Falling For Her (Tom Hiddleston Fanfiction)

Angels & Saviors

I didn't know when exactly I sat down on the hospital hallway floor. With my knees scrunched up to my chest and my arms wrapped around them. And my back against the wall. I didn't even know I was praying until I realized I had been bowing my head.

I did in fact manage to notice every single sound around me. Every beep of a monitor. Every ring of a phone. I managed to know that the hallway I sat in was empty. Except for every now and then when a person would walk by. Acting as if they didn't see me. Going about their business.

I kept on forgetting to breath. My whole world felt frozen. Waiting for some kind of news about Lilly.

I sat there going over every possible outcome in my head. And every time I could even try to assure myself that maybe she is still alive, my brain would remind me of how she felt. When I ran her down the stairs and to my car earlier. Lifeless. Still. Nothing.

She may be gone.

As I sit in that empty hallway. Lilly could already be gone. Off of this earth. Somewhere I knew I couldn't go to get her.

Everything including the air I breath, everything was at a complete stop. But the baffling thing that struck me as I listened to my surroundings, was that everyone else's world continued on like usual. And I couldn't help but think of how many people right now, were dying in this hospital, and how many other's world's are frozen like mine. And most of all, I couldn't help but fear that Lilly was one of those people. That I was losing her. Or worse, that she was already gone.

I alternated between prayers, picturing Lilly's smile, and focusing on noises.

I hugged my knees tighter. "Lilly. Please, stay." I whispered ever so quietly. Wishing so much that I could hold her like I am, myself.

I heard another set of footsteps walk by as I continued to pray.I followed the sound of the shoes stick to the floor. It was a nurse. The squeak their shoes made was very easy to spot. I kept my head down and my eyes closed tight. Seeing Lilly deep inside of my mind.

The squeak of the shoes stopped, catching my attention. I opened my eyes but kept my head down, listening intently. Hoping maybe it was Lilly's doctor.

"Waiting for someone?" The nurse with the squeaky shoes asked. I lifted my head. Adjusting my eyes to the fluorescent hospital light again. The nurse stared down at me. She looked to be in her fifties, maybe sixties. With short grey hair and purple scrubs.

I swallowed hard, not sure if I could speak. So I nodded instead.

She sighed. "Scary. Isn't it?"

This time I forced out a word. "Terrifying." I said weakly. With dry tears against my face. I was confused as to why she was talking to me. I wanted to be mad. A part of me wanted to ask her to leave me alone. But I didn't. I felt too bad already. And to be honest, it felt good for another person to notice me. And my frozen world. Someone who probably had her own problems. I mean, she was a nurse.

Without question, she sat next to me against the wall of the hallway. Her knees bent to her chest, matching my pose. "So. Who is she?"

I looked at her. "How did you know it was a girl?"

She grinned. "I have two sons about your age. Trust me, I know the face you boys make when your number one trouble has a girl written all over it. So... Who is she?"

I loosened grip of my knees. Relaxing my shoulders against the wall. The distant beeping of the monitors mirrored the beats of my heart. "She's my girlfriend. Her name is Lilly." I felt my eyes get heavy. So I closed them tight and blinked the tears away. The nurse listened intently. Waiting for me to say more.