Second Chances

Chapter Forty-Eight

Chapter Forty-Eight~














*One Week Later*










The boys had gone to their flats to pack for our tour that I failed to mention to Julia, while I was at the hospital hoping she wakes up. I planned on telling Julia all about it but I got too caught up in the situation with Josh and then we got into that stupid fight which got us into this mess...


"Niall, do you want me to get you some food? You've been here for hours, you know you can leave, right?" Julia's mum, Jen, said.

She had gotten here about five days ago.

I just shook my head as a reply.

"Are you sure?"

I nodded.

"I hate seeing you so miserable."

I had always pictured Julia and I flying to America so that Julia could introduce me to her mom herself. Instead, I had to meet her like this. In a hospital, apologizing over and over again for causing her daughter to almost lose her life.
On the bright side, her mum was really sweet and caring and she handled this whole situation very well.

"I deserve to be miserable since your daughter almost lost her life because of me."

"How many times am I going to have to say this? This was no where near your fault." Jen had walked over and sat down on the chair next to me. "Stop making yourself upset."

"But it is my fault. I just wish I could've prevented this."

Jen sighed. "Sometimes things happen for a reason. And sometimes it's not your fault. Like in this situation, it's not your fault. It's Josh's. Stop beating yourself up."

"It's just so hard not to blame myself. I hate seeing Julia like this. How are you handling this situation so easily?" I questioned.

"Oh I'm not. Trust me." She let out a small laugh. "I'm just as upset too, but I don't show it or make it seem like I am. I hate seeing her like this, but times like these are when you need to be positive. You just have to hope for the best."

I could feel my eyes burning from holding back tears. I'm such an emotional wreck.

"What if she doesn't wake up?"

"Niall, this is where you need to be positive. All we can do is hope Julia wakes up. This is beyond our control."

I nodded as I took in every word she said to me.

"So instead of making yourself feel horrible, I think you should go pack for your tour. Julia and I will be waiting here. I think you need some time to yourself."

"I guess your right." I sighed.

"There's nothing we can do at the moment, and sitting here isn't going to get you anywhere. Just do what you have to do."

"Thanks, Jen. I'll be back as soon as possible."

Jen began laughing.

"You're welcome. See you soon." She smiled.













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The drive from the hospital back to my flat was pretty long.
Liam had brought mine and Julia's suitcases to my flat. After I finished packing my last suitcase I needed for tour, I decided to bring Julia's back to her flat.

It kills me inside to know I have to leave Julia here while I go on tour. I would do anything for her to be awake to experience it with me.

There was a key under the mat in front of the door. I used that to open it and get in.

I went up the stairs and placed her suitcase in her room.

If I could have one wish, it would be that Julia wakes up before I have to leave for tour. But that would be a miracle if she did.

I walked past her bed and towards the door when something caught my eye on her night stand.

I walked over and gently sat on her bed.

There was a picture in a picture frame placed on her night stand. But it wasn't just any picture.

It was the picture we had taken the night of Julia's birthday during her surprise party. Her arms were wrapped around my neck and I had pulled her into a really tight hug. We both stuck our tongues out and we were standing in front of the new car I had given her, in my garage.

I just stared blankly at the picture until a tear slipped from my eye and landed on the picture frame in my hands.

I can't do this.

I can't be with Julia anymore.

She deserves someone better. I don't deserve her considering she almost wouldn't be alive right now because of me. I'm sure she can find someone who could've stopped Josh- even though he's in jail now- and someone who won't leave her to go on tour when she needs him the most. Someone the complete opposite of me. I'm just leaving her when I should be staying with her to make sure she's okay.

I need to... Breakup with her? I guess that's what's best...

I heard a honk outside. The boys can't know I was crying again. I slid my sunglasses onto my face and grabbed my luggage, heading outside.

"You ready?" Zayn asked as I met the four other lads in front of my flat.

"No. There's one more thing I need to do."

"What is it?" Louis chimed in.

"I have to see Julia before we leave."

"Of course you can. We can stop by the hospital before we leave."

I let out a long sigh.

"... I need to end things with Julia..."

"What?!" The four lads said in unison and looked at me like I had lost my mind.

"Why?" Liam asked.

"I just think things will be better for both of us..."

"Are you sure? If that's what you really want, no one can stop you." Louis said as we got in the car.

I nodded.

But that's not what I really want. I just think Julia will be better off without me...
















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"Not to rush you or anything, but unfortunately you're going to have to make it quick. We're going to be late for our flight." Louis lectured.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah."

I walked into the hospital and went into the elevator to go up to Julia's room.

"Oh hello." Jen said as she looked up from her book.

"I kind of need to make this quick since our flight leaves soon..."

"Sure, what's the matter?"

I took a deep breath.

"I think it's best for both of us... I-If Julia and I stopped seeing each other..." Tears began pouring from my eyes.

Gosh this was harder than I thought.

"What made you decide this?" Jen had a concerned look on her face.

"I just think it's best..."

"Well, I'll leave you alone to sort things out by yourself..." Jen started walking towards the door. "But I just want you to know, you made Julia really happy and you should never think any different." She smiled before closing the door.

I can't go on tour and just leave Julia here waiting for me.

I can't do that.

As hard as this is, she deserves someone who would be here for her 24/7.

I sat down in the chair next to Julia's bed. I've been doing this everyday for the past seven days. I grabbed her hand and held it tightly, beginning to speak, hoping she would hear me.

"Unfortunately I have to make this quick... Julia, you deserve someone better than me, and I don't deserve you." More tears began falling from my cheeks. "You deserve someone that will be here for you all the time and unfortunately I can't do that. I planned on telling you about going on tour, but then we got into that ridiculous argument. All I'm trying to say is that it's better if we ends things. I'm so sorry..." My voice faded into a whisper due to me crying so hard. I wiped away my tears with my free hand. "I wish I could've been a better boyfriend." I stood up and kissed Julia's cheek. "I l-love you." I managed to get out in between sobs as I dropped her hand, probably for the last time ever.

That would probably be the last time I ever kissed her cheek, the last time I ever held her hand, probably even the last time I ever see her and she wasn't even awake for any of it.

I could feel my heart breaking as I stepped out of the room.

I met Jen in the hallway, but I was unable to speak.

"You did what you thought was best." She pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back. "Now go enjoy that tour." She tried to make me feel better, but nothing could possibly make me feel better.

All I could do was nod and walk away.






I met the rest of the boys in the vehicle waiting for me outside in front of the hospital.

Once I got into the car, I buried my hands into my arms and my breathing was uncontrollable and I sounded like I was dying. I don't think I've ever cried like this.

The boys were patting my back and telling me everything was going to be fine.


But it wasn't.





I felt like I lost a piece of me.










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~A/N~



Okay I am beyond sorry for this mediocre, crappy chapter. It's so bad an sososososo short and I apologize but I was writing this chapter last night and Wattpad crashed TWICE. I lost EVERYTHING I wrote not only once, but twice. DO YOU GUYS EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW FRUSTRATING THAT IS?! ohmygod. Then, I gave up and fell asleep because it was 3 in the morning but I woke up today and began writing it again and it crashed once again. SO I LOST MY WORK FOR A GRAND TOTAL OF THREE TIMES. I had to re-write this chapter FOUR MOTHER FUDGING TIMES. IDK ABOUT YOU GUYS, BUT THAT IS SO AGGRAVATING. Anyways, ily guys so much so I had to make sure I updated because I'm leaving to visit my relatives tonight and I don't know when I'll be able to update for like the next week. IM SO SORRY :'( but ill try my best bc you guys are awesome!! <3

So thanks for reading this crap. Okay I'm sad about this horrible chapter, bye.