It has now it been almost 4 years since my last treatment. Four years of remission and thinking I'll be fine. Four years of planning what to do with the rest of my life. Four years thinking that horrid medicine, chemo, had saved me from dying, and that I was finished with hospitals. Well... Now I'm back. Not for cancer treatment, but because that very same treatment that saved my life is now killing me. Or more particularly--killing my heart.