Dear Lauren

Chapter Twelve.

Group chat
Me: this guy is hitting on me and he's super sweet do I don't want to lose our friendship
Nissa: just distant yourself
Me: I don't want to seem rude
Nissa: well maybe you should date him. Maybe he'll help you get over L.
Me: I don't to get over her
Nissa: but you said you did yesterday
Me: I was also sobbing in that moment
"For real believe me I think you're pretty beautiful and a wonderful girl ive ever met"
Nissa: definitely flirting
Me: ugh. I don't want to hurt his feelings
Nissa: just stiffen up a little
Me: I said really? Why? And he said "Well you have always been nice to me since day one you are a very nice girl to talk to and I love your personality and I love your smile"
Nissa: he realllyyyyy wants you
Me: fuck man
Nissa: seriously distance from him
Me: it's okay we're talking about traveling now
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"Karla give me your laundry," my mother says from the bottom of the stairs. "We're leaving tomorrow."

I gather as much as possible and carry it down.

"Thanks mija," she says and kisses my cheek. I grab a plate of eggs and sit.

"Mimi!" Sofi yells before jumping on me and koala-hugging me.

"What's up Fifi?" I ask poking her nose.

"Mama said we're leaving tonight instead so pack up," she says playing with my ends.

"Thanks Fi. Need help?" I ask knowing how my sister is.

"No I can do it!" She says and scrambles to her room.

I laugh and put my dish away to go pack.
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In the middle of packing I see my guitar in the corner.

Cold coffee(Lauren's song)

She's like cold coffee in the morning
I'm drunk off last nights whisky and coke
She'll make me shiver without warning
And make me laugh as if I'm in on the joke

And you can stay with me forever
Or you could stay with me for now

Tell me if I'm wrong
Tell me if I'm right
Tell me if you need a loving hand
To help you fall asleep tonight

"You're talented mija," my grandma says from the door.

"Thank you," I say and smile at the ground. I put the guitar back in it's corner and continue to pack.

"You should perform more," she says.

"No I don't like singing in front of people,"

You'll choke when you audition
You can't even sing

"I'm just saying Karla you're really good," she says kissing my forehead.

"Thank you," I say smiling up.

She smiles back and walks away.
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Memory
"Come on Mila. Pleeeeeease?" Lauren begs.

"You just heard me sing," I say.

"But you weren't really trying and you didn't know I was listening," she says and pouts.

"Listen here Jauregui, I'm not singing," I say walking to the next room carrying my drink.

"Come on please? I won't tell anyone," she pouts and hugs me.

I hate how you control me

"Fine!" I say.

"Yay!" She squeals.

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am
So, honey, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are

"There, happy Jauregui?" I ask.

She sits there speechless.

"You're amazing. I could listen to you all day," she gushes.

I just blush and she hugs me.
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You make me confident when I feel crushed by the world.

A/N-
Hey guys! How was your holiday season? Anything exciting? I'm sadly heading home tomorrow. Which if you didn't know I'm with my family in New York.

Other exciting news, school starts in like a week (don't tell anyone but I like school sometimes) and my baby brother is due like any day now. So yay!

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