forgave you."

"No, Zea it's not because of that. I want to marry you because I love you." he replied.

I don't know but it pains me when he said it. Ayokong maniwala sa sinasabi niya. Ayokong umasa.

Love. May be he is just confused.

"Let's move on Jace. May kanya-kanya na tayong buhay and besides nakaya natin na mabuhay for years na hindi nagkikita and hindi pinapaki-alamanan ang isa't isa. We can just forget what happened before and start anew. Tingin ko kailangan lang natin ng closure because of our unfinished business before." I expalined.

Totoo naman yung sinabi ko na nakaya naman namin yun. That time na lumayo ako sa kanya and nung nalaman ko yung about sa kanila ni Ynna. It pains me so much. Araw-araw akong umiiyak dahil sobrang sakit.

Nung umalis ako sa place niya, sa life niya. Hindi na ako nagtaka kung bakit hindi niya ako hinanap. I know he wouldn't try to find me. Deep inside me I know he wouldn't try looking for me.

Pero iba na ngayon, I choose not to dwell in the past. I choose to let go of those feelings and memories. Siguro hindi pa nga ako fully nakakapagmove-on pero naniniwala naman ako na darating din ako sa point na if ever man na I look back in the past I hope that there's no more pain. And when that's happen I know that I moved on.

Katulad ng sinabi ko kanina we need to move on and well forget what happened. Hindi yun kadali I know pero alam ko naman na kaya namin yun.

"Zea ple----"

"Jace hindi magiging maganda ang pagsasama natin if isa man sa atin ay napilitan lang magpakasal. Marriage is not that easy. Siguro naguguluhan ka lang."

"I'm not confuse Zea. I really want to be with you. I want you to be my wife even it seems that I am forcing you." while he is saying that he really looks desperate. It feels like he wanted to cry.

"Do--" naputol yung sasabihin ko kay Jace ng biglang tumunog yung cellphone ko. Si Michelle ang tumatawag.

"Excuse me Jace, I need to take this call"

He just nodded and smile at me. Lumabas naman ako ng coffee shop and pumunta ako sa maliit na garden ng coffee shop dahil duon tahimik.

"Hello, Michelle" I answered her call.

Masaya ako na tumawag siya sa akin. Na-mimiss ko na sila. Nung tunawag sa akin si Michelle naka-loud speaker siya kaya naka-usap ko din yung ibang girls. Inaya nila ako later na sabay-sabay kaming magdinner kaming lima. Pumayag naman ako dahil gusto ko din silang makasama.

"Miss you Zea" sabi nila sa akin.

"I miss you all. See you later na lang." I said before I ended the call.

Bumalik na ako sa loob ng coffee shop but then nung malapit na ako sa pwesto namin ni Jace, I stopped.

I saw him talking with two people. I'm quite confuse. Tama ba yung nakikita ko? Anong ginagawa nila dito?

Then to answer my own questions, naglakad ako papalapit sa kanila even though Jace is now talking with my parents.

A/N: I'm really sorry for the long wait, naging busy ako last year and this year for my studies and board exam. Thank you sa mga naghintay and sorry dahil natagalan ang update.