A Lust To Love

Chapter 33

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Kc

Fate, some people believe in it, to some people it's bogus. Whatever you may call it, it plays an important role in our lives.

I personally, a believer of fate, maybe due to the events that happened in my life. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe that if everything did not happen by fate then I would not be where I am today.

I have a specific family by fate and fate decides when and if I was going to meet someone.

Ngunit grabe naman magbiro ang tadhana sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung yun na ba ang katapusan o may magyayari na naman. Fate was cruel to play this trick on me.

So it's real. My real parents was the Nicholls. Dahil ayaw kung maniwala at gusto kung makasiguro they rerun the DNA test. And it came all positively matched- 99.9%. No one can deny it now. I am their long lost daughter thirty one years ago.

Masaya na may halong sakit. Because of what happened. My love for Allen also was being played. But I know it's not only fate. It's was also by chance, it played a big role.

Certainly chance plays a role in our lives, in that events have consequences that we cannot possibly foresee--sometimes good, sometimes bad. My baby Adrianna Elise might not have been born, for example, if I hadn't chosen, rather on a whim, to respond to an invitation from my chosen hospital for my residency where I eventually met Allen and fell in love.

Some might argue that it was fated, but that doesn't exactly fit with my worldview, and in any case, cannot be demonstrated--it is, as others have said, a matter of faith. I do think that it can be pretty overwhelming to contemplate the often mundane choices that lead to major changes in our lives.

"Princess, you okay?" narinig kung basag ni mommy sa aking malalalim na pag-iisip.

"Yes mom, I'm good. I have this deep thoughts of everything that are happening. I wish, if only. Pero nangyari na ang lahat." Sadness filled the air as I heaved a deep sigh. Tapos na akong umiyak magdamag. Iniyak ko ang frustration ko sa mga nangyari.

Bumalik muna kami sa beach house after ng mga nangyari. I like it here. Mas gusto ko dito ako palagi. Aside sa masyado na akong pamilyar sa lugar for over six years that I stayed here, gusto ko ang simoy ng hanging galing sa tubig dagat. The sea calms me. Just like how I calmed everytime I looked into Allen's blue eyes before.

"Anak, huwag mo ng isipin ang mga nangyari. Ang importane this time totoo na. Nahanap mo na ang totoong mga magulang mo. About what happened to you and Allen, there were reasons behind it.

Nakausap ko ang daddy mo. He will come and visit us. I told him what happened. Somehow lumambot ang puso niya. Kahit naman minsan lang yun nadalaw dahil sa nangyari sayo, alam ko hindi ka niya matitiis ng hindi nakikita. About your kuya, hayaan mo muna. Nasaktan lang yon masyado pero nagkausap kami. He even asked about you kung okay ka lang after sa mga nangyari ngayon. I know he cares for you.  Walang nagbago. Nasasaktan lang sila na makita ka sa kalagayan na'to. Don't worry makakakita ka. Your family is a family of doctors they will do something. Sana tuparin ng nagbid na yon ang sinabi niya sa auction. It's hard to look for a donor at hindi lahat magmamatch," naririnig kung paliwanag ni mommy.

My mom is my safest place on earth. She is my real home. Hindi ko alam if kakayanin ko lahat kung wala siya sa tabi ko. She is a perfect example of what mother is. My living miracle. Dahil sa kaniya walang imposible.

"Thank you and I love you so much mom. In this world nothing can beat you for being a real mother. Even though you're not my biological one. Hindi naging hadlang. Your love has the purest intention. Kaya hindi kita ipagpapalit kahit kanino. You will always be my favorite person. A thank you isn't enough mommy," naiyak kung sabi sa kaniya. She hugged me so tight.