TheOrbitor

Self Hatred

Everytime I masturbated, I just got into this negative feebback loop, where I hate on everything.

Then my luck and physical health would dwindle for the next few week or months.

It always felt like once I masturbated then my life would just go to shit.

I really do not appreciate this.

There are ways to amend this problem.

The thing is, it depends on how we are treating other people.

I would like to be a partner of a female that I admire.

At least, for the communal support.

Until death do us apart, and the wedding vows.

I have to make it work for myself.

This is indeed the opportunity, we are doing things on our own accord for the first time.

So, we need a long time goal.

We will just stay here for perhaps a year or half a year.

I just do not want to pay for that piece of shit. Not fun at all, 5700 dirham. Which means I haven't worked all month.

And since we are going to do that.

Writing is probably going to be something that will be a livesaver, or at least some sort of a life line.

We are enjoying this process, being able to think clearly.

Everything is super important. The experience. So, we will use this as a platform, so that I can get things done.

Learning, and all those things that are important to me.

So, I am going to start building habits this year.

Especially after I had got my hands on the phone.

I will remind myself again, there is every place that I can head to.

Absolutely no why should I feel that I am inferior to someone.

Why should I be bothered by those things?

I will not be watching any more of those videos.

An absolute waste of time.

I would rather be learning and writing. Never a dull moment in life.

I should pick up running again. That is something which I will actively work on.

I just need to get the money, then we will considering things for other matters.

So, there will be a phase, things that we are looking forward to.

So, we want to become a Singaporean. That means I need to bring wealth and skills to the country.

Just how am I supposed to do that?

Writing is going to be life savior.

We need to get things in order.

This is quite important, then all the time.

So, if we were to use an application like that?

I like French, Japanese and Arabic.

Sheesh, so many things to learn.

Yet there is so few time.

Let's just say that I need a time line.

Not fun at all.

Thing about it.

7 days, we will get a better understanding of Dubai.

Then, two months, we will be getting out hands on the new Samsung fold 3.

Where I would hope that my productivity is going to be greatly improved.

Whatelse is there to think about?