Second Chances

Chapter Forty-Seven

Chapter Forty-Seven~













~A/N~




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*Niall's P.O.V:*










"Julia! Please don't do this...." My voice trailed off as tears streamed down my face.

It felt like someone had shot me in the heart.

"Where's the ambulance?!" I yelled at Liam, getting angry.

"It should be here soon. Just calm down."

"I can't calm down. She's dying!"

"She's loosing too much blood." Harry stated.

"Wow. Thanks. I haven't noticed." I spat, covering the wound on Julia's stomach with my hands.

"Just relax. The ambulance should be here soo-" Liam was cut off by the sound of ambulance and police car sirens.

"Oh, thank you." I sighed.

Medics had rushed into the room with a stretcher.

"Over here." One of them said.

Julia was lifted effortlessly out of my arms and placed on the stretcher. I watched as she was strapped down. Why did this have to happen to her? She doesn't deserve this.

"She's loosing too much blood. Lets get her to the ambulance."

Julia was wheeled out of the room as I sat there, realization of what just unfolded, hitting me.

"Ni, let's go." Liam brought me back to reality.

I slowly stood up and took one glance at the now conscious Josh.

"I hope you're happy." I shook my head. It was so hard not to throw myself at him and beat him senseless once again.
I followed Liam and Harry outside where Julia was being put into the back of the ambulance.

"One person is allowed to ride in the ambulance, if any of you want to." The medic had offered.

"Niall, you go. Harry and I will meet you at the hospital." Liam suggested and I nodded.

I got in through the back of the ambulance and sat down next to the stretcher. There were tubes and needles in Julia's arm along with a mask covering her nose and mouth.

I couldn't bare to see her like this. I felt like I was going to throw up. I was sick to my stomach.

The medics stood there silently as the ambulance occasionally swayed side to side.

Julia's hand hung off the side of the stretcher so I gently wrapped my hands around her small one and rubbed my thumb across it.
I felt tears threatening to spill over my eyes again. I could feel my puffy eyes tearing up so I squeezed them shut and hoped this was all a dream. Unfortunately, every time I opened my eyes, I was brought back to this nightmare.


Eventually, the ambulance came to a stop and the medics began rushing around once more.

Julia's stretcher was being pulled out and I was told to go out through the door on the side.
After following the instructions given to me, I followed the stretcher as it was being pushed through the emergency room doors.

"Sir, you can't go in there." A woman had stood in front of me.

"I have to stay with Julia!"

"You can't go back there. I'm gonna ask you to take a seat in the waiting room."

"I have to make sure she's okay! She has to live!" My eyes began tearing as I watched the stretcher turn the corner and got one last glance at my unconscious girlfriend.

"Sir, we're going to do everything we possibly can. Now, would you please take a seat in the waiting room?"

I nodded in defeat as I made my way to the empty waiting room. Luckily no one was in here, probably due to the time, but I wouldn't be able to handle any questioning fans at the moment.

I sat down and let my head fall into my hands while my elbows rested on my knees. I wish I could go back in time and do things differently. I should've taken the bullet. I should've stopped Julia from leaving. I should've just apologized to Julia in the first place and even prevented that fight from happening. And lastly, I should've protected Julia from Josh. That's the least I could've done. I'm a horrible boyfriend. This is my fault. I'll never forgive myself for any of this. It should've never happened.

I heard the doors open and Harry and Liam walked in.

"Niall, how ya feeling?" I heard Harry ask.

I kept my head buried as my tears began for the thousandth time that day.

"It's all my fault..." I mumbled.

"This isn't your fault." Liam said.

"Yes it is. I was supposed to take that bullet."

"Don't make yourself feel like this. Just remember, she took the bullet because she loves you. You're perfectly okay thanks to her. You should be thankful for that at least."

"I am. But I'd rather it be me in the emergency room and Julia out here waiting to see if I was okay. She doesn't deserve that."

"Neither of you do. But you can't take back what happened. All we can do now is hope for the best." Liam patted my back.

I sighed.

I hope this is what Josh wanted. I hope he's happy because no one else is thanks to him. I swear if I ever see him again, I don't care where I am, I will not refrain from repeatedly punching him until he is unconscious.

"I need to call Kate." I slowly stood up and walked down the hallway for some privacy.

"How's everything? Did you find Julia? Is she okay?" Kate answered with a million questions.

That's when I lost it again.

"Josh s-shot her..." Was all I could manage to get out in between sobs. I had been crying for so long now that my breathing was unsteady and I sounded like I had the hiccups.

"What?! Oh my gosh, Niall..." I knew she would react like this. "Is she gonna be okay?"

"I don't know." I said wiping my face.

"Okay, okay. I'm gonna come to the hospital now."

I groaned in response because that was all I could get out. I then hung up and returned to my seat in the waiting room.

"We just called the other boys and told them what happened." Harry told me.

I nodded and placed my head back in my hands.

Shortly after my phone call, a worried Kate came rushing in. When she saw me, her expression was blank.

"Oh my gosh! Niall, you're a mess." She came over and hugged me. "It'll be okay." She pulled away and that's when I noticed she was crying too. "I guess this is worse than I thought, I assume by the way you look."

All I could do was nod at this point because I couldn't even manage to speak.

Kate sat across from us and sighed heavily.







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About and hour had passed. Zayn and Louis joined us at the hospital and Kate had called Julia's mom to explain to her what happened because I was in no shape to. She said that she was going to fly here from America. I offered to pay for her tickets because this is my fault, but she said that was nonsense.


"Which one of you is here for Julia?" A doctor came into the waiting room.

I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up.

"We all are, sir." Louis replied quickly.

"Okay. Which one of you can I speak to privately?" He asked.

By this time, I had calmed down but I knew my eyes were red and puffy.

"Um, me." I said quietly and stood up.

My stomach dropped and my hands began to sweat as my nerves kicked in. I was petrified to know what he was going to tell me.

Following him down the hallway, we stopped when we were out of hearing distance of everyone else.

"Okay, do you want the good news or bad news first?" He questioned.

Of course there has to be bad news.

"Good." I said quietly.

"Julia is in recovery and her surgery went as planned. The bullet was taken out with minor injuries left over and she was stitched up, there was just a lot of blood loss but that was taken care of. Ready for the bad news?"

I nodded but I wasn't ready at all.

"Julia is in a coma due to her head injuries. She had a few deep cuts in her face and head but those were also closed with stitches. We don't know when she is going to wake up. We assume it will be anywhere from three days to two weeks. She's going to stay in recovery until she wakes up and we'll take things from there. By the looks of things, she should have a speedy recovery and wake up soon."

I sighed and nodded once again. "When will I be able to see her?"

"Very shortly. I'll send someone to tell you when you can come in." He smiled and walked down the hallway.

I made my way back to the waiting room.

"How is she?" Kate jumped up. She had worry written on her face.

"She's in recovery and she should be fine... but she's in a coma..." Tears began streaming down my face. I was so used to it by now, I wasn't even bothered by the fact that I was crying.

"For how long?" Zayn questioned.

"Anywhere from three days to two weeks."

I sat down because I felt like I was going to faint. This is so much to handle in one day. I was tired, hungry, angry, nervous- but none of that mattered. All that mattered was Julia.


A nurse walked into the waiting room and told me to follow her.

"I can't do this." I sighed.

I turned to Louis who mirrored the look on my face.

"Want me to go with you?"

I nodded and he joined me. We followed the nurse until we were in front of a room.

"Just wait here. We're just finishing up and then you can go in." She stated and walked away.

I let out a long sigh. I don't think my heart has ever raced this fast before. Is this even healthy? I felt like I was going to pass out again.

"Calm down, Ni. You're making me nervous." Louis joked around.

I guess he had noticed my sighs and the fact that I was pacing back and fourth because I couldn't stand still.

Another nurse had walked out of the room we were waiting in front of.

"Only one person at a time. I'm sorry."

I turned and looked a Louis who gave me a nod.

"You'll be fine. Just relax." Louis said gripping my shoulders before I opened the door.

Letting it slowly close behind me, I was scared to take my eyes off the floor.

I can't do this.


I can't.


I'm going to vomit.

Or faint.


I picked my eyes up and felt my heartbreak. I pinched myself to make sure this wasn't a nightmare.

There were tubes connected to machines surrounding Julia. There were needles in her arm, a tube in her mouth, and she had stitches covering the wounds on her face. She was in a hospital gown and looked so helpless. I wanted to fall to the floor but I pulled myself together.

I sat on the chair next to her bed. I took her cold, small hand in mine. Tears began falling from my cheeks onto the bed.

"Julia, I don't know if you can hear me, but I want you to know this is all my fault. You shouldn't be the one in this hospital bed, I should. You don't deserve this at all. I should've never gotten into that stupid fight with you. It was pointless and my fault. I should've stopped you from walking out, little did I know that would've saved you from almost loosing your life. I don't deserve you. All this happened to you because of me and I'll never forgive myself." I let out a long sigh as more tears streamed down my face. "I love you so much, but I'm the reason you almost died. You shouldn't be with me. You should be with someone better than me. Hopefully you find him one day and he makes sure nothing bad ever happens to you unlike I did."

Julia can do way better than me. It isn't fair to her. She can find someone who won't let this happen. I'm so stupid. I shouldn't be with her... I don't deserve her.

I leaned over and kissed her cheek.

"I love you so much, Julia. More thank you think or will ever know."

I felt her squeeze my hand.

It can't be.

No.


I'm just overly tired.


I'm imagining things.


It's impossible.



I rested my head on her legs which were covered by a thin blanket. That's when I really let go and just let my tears and cries come out. There was no holding back.





Julia shouldn't be with me. She should be with someone else.


I mean this is all my fault, right?














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~A/N~




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