Alone Without You

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Can we leave my song choice alone pls :,)

Cover by: SxmplyMoxxi
All credits to her, she's amazing for real.

(Everything is in George's POV unless it
says Dream's POV and it's no AU, they are YouTubers, George is 24 and Dream is 21)

TW's:
-Self hate/disgust
-Mental/verbal abuse
-Mentions rape (small descriptions)

I remembered the day so well, I remembered every detail and it was hurting me so badly. I had been crying every night for years long now, but today I was sick of it. I had hidden my secret for five years now and I didn't want to anymore.

I had been preparing myself for hours and hours to finally tell my parents about the things that happened to me.

I walked downstairs and sat down on the couch, looking at my parents to get their attention. They looked up from their phones and my mum smiled at me slightly. 'Is there something wrong?'

I nodded slowly and took another deep breath. 'I have to tell you something.'

'What have you done?'

'I haven't done anything,' I whispered. 'A few years ago uh- there was uh- this girl-.'

'Oh gosh, George don't tell me you have a kid.'

'Please let me talk, this is already really hard for me. So there was this girl.'

'Were you drunk?'

'Please, let me talk. I wasn't drunk. And uh- I was in the park and uh- she came up to me and everything started not that bad, I guess. She got kind of pushy and forced me to come to her house. After she forced me for an hour, I went with her.'

'That's not smart-,' my dad started.

'Please, just let me talk. I went with her and she got even worse. She kind of started abusing me and after a while she uh- tied my hands together and she undressed me and-.' I started crying and almost ended up in hyperventilation.

'She raped me,' I whispered.

It turned quiet for a little, I was waiting on a hand on my shoulder or maybe a hug. I was waiting for help and finally after all these years to be able to release my emotions. But the silence broke and I got surprised with something unexpected.

My dad started laughing really loudly and I looked up in shock. He was laughing so hard that he had tears rolling down his face and he had to sit down because he laughed that hard. I bit my lip to fight against my tears and soon my mum also started grinning.

'Why are you laughing?' I whispered, shocked about what was happening.

'You should become a writer, you're good at coming up with stories.'

'But it really happened,' I whispered even quieter than I did before.

'You think I believe this? You?' my dad started laughing even harder, wiping tears away from his cheeks. 'Come on, George. You could have come up with a better story, no one will believe this. I have to believe that you weren't even strong enough to fight against it?'

'My hands got tied,' I whispered.

'And you weren't even able to fight?'

'I was scared.'

'You're actually really funny, George,' my mum said. 'But don't joke about these things anymore, please.'

'It's not a joke.'

'You've made us laugh enough now, George,' my dad said.

'I finally had the courage to tell this to you.'

'How long would this be ago then?'

'Five years ago,' I whispered. 'I was nineteen.'

My dad bursted into laughter again. 'You're so funny. George, you know boys don't get raped. Come on, I must admit it was funny, but don't joke about it anymore. Definitely not when it's not even possible.'

'Boys do get raped,' I whispered, fighting against my tears. 'It's not a joke.'

My dad started laughing again and I stood up, running away as fast as I could. All these years had I kept this secret for myself because I felt so disgusted and ashamed about myself and now I finally dared telling it, but no one believed me. Just because I was a boy?

I sat down behind my PC and stared at the screen. I had a livestream planned today, I was going to do a Minecraft challenge with Dream. I only never felt less like doing a stream than today, I was sure my viewers would get mad at me cancelling it, but I had to.

I opened Discord on my PC and went to Dream's and mine chat, typing a quick message.

George
not streaming today, dont feel well

Dream immediately seemed to be online and he started typing.

Dream
r u sick?

George
nah i just dont wanna stream today

Dream
u promised ur viewers, idiot

George
i cant, not today

Dream
did something happen?

George
ye but im not telling u what, just leave me alone for a little

Dream
fine, text me whenever u want

George
ty

I closed Discord fully and went to my Twitter to type out an apology for not doing my planned stream. I honestly felt terrible for cancelling it, I had never done anything like that when it was planned. Although I slept through the L'Manburg wars, that was still different than a stream with Dream on my own channel.

I got crazy because of all the thoughts in my head, my life was really just terrible. I had always bragged and said I would definitely say no to peer pressure, but as soon as I got pressured to come with her to her place, I listened to it.

The whole rape was my fault, I should have been strong enough to fight against it, but I wasn't. I was so scared that I froze and felt paralysed. My brain stopped working completely and I couldn't stop her anymore. I couldn't stop her undressing me and after that raping me.

I never saw her again after that, for my part I could be a father at this point and I never knew. I honestly hated my life so much, I got social anxiety. I never spoke to strangers anymore, I could apparently trust no one. Not even my parents. I had hoped so badly for a hug. One hug would have been enough to make me happier. Just one simple hug.

But even that was too much to ask for since they didn't even believe me.

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