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Chapter 15
I closed my eyes attempt to go to sleep..but how can I sleep with michael on my mind...
He's always on your mind
True..thats very true..he always on my mind..not in a good way tho...I think about what he's goona do to me.. if this is all a lie..I think about how long this is gonna last or when is he going back to his old ways..its just a matter of time.
I have zero trust in michael..everything he says to me I have to question it. Why? do I have to tell you, you should know this by now..I have a history with him if you forgot.
Its very frustrating tho..I get so angry when he say he's sorry...sorry isnt gonna take away my wombs sorry isnt gonna take away the pain I have inside...Im tired of hearing sorry from him its getting real old...but I know it wont be the last of it.
As I was about to fall asleepy my phone started ringing again...uuuggghh for fuck sake.
I slowly sat and grabbed my phone from the dresser and looked the id and it was michael again..great..I looked at tbe phone for a second wonder if I should answer it and I probably should because he's not gonna stop. So I did..I answered.
Me:".....yes michael.." I said
M: ".……ok maybe I shouldnt of went there" no shit.
Me: " how did you get my number again?" I asked.
M: "facebook"
Me: "oh yeah remind me to delete that"
M: sure thing...dont want someone you dont like calling you huh" michael said with an unfamilar tone its almost like he was somewhat ashamed.
Me: ".......right" I said barely audible.
M: " You never get on facebook..why is that"
Me: " Every time I get on I see hate messages, hate on my wall and someone is always talking about me" He kept quiet for a minute.
M: "……not one nice one?" He asked.
Me: "No.."
M: "oh..."
Me: "Its ok..Im deleting it anyway" I shrugged
M: "...you dont get a break huh"
Me: "Glad you finally see that"
M: "I saw it...um do you have a twitter"
Me: Yeah no one knows tho only people from other states.
M:"Thats good no one should know...what happens when people do find you" he asked.
Me: "I block them"
M:"oh" he simply said.
We both stayed quiet for a few minutes not saying anything. I should have known this phone call was gonna be poitless..not that I think its wrong but....its with him..we never spoke like this..I dont know nothing about him but I guess this is how you start a "friendship" I havent had friends so long I forgot how to have them.. ugh god that sounds weird.......I dont consider michael as my friend...he's not there yet
M: "........nevaeh....." michael said softly
Me: "Yeah" I softly said back.
M: "......do you ever think you can forgive me" he said so soft I could barely hear him but I heard him clearly. I kept quiet for a second.
Me: "...……I dont know" I said barely audible.
M: "(sigh) nevaeh...oh girl..you hard to get trough"
Me: "Bet that never happens to you huh"
M: "Never....it has never happened most girls fall for me by now"
Me: "Thats not gonna happen" I said a little to quickly.
M: "You not most girls either.."
Me: "Good...if I was I'll be a slut dropping my panties to every guy I meet"
M: " (chuckles) Oh boy"
Me: " What??"
M: "You actually something else girl"
Me: "Is that so?" I said confused.
M: "Yeah..I think Im gonna have fun getting to know you"
Me: "Im not that interesting"
M: "you're very interesting"
Me: " And how you know that, we never had a real convetsation"
M: "Didnt have to"
Me: "....ok..." I said awkwardly
M: "(laughs)"
Me: "Whats so funny!!"
M: " You!! you're adorable"
Me: "Oh please..now you delusional"
M: "no....you are so cute" he said, I blushed.. hard..omg Im blushing..I-I dont blush for him this never happens..its needs to stop.
Me: " Um..what you doing" I said trying to start another conversation.
M: "Laying down talking to you..what you doing?" He asked softly
Me: "Same" I sigh
M: "I could come over and lay with ya if you like" he said..I already know he has that famous smirk on his face. I rolled my eyes.
Me: " Im good..."
M: "Ok (chuckles)"
Me: "Im so tired"
M: "I can tell...your voice sound so good on the phone especially when you're tired" Michael said with another unfamiliar tone and that one made me blush extra hard. Fuck I need to get off this phone.
Me: "I think Ima go"I said yawning
M: "So soon"
Me: " Yeah.."
M: "........Im poking my lip out right now" he said and a tiny giggle slipped from my lips, I quickly put both of my hands over my mouth shocked from what I just did.
M: "Oh my fucking god..did I just hear a giggle from you!?!" He asked just as surprised as me. I kept quiet..theres no way denying this.
M: "(sigh)Oh that sounded so beautiful"
Me: ".....Michael...Im..Im hanging up now"
M: "Ok..good night..can I call you tomorrow?" He asked.
Me: "Um..no..I uh I think I have to do something tomorrow"
M: "Oh..ok..um well goodnight then"
Me:"....night"
And with that I hung up the phone.
I lied I dont have anything to do tomorrow...I just dont want to talk to him..not two nights in a row……I dont think I can handle that it was already overwhelming. Im not used to talking to anyone let along Michael and talking to him lowkey freaks me out and Im not exaggerating. Theres so much to get used to..god...its like Im starting a new life and Im scared I dont know what im getting myself into..It would be much easier if it was someone that didnt used to beat me..It wouldnt be this complicated.
How.....how..just how can you let someone in that used to hurt you......badly and say them heart ranching words to you every single day? I-I cant. I mean its so hard...it hurts my heart..yeah michael is being nice to me..but it dont mean it will make me feel better..its still hurts I still feel pain. Evey time I look at him all I can see is the guy that leaves bruses all over my body and tell me he doesnt care if I die. Those words still echo in my head the pain still linger's in my body.
Time. Time will only tell..I dont know how I will feel about michael five months from now...maybe he will grow on me..maybe not..we'll see...we'll see if michael will stay this way or if he will go back to his old ways.......and if he does I'll be ready because Im never letting my guard down.
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The next morning I woke drowsy as ever its 9:30am..I dont even know what time I went to sleep..but Im guessing it was really late..Im surprised its not noon.
I slowly got up from my worm bed and walked to my bathroom. I went to my sink and looked into the mirror.
Eww
"Another fucking day" I said to myself shaking my head.
I did my normal mornig hygiene and went down stairs.
Once I made it down stairs I walked to the kitchin my mom is home I can smell her cooking pancakes they smell really good I think I'll eat them today.
When I finally reached the kitchen...
"Morning mom what smell so goo-" I stop in mid sentence and also mid step seeing michael standing right next to the kitchen counter.
Fuck my life.
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