I swear I was dreaming about sleeping on a cloud with bottles of Hennessy on my lap. And fries, lots of fries.
Then the cloud just evaporated and I was plummeting to the ground with the sound of a high pitched scream.
"Shit."
I jolted awake and that's when the cries became more apparent. The twins were awake.. for the fourth time tonight. I sighed and looked over at Rob who looked like she was about to cry herself as she raised up.
We usually took turns, me waking up the last time, but she looked so stressed and tired that I took one for the team. "I got it." I mumbled and pushed myself into a sitting position. I ran my hands down my face and pushed the covers off of my legs.
"You went last time." She said and I nodded, steadily getting up. "Are you sure?"
I nodded again and leaned over to cup her face. "Get some sleep baby." I pecked her lips and backed away before leaving the room, following the noise.
We were officially seven days in. Seven days of sleeping three hours at most. I knew it'd be different since I found out about Dahlia at four months instead of from scratch. But sheesh, it was an entirely different level.
Pushing the door open, I saw it was Remi making a fuss, Anani still sound asleep. I leaned over into the crib and rubbed my eyes before leaning down and picking him up.
"C'mon little man." I whispered and bounced around the room to attempt to get him to sleep again. I knew he wasn't wet, I just changed him an hour ago. So he had to either be hungry or just cranky.
He continued screaming into my ear so I walked out of the room and dragged my feet tiresomely down the hardboard steps. "Are you hungry?" I rocked him side to side and grabbed the prepped bottle from the fridge to heat up. I made sure to test the temperature of my wrist before raising it to his lips and, thank the heavens, he fell silent.
As I went to sit down..
Another cry.
I dropped my head and sighed before raising up and going back up the stairs to the room, Anani now crying her eyes out. Twins right? What a joy.
I did the same thing, rocked her in my free arm which didn't work, then I went downstairs and had to maneuver around the kitchen with nothing but my mouth free and two fingers free.
Somehow, I managed.
I made it back to the living room and put them on the large cushion mat that was already laid out and held the bottles.
Finally.. silence.
My head hung slightly as I kept feeding them until the bottles were gone, to which I replaced with a pacifier. As much as I wanted to just take my ass to sleep, I knew they needed to be burped or they'd end up crying again in thirty minutes because of gas.
So, I moved back to the couch and laid against the arm rest, my left leg stretched across the couch with my right hanging over the edge. I left the space between my legs to lay Anani down while I held Remi on my shoulder. Usually it would be a lot easier to do with Robyn's help but I knew she needed to sleep.
Her body and energy needed to heal so.. I had to figure this shit out on my own.
I used my left hand to pat Remi's back, my right patting Anani's. Okay.. I could do this. I scooter down and laid down myself and rested my head on the arm rest. I got this.
-
"Babe." I hummed with my eyes closed, smiling subconsciously when I felt something soft moving over my face. "Okay your eyes weirdo." I cracked one eye open and Rob pulled back with a smile. "Good morning."
"Morning." I looked down at my chest, my eyes widening and heart dropping when I saw the couch empty. The twins. "Where's-" I sighed and rested my hand on my chest when I looked over and saw them in the little automatic swinging shit. "Oh my God."
"I came downstairs and your ass was drooling on my sons head." She patted my chest before grabbing my hands and helping me up. "You hungry?" I nodded and walked with her to the dining room, my eyebrows shooting up when I saw the table spread. Pancakes, bacon, eggs, plantains.. biscuits? "You give me a lot of credit, you know?" I looked up at her as she pushed me down in the seat and massaged my shoulders. "I wanna treat you too."
I grabbed her chin and softly connected our lips. "Thank you, I love you." She smiled and leaned against the side of my head. "I can't eat all of this by myself though so.. sit your pretty ass down with me." She chuckled against me before pulling a chair up and we both dug in.
"Are you going shopping today with Jahleel? For your suit?" She asked and I nodded. "With your brother or.."
"Jay and Dante.. my dad too." Her eyebrows furrowed, her head tilted. "I haven't spoken to him in a minute."
"I know, that's why I'm surprised." She mumbled. "Are you guys good?"
I shrugged. "It's Rich being Rich, you know? He's antisocial as fuck unless you go to him nowadays." Another shrug lifted my shoulders. "It's whatever though. You know he pulled up on my mom at home and tried to talk with her?" Her jaw dropped as I chuckled lowly. "Yeah, only to see Robert feeding her grapes on the porch."
"You're lying." I shook my head while she laughed. "I love Robert man." I nodded in agreement, knowing he was perfect for my mom. "Hey but don't forget, we have to go to the gym today so don't be all day."
I slowly took a bite of the sausage in confusion. "I though the doctor said wait two weeks before working out?"
She shook her head. "Only for crazy workouts. I'm doing basic stuff today and I want you to come for support. There's a Burger King across the street so.. you'll need to stop me from running over there."
"Shit, ima be running with you girl." I joked and she smacked my arm softly with a chuckle. Just as I stared eating again, I heard little whimpers slowly develop into a cry. "I got ten on it being Anani." I mumbled and she raised her hand, shaking mine.
"No that's your mini because you stay whining too." I waved her off before pushing back from the table and going into the living room. Of course.. "Pay up chump." She teased and pushed my back.
I huffed. "I'll cash app you." I mumbled before picking Remi up. "Aight little man, you wanna eat eat? Hm?" I eyed Rob with a smirk as I walked past her, still talking in a baby voice. "Mama wishes she could eat too." Her eyes rolled when I looked her up and down with a hum. I really did..
-
"I think you look like a clown." Dante mumbled and I gave him a look through the mirror I was standing in front of. "No I get it." He raised off of the couch then came over to dust off my shoulders. "You going for the Joker look, aren't you?"
I smacked my lips and turned around to tackle him into the couch. "Easy easy!" Jahleel exclaimed and gently pulled me back. "Don't make me tell Rob you acting up." He said and pointed at me. I immediately backed up.
He was actually Robyn's stylist but since she had some guy with a very long name working on her and her bridesmaids dresses, she sent him to me. And made me promise I.. wouldn't give him a lasting migraine.
"Okay." He said and clapped his hands before pulling the jacket off. "This isn't even your colors. Why did you grab it?"
"Because she said Halloween came early and she need her Harley Quinn." Jay added, him and Dante dapping one another up while laughing.
I flipped them both off. Assholes. "Whatever. Joker or not, I could snatch both of y'all girls with it too."
"I'm sorry, am I at the wrong store because.." I looked over my shoulder, smiling when I saw my dad. "Because that doesn't sound like a married to be's comment."
"What's up pops." I said with a laugh, hopping off the little platform to give him a hug. "Glad you could make it."
I looked back when he looked over my shoulder and watched Jay look at dad before lowering his eyes to his phone after simply giving him a nod. I didn't blame him, I knew they still hadn't hashed everything out but I hoped this would help things.
I couldn't have my dad and brother fighting.. I couldn't pick sides yet I didn't wanna force anything either, you know? I just hope it works out.
"So," My dad looked away, a bit dejected but keeping his composure. "What are the colors?"
"Blue and purple." I mumbled and Jahleel made a face. "What? It is."
"It's Indigo blue and Byzantium purple. Not just blue and purple." I stared at him in silence as he grabbed my actual jacket and slid it over my arms. "See? Now look." I sighed and looked in the mirror, my eyebrows raising at how good purple looked on me. Well alright.. I could officially wear every color and look like a snack.
"Look at you." I glanced at my dad as he came behind me and smiled, his hands resting on my shoulders. "You look so grown.."
I chuckled. "I'm twenty six dad. I am grown." He smiled widely and nodded before taking in a deep breath and moving back. "The guys are wearing black and the girls.. indigo blue." I exaggerated but Jahleel gave a sarcastic 'proud' clap in return. "So yeah, just pick any suit you want fitted and it's on me."
My dads head pulled back. "What? I can pay for it, Y/nn." I waved my hand. "Oh so you ballin' now?"
I smirked and shrugged softly. "Something like that."
After taking pictures in the suit, per Jaheel's request, we moved on to choosing the groomsmen tux's. "I think since I'm wearing the two piece suit, we should go with the three piece for them." I said as he showed me each one he chose. "And no tie, no tie." I said with a grimace as I shook my head and pulled the tie off of the Jay.
"What is it with you and ties? I've never even seen you with one." I silently fixed the bow tie as Jay smirked, responding to Jahleel. "She doesn't know how to put one on-"
"Shut up." I mumbled, both him and my dad laughing. "They're evil. Bow ties look cooler anyways. There." I stepped back and turned him to face the mirror. "That's it. This is final. Flick it up now, J."
Jahleel quickly took the pictures before huffing. "I swear. You carry almost as much of a demanding tone as Robyn. Scares me shirtless."
"I scare you?" I questioned, chuckling under my breath when he nodded. "Well I'm sorry, I don't wanna be scary." I playfully pulled his short ass into a tight hug. "I can't scare someone on the glam squad. That's what Rob calls you right?"
"Yes." He wheezed out. "Okay.. I'm having trouble getting oxygen, Y/n." I pulled back and squeezed his shoulders lightly then turned back around. "So, would you like the same suit as the groomsmen? I can get you fitted now?"
My dad shrugged before nodding. "Sure."
As my dad was getting fitted, I sat next to Dante and saw him texting Melissa with a wide smile. "Everything going good there?" I asked with a knowing look as he looked up. "Simp."
"Shut up." He laughed out and bumped my shoulder with his. "But yeah, we're good. We're having a little date night tonight in Santa Monica."
"Oh cute cute." I said in a girlish tone. "Take lots of pics, make sure your location is on so I know you're safe-"
"If you don't stop with that shit bruh." He smacked his lips and shook his head. "Always doing some weird shit."
I draped my arm over his shoulder, smirking when he tried to pull away. "And that's why you stuck around me ain't it?" He gave me a look. "Brother for life shit- I'm getting married bro. In less than two months."
He nodded. "Yes I know. You tell me the same thing every time we see each other." I rolled my eyes at his dramatic ass tone. "But yeah, so, who's planning the bachelor party? It's not little man is it?" He said, nodding at Jay.
My brother looked back as he unbuttoned his shirt. "Yeah, little man got a bigger dick than you though."
I let out an instigating 'ooh.' It's what I do best. "Tell me, how would you know that bro? That's a little sus."
My eyebrows shot up. "Ooh he calling you gay, Jayden. You gon' take that?" I said, continuing to poke at the situation.
Jay retaliated. "Oh I'm gay? Weren't you the one on your knees whenever big brother alpha told you to do so?" I opened my mouth to ooh again.. then I realized.. I got on my knees when I first pledged because I was told to..
"Hey now." I said with my hands raised.
"Excuse me?" My dad then jumped in, him also being an Alpha. "We were not gay. Everyone that pledged had to kneel to get their hair cut, it was a sign of respect." Jay snorted and looked away. "You wouldn't know that though because you didn't pledge, hell, you didn't even finish college."
Telling by his face, Jay immediately took offense. Ah shit. "So you guys wanna-"
"What's the point?" Jay cut off my attempts to deescalate the situation, his tone dripping with irritation. "To become friends with a bunch of dudes who won't give a damn about me in five years? Get a degree that won't mean shit to the real world?"
I sighed as Dante grabbed my shoulder and shook his head. "They need this.. just let them get it out." He whispered and as much as I knew it was true, I just didn't want it to get out of hand. We were in a goddamn luxury store in Beverly Hills. I didn't need anything getting out and ruining this happy glow I was living in.
"I'm not attacking you here, son." Dad said with his hands raised. "You obviously have pent up anger towards me, and that's fine. But I'm not the bad guy right now."
"You're..." Jay shook his head and exhaled heavily. "You're not the bad guy? Really? Yet I still haven't gotten an apology for all the shit you did. Has mom? Hell, when was the last time you talked to your daughter? Aaliyah said it doesn't even feel like you're her father. You are the bad guy, Rich." I raised up when he took a menacing step forward.
"Jay-" I mumbled and rested my hand on his shoulder but he pulled the bow tie off of his neck and pushed it to my chest.
"Just because you worked stuff out with him doesn't mean we all have, Y/n." I nodded softly with a sigh, he clenched his jaw. "I tried. I'm sorry I ruined your fitting but I'm going home."
I lowered the bow tie as he grabbed his own jacket and pulled it on. "Jayden I don't want you driving angry.. let's go chill, just us."
"I'm fine." He mumbled and put his hat on. When he looked up, I frowned deeply and he sighed before giving me a reassuring smile. "I'll drive slow and call you when I get home, okay?"
I nodded reluctantly. "Text me if you need anything." He turned and left without another word, leaving us silent in the room.
"So," My dad cleared his throat. "I think I'm gonna head out as well." Well that's just great. He then smiled and pulled me into a hug. "I'm proud of you."
"Thank you." I mumbled and patted his back. "You don't have to go. We can get food? Talk about it?"
He shook his head. "No I've been in this city long enough. California air stinks." I cracked a weak smile as he pulled back. "You take care of yourself."
Then he was gone.
"What's a wedding without a little family drama huh?" I gave Dante a look as he chuckled to himself. "I feel like getting drunk now, you?"
"Can't." I mumbled and looked down at my phone. "I have a night workout session with Rob." I rolled my shoulders, now happy I had something to look forward to after this. Punching a bag sounded like something amazing right about now.
All I know was that I couldn't dwell on this. I wasn't the mediator, I wasn't the middle man anymore. I had a whole ass family to worry about now.. this wasn't my problem to solve; not when all parties were grown ass adults. For once I just had to step back. And that's what I was going to do.
"So Mel said something about a double date?" Dante said as we walked outside slowly.
I raised my eyebrows in confusion. "A what?" He shrugged. "I'll ask Rob, they probably talked or something." As we passed by a certain place, I looked up with a smirk. "Aye I'll catch you later, alright?" He followed my gaze and shook his head with a soft chuckle. "What?"
"You bozo, always doing something." He gave me a bro hug and ruffled my hair. "Don't go bald."
I flipped him off as I pulled the door open. "Aye, I'd look sexy either way!" I called out before walking in. All eyes immediately turned to me, the hair salon going deathly silent. I followed their gaze and saw cameras pressed against the window as the flashes went off a mile a minute.
I sighed and turned to face them. "So.. is there a back room one of you can do my hair in?" Four different girls ran up with wide smiles and I looked at each of them with a chuckle. "Perfect."
-
So, I had confidence right? Everyone knew that. I could be a bit cocky at times.. okay a lot cocky at times but for good reason. One, I had a badass chick, aka a bad gal as my partner who always fed that ego. Two, I just knew I looked good.
And looking at myself in the mirror.. well shit, maybe I should start modeling because.. yeah.
I pulled my hoodie up as I started to the house, planning on surprising Robyn with it. Once I walked in, I heard her singing in the living room.
"Beg you something, please. Baby don't you leave, don't leave me stuck here in the streeeets." I chuckled lowly as she danced around the room with a crying Remi, Nani just sleeping un her rocking swing. "Come on.. how the hell does Y/nn get you to stop crying." She whined and dropped her head down.
I stepped up and slid my arms around her, my chin resting on her shoulder when she flinched slightly. "Put him on your chest and pat his butt." I whispered and she switched him from a cradling position to what I said, her hand then starting to pat.
After a few moments, his cries turned to sniffles as his little fingers clung to her shirt. "How do you do that?" She mumbled and looked at me with furrowed eyebrows. "Do you know how long I've been trying to get him to stop crying? How?"
I shrugged. "I just do what makes me fall asleep." Her head pulled back in shock at my serious expression. "What?"
"I don't.. pat your butt.." My eyes widen. "Who's patting yourself ass to sleep babe?"
"No, I meant," I covered my face as she laughed. "I meant made me fall asleep, like when I was a baby." She hummed sarcastically and looked me up and down with a teasing smirk. "My mom told me it was the only way for me to sleep."
"Right." She mumbled. "It's okay, I don't judge."
I smacked my lips and waved her off. "Get outta here with that." I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a drink from the fridge, her joining me shortly after without Remi. "Who's watching them while we're gone?"
"My mom." I nodded, watching her move to the fridge. As she did, I pulled my hoodie down and shook my hair before leaning back on the counter. "She's going back to Barbados in a few days so she wants to spend some time with them before.." when she turned, her eyes widened. "Y/n."
I snorted at her dropped jaw. "Yes?" She slowly walked toward me, her eyes squinted while scanning me completely. "Is that a good look? I can't tell." Her hand suddenly reached up and grabbed my hair before pulling it forward, making me wince. "Rob, what the hell?" I said and tried to pull back but she held me in place.
"You look sexy as fuck." She mumbled and bit her bottom lip with a smirk. "I was just checking." My head tilted when she trailed her hand down from my head, slowly down the side of my neck then stopping at my collar bone.
"Checking.." I trailed off and she gave me a knowing look before leaning forward and pushing me back against the counter. "Damn, okay top."
"Hush." She mumbled and leaned up to connect our lips. I held her hips, my mind immediately thinking about how I should've been change up my hairstyle. If I knew this was how she'd react..
I turned us around and hoisted her up on the counter, my hands gripping her thighs as she pulled me into her. "What are the risks again?" I mumbled against her lips while gripping the back of her shirt between my fingers.
"Tearing," She breathed out, her head falling to the side when I moved my lips over her neck. "Um.. infections.. another baby." Her fingers gripped my hair, a moan dripping from her lips when I dragged my tongue up her skin before pulling at her ear lobe with my teeth.
Shit, how was I suppose to stop?
"Hello?" I closed my eyes and exhaled heavily when I heard a voice in the living room. "You left the door open, hun." I stepped back and drummed my hands on Robyn's thighs when she dropped her head back with a huff.
"In here, mama M." I called out and smiled when she walked in. "I didn't even know I left the door open." I gave her a hug and she clapped with a gasp when she saw my hair. "Oh yeah, you like it?"
"I love." She mumbled and fixed it, most likely from it getting messy due to.. earlier activities. "It fits you. So perfect, I love it honey." She then turned to her daughter. "Now why are you sitting on the counter? This is where you cook."
Rob smirked and slid off. "Don't be coming in here acting like this ya house mo- I'm just playing." She said quickly with a laugh when Monica gave her a look. "I'm playing, come here." They hugged and I let them catch us as I jogged up the stairs to change into an outfit to go to the gym in.
I grabbed Rob's black Lakers dad hat.. but only because it went with my outfit! Though I know I did have to potentially switch up my team. I love Atlanta, I'd rep my city until I die but the Hawks.. man.. I don't know anymore.
Once I went back downstairs, she gave me a sarcastic look. "Oh look at that- is that a winning team I see?" I flipped her off but quickly lowered my hand when Monica looked my way. "Beat her mommy, you saw what she did."
"Mhm, I did see." I gave her an apologetic smile as she pointed at me. "Behave."
"Yes ma'am." I said before pressing a kiss to her cheek. "Do you need anything before we go? I can order food or cook you something?"
Her hand waved. "I'll be fine. You guys go, break a sweat."
I thanked her again before going to the living room to say bye to my babies. They were now in the little automatic rocking thingy again.
Honestly all they did was eat and sleep. So, basically Robyn when she was pregnant- let me stop before she can be able to read my thoughts or some shit.
I leaned down and stopped at Anani's first. "Hi princess." I said, pushing her little strands of hair back. Her hazel, green kissed eyes looked up at me as she hung onto her pacifier. "Miss Anani Fenty." I smiled and pressed a kiss to her forhead. "You are your mommy's daughter, you know that? You look just like her."
There wasn't much in response, just a blank stare and slow blinks. Hey, it was kind of like Robyn in a way huh? Especially when she was mad. See? Her mommy's daughter.
I moved over and said my bye to Remi next. "And my little man." He let the pacifier fall from his lips when I leaned down. "Try not to cry so much bro, you giving me a bad name out here."
"Okay." Rob pulled me up with a chuckle. "You're so stupid. Go warm up the car." She said, still chuckling.
I smacked my lips and said bye to Monica before going to the garage, my eyes landing on her Porsche. It was just so clean and professional looking. I grabbed the keys off of the hook and unlocked the car, then raising the garage door with the button.
"You know which one we're going to? On sunset?" I nodded and put the car into drive. "Wait." I looked over when she ran her fingers through my hair again with a smile before quickly pecking my lips. "Okay, I'm ready now."
I chuckled and pulled out of the driveway. What an adorable little shit.
-
"You kicked ass today, shawty." I said, playfully smacking Robyn's butt as we walked out of the separate studio. It was just a room in the gym that had actual sessions set up. And I could see her doing her little lunges through the window. It was the cutest thing. "Almost wanted to drop my gloves and get in there." I added with a wink.
She looked at me with a smirk. "Get in there.. or get in here." She made a motion to her pants area with a fuckboy kind of aura, even adding a wink.
"Mhm you know what I want." I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her closer as I connected our lips. We steadily walked backwards before pausing briefly when I pushed her against the wall all while never breaking contact.
I mean, needless to say both of our drives was up the wall. It's only been a week. One out of six. And I was one to follow doctors orders after all I had been through but man, this one was the hardest.
Especially since her ass always egged on my actions, then hit me with the stop.
Like now.
I sighed when she pushed me back by my chest. "Easy.." she whispered and danced her fingers across my collar bone before sliding them around my neck. "I'm not tryna get some infection in my vagina, nigga." I let out a low 'Mhm', knowing I was gonna have to go back to using my hand soon. I was blue balled as fuck.
"I know." I mumbled and pulled her into my side, my arm around her shoulder as we left the main lobby of the gym. "Riley Reid, here I come."
"Who?" She questioned and looked up at me. "Who dat?"
"A TV show." I said nonchalantly and she continued staring at me so I stopped before the door. "You don't know Riley R- seriously? The badass fighter? Wow."
"Like boxing or something?" I held in my laugh as I nodded. I mean technically she did knock niggas out with that pu- "We should watch it together."
"Oh uh.." Her head tilted so I quickly pushed the door open and walked out. "Sure but I don't think you'd like it."
I grabbed her hand and intertwined our fingers as we walked across the pavement, only a few paparazzis and stragglers. "Hey y'all." Someone said and I smiled at him with a nod. "Congrats with the babies. When can we see the little stars?"
"When I say so." Robyn answered with a straight face.
I chuckled, shrugging when he looked at me. "You heard her." Our car was a little ways down since there were no parking spots right in front of the studio but I didn't mind. Especially since they were being exceptionally chill today.
"Alright alright, I can get with it. Can we get names though?" She gave him a look before snorting and looking back forward. "Come on, not one? Y/n?"
I pulled Robyn in front of me and leaned down to shield my face, making him laugh as she shook her head. "This is my manager, speak with her."
"Manager says no. Get outta my face." She added with a smile and waved her hand.
"Rihanna?" Her head turned when a fan walked up and waved. "Hi, can I get a picture?"
"Of course, come here baby." She waved her over before motioning me to take the phone. "Take them good, Y/nn. Don't have me looking busted out here." I waved her off and took a few pictures before flipping the camera and taking some of myself. "She's taking selfies." Rob mumbled and I looked up with shocked eyes.
How.. you know what? Why do I even question these things anymore.
"You see what I deal with? All the time, nonstop playing around." She talked with the fan now but I could tell she was just messing around from the smile on her lips. "How am I suppose to take care of three babies huh? Plus babygirl Dahlia."
"Um.." the girl giggled and shrugged. "Embrace the baby-ness?"
"Exactly." I gave her a high-five. "She thinks just because she's thirty, we forgot how much of a goof she was right? We all had your Snapchat babe. Here you go." I gave the fan her phone back and grabbed Rob's hand again. "I love your phone case by the way."
"Thank you!"
We started walking again, eventually making it to the car. "Can you drive?" I asked with the keys up and she nodded, rounding the car as I slid into the passenger seat. "Aye you want Farmer Boys or something? That chicken wrap sound good." I watched her pull on her seatbelt with a frown.
"No, I want Churches." I gave her a look as we pulled away from the curb. "Or Popeyes."
"We just worked out babe. We need to replenish our carbs. Not something high in fat." She looked at me from the side of her eye. "Hey, it was you that said you wanna fit in your wedding dress, not me."
"You think I'm fat?" I kept my eyes forward, knowing if I looked over and fed into it she'd twist something else. "Helloo, am I talking to myself?"
"No," I sighed and shook my head. "You're beautifully fit babe. I'd marry you right now in front of everyone, naked if I could." I casted a look at her as that shut her up real quick, her eyes back on the road. "Now can we get some Farmer Boys or what?"
She didn't respond but I saw her making the turn. For Farmer Boys. I smiled to myself and pulled out my phone, knowing I had finally won something.
As I scrolled through Instagram, I came across a post from my second wife.
"Mhm, Icy Girl shit."
I shook my head slightly and exhaled through my nose slowly, my thumb clicking her profile as I scrolled through just to show my support you know? Support her music and.. shit..
Man I just know Quav was hitting that shit right. She was getting the little poke in the back and everything..
What the hell am I doing? I feel like a goddamn teenager again, just trying to get my dick wet.
When I glanced up, I saw we were at a red light so I looked to my left. Green eyes bored into my skull like a death ray. The whole 'target spotted' voice played in my head and everything. I cleared my throat before locking my phone and looking out of the passenger window. Shit shit shit shit shit.
My leg bounced nervously at her silence. That was probably scarier than her not saying anything.. I'd rather her yell, curse me out; anything but silence.
When I looked over, she was tapping her fingers on the steering wheel in a slow rhythmic fashion.
Hm yeah I- I done goofed huh?
I slid my hand onto her thigh and she didn't hesitate to push me off. "I'm not in the mood." She said lowly and I sighed when she kept a serious expression and started driving again once the light turned green. "Go talk to Saweetie."
"Look, I didn't even double tap." I tried to show her but she kept her eyes forward. "Babyyy." I whined and leaned over but she continued giving me the silent treatment. "I'm sorry, I won't look at her page again."
Still nothing.
See, this is how I knew I was long overdo. Why was her mad face so sexy?
I waited until we reached another stoplight before I leaned over, my hand cupping then left side of her neck as I pressed my lips just under her right side jawline. "I wanna fuck you so bad." I muttered against her skin, instantly feeling goosebumps raise as I breathed out through my nose. "Fuck." I huffed and pulled back to slouch in the seat. She didn't move for a moment until a car horn startled her to push the gas.
You don't even understand man. She had some good shit, I'm telling you. So to go from getting it whenever I want to not being able to was a struggle. Especially when she had that mad sexy look in her eye. Man..
For the rest of the ride I distracted myself by counting cars until we reached the drive-thru to the food place. My eyebrows raised when she pushed the car door open and rounded to my side. "What?" I mumbled and she waved her hand.
"Drive." My eyebrows raised but I climbed over to the drivers seat anyways, letting her take my spot.
"Hi welcome to Farmer Boys.."
We placed our order and I pulled up to the car just in front of us at the window. When I looked to my right, Robyn was just staring at me. Okay.. "You're not planning on killing or something right? Because I'm in the process of ordering a new car and I wanna get it."
She smirked and raised her hand to my hair grabbing it lightly. "Not yet." My eyebrows furrowed but I couldn't question it because it was time to get the food.
"Thank you." I grabbed the bags and drinks and handed it to her before pulling off. "You want anything else before we go home?" I asked and she shook her head, putting the bags at her feet.
"No. Roll up the windows."
I glanced at her and shook my head. "Why? The air feels good-" My words halted when she slid her hand over my thigh and gripped me through the basketball shorts I was wearing.
"I said.." Her head tilted knowingly. "Roll up the windows." I didn't hesitate this time. My finger jabbed both levers which provided the dark limo tint of the Porsche. "If you crash and kill us, I will bring your ass back and kill you myself, got it?"
I nodded silently and kept my eyes on the road. Was she about to give me.. bro.
Her hand slid the top of my shorts down, along with my briefs before pulling out my member. Just that touch felt heightened as fuck. She didn't give me much head during the pregnancy just because of how hard it was. No pun intended.
She had a beach ball for a stomach. She couldn't kneel in front of me or lay down. So.. it just didn't happen.
But damn did she make up for it.
I clenched my jaw subconsciously, fighting to keep my eyes open when her tongue licked across my tip slowly, teasing.
"I don't remember you being this big, soft." She whispered and the way her breath ticked my skin made goosebumps rise in my arms. A hum left her lips, her fingers wrapping around me when she started bobbing her head up and down as I grew hard against her tongue.
"Fuck babe," I mumbled and licked my lips before taking my right hand off of the wheel to pull her hair back. Her left hand then raised up and I saw the hair tie on her wrist so I looked up, my eyes on the road as I took both hands off of the wheel to quickly put her hair back.
As I grabbed the wheel, I didn't realize how hard it was to pay attention until now. Her tongue stuck out with her head lowering until my tip brushed against the back of her throat, all while her fingers trailed down and grazed over my.. my boys.
I closed my eyes for a brief second as I took in a slow breath through my teeth. Shit.. she ain't never did that before.
I pushed my eyes back open, thankful when I saw a light turn red anyways. I lowered my hand to grab her ponytail while she kept up her slow movements. But the slower she went, the faster it seemed to build me up. The irony.
"Look at me." I mumbled and she raised her eyes, her lips wrapping around my tip with a glossy, dark look in her eyes. I shook my head softly. "Mm," I hummed, licking across my top lick. "You look so sexy right now, baby." I saw the corners of her lips twitch up before she lowered her head again and started sucking me like she was trying to take my soul with her.
And she just might because goddamn.
The light turned green and I was forced to keep driving. But she was getting into it like I wasn't driving. Her hand cranked the base of my member while massaging the top with her tongue.
I was trying to last until we got home but you know what..
I bit down on my bottom lip and gripped the steering wheel, my eyes squinting to refrain from closing. "Don't stop." Is all I said and she hummed, sending a vibration through me. Knowing I was close, she started to deep throat me until she gagged, which was most definitely on purpose. I knew because she knew I liked when she gagged.
She then slowly raised her head to the head again, let spit leave her lips and slide down the side of my dick, then lowering her head and slurping it back up. Annnd that's all folks.
I groaned and felt my stomach tighten, my climax tripling in seconds as the wind damn near left my body. And she took every drop, swallowing it with grace.
Another red light. I looked down when she pressed her lips to my tip, almost like a kiss. Then her fingers gently tucked me back into my shorts before she sat up and grabbed her drink from the cup holder to take a sip; all nonchalant and shit. Meanwhile, I was still over here.. in love and..
"Lights green." She said, a half smirk on her lips when she looked over at me. "Babe," she laughed when I quickly leaned over and cupped her face, my lips pressing her hers. I heard cars honking behind me but I kept kissing her until she pushed me back. "Drive."
"Okay okay." I pressed on the gas and started down the road again, almost feeling lighter in my seat. I swear I could float right now.
Once we reached the house, I quickly got out before her and opened her door. You couldn't blame that on me getting head though, I was always chivalrous. But when she climbed out I grabbed the bag of food and slid behind her, my arms circling her waist. "I love you." I whispered in her ear and she leaned back against my hold with her head on my shoulder as we walked-slash-waddled to the house.
"You always get soft after you nut." I rolled my eyes when she giggled to herself. "No pun intended." Yet I was the immature one? Right. "I hope we always stay us." She mumbled and I hummed, stopping before we reached the door as she turned in my hold. "I mean.. we've always been easy with each other. Even when hard shit got in the way, us never changed."
I nodded in understanding. "You getting worried?" She shrugged softly, her eyes looking conflicted.
"I wouldn't say worried but I'm just thinking." She sighed and laid on my chest. "I know the future is never perfect. And everything feels so perfect right now, almost too perfect."
What a turn of events huh?
This was almost like when we first got together. How she didn't trust her own happiness and ruined it herself; the self sabotage.
Somehow I had a feeling it would come back in a way. Not as terrible as before but stuff like that typically doesn't just fade completely and forever. So I wasn't gonna freak out or think she didn't want this anymore.
Because I was a bit nervous too.
"Listen," I kept my right arm around her but used my left to lift her head up to look at me. "I know we both don't have the best views of marriage, especially since both of our parents marriages ended badly." She nodded softly. "And look you're right, the future isn't perfect nor is it certain so.." I sighed when her eyebrows furrowed. "I can promise you that I'm gonna love you until I'm laid to rest. Hopefully with you still being mine but if not.."
"What are you saying?" She asked softly, her tone not defensive but curious. "You don't think we'll last?"
"Oh I do, and I'm praying we do but life is crazy, life moves on it's own sometimes, you know?" She nodded as I cupped the side of her face. "And I don't want to even think about the possibility of you not being mine because it hurts. Even as I'm holding you in my arms." Her hands pressed against my back and slowly moved up and down in a soothing manner when I smiled weakly.
"But to truly appreciate a rose, you also have to remember that the pedals fall.. and winters come." Her eyebrows relaxed when I softly brushed my thumb over them. "And you're my rose, Robyn. I'm gonna fight winter as hard as I can but I know it can fight back so just promise me now, and I'll fight for our forever."
She exhaled slowly and nodded before laying her head back on my chest. "Your words give me butterflies." She mumbled against my shirt and I smiled before pressing a kiss to her forehead. "I promise I'll fight for our forever too. And I can promise you now." I pulled her closer to me and closed my eyes as we just hugged one another in the dead of the night on our porch. "Did you take a poetry class in college or something?"
I chuckled and shook my head. "No, you just bring it out of me." I pulled back and gave her a warm smile. "You good? Need anymore reassurance 'cause I probably got a book of romantic shit just locked up here." I said while tapping my head and she pushed me back by my stomach with a chuckle. "Maya Ange-who? It's Y/n bitch."
"Shut up." She laughed out and turned to open the front door before pausing for the moment. Her chuckles subsided, silence engulfing us again as she leaned her head on the door. "Promise me one more thing." I nodded once when she turned and reached out to rest her hand on my chest. "If one day.." A frown pulled at her lips. "If one day we do reach winter, and you can't fight anymore, throw one more punch for me?"
I nodded and grabbed her hand. "I promise." The frown turned to a smile as she leaned forward and gave me a soft kiss. "You stuck with me though, you know that right?" I smacked her ass, smirking when she jumped and pushed me back before turning to unlock the door. "I can't wait for them six weeks to be up man."
"What's in six weeks?" I looked at Monica as she stood on the other side, her eyebrows raised when I cleared my throat. I panicked.
"My birthday." I spat out, not good under pressure at all. Rob bursted out laughing as I dropped my head with a huff.
Apparently the 'college teaches you how to lie' shit passed me because goddamn..
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Hope you guys enjoyed tho. Aren't they just so.. cuuuute.