Katie's POV
I couldn't believe it.
This has to be a dream because I was sure that I wasn't stupid enough to let this happen as well as not pick up on it myself. God how stupid can I be?!
Sadly my theory of this being a dream was proven to be false as I didn't pay attention to what I was doing and fell off the couch and onto my butt.
I let out a loud sob at the contact and whimpered straight after as my head rang from the sounds of my crying.
"Sweetheart? Are you still there?" I just managed to hear my mothers desperate words through the phone that I had dropped in the initial shock.
I scrambled to pick it up before carefully placing it to my ear.
"Y-you don't know that for sure! It could be something else!" I didn't mean for my words to be so harsh and bitter but there was no way I wanted to believe the idea of me being pregnant!
There hasn't ever been a point in my life where I wanted children or was clucky over little babies. Truthfully I had a strong dislike for little kids.
They always smelt bad and cried whenever I held them.
"Sorry sweetheart but that's all the signs."
I cried harder at her words as I felt all the happiness inside me crumble, piece by piece.
"It's okay we'll get through this together." My mother tried to soothe me with the sweetest tone to her voice but it just made me more upset.
She must be so disappointed in me.
"I don't want this." I choked out as I tried to explain how I absolutely did not want to become a mother.
I can't imagine I would be any good at it either.
"You're not going to be alone through this. You have me and your father and Liam." I soaked in her words before realizing she had missed one persons name on that list and I hadn't even thought about him once since I was told.
"Oh my god! Calum! Mum I have to tell Calum!" I gasped and stood up too fast making me fall back onto the couch and groan in pain.
"Oh sweetheart." She whispered in a sad tone. Almost like she knew something that I didn't.
"What? He is the father after all and my boyfriend so I have to tell him."
She was quiet, almost too quiet for a minute before she sighed again.
"I think you should hold off from talking to Calum about this for now, and maybe don't tell your brother either. You know how protective he can get over you."
I didn't understand why she didn't want me to tell either of them about this but she seemed to know what she was talking about and I'm a freaking hot mess so I'll take her word for it.
"Okay." I whispered and did my best to calm down my breathing.
"I'll talk to your dad sweetheart, you can both get the next flight back to London and we'll go from there okay?"
"Yeah." I replied flatly and said a quick goodbye before picking up my handbag and trying my best to sneak out of the arena without being seen by anyone, which didn't work out very well.
"Where are you going baby?" Calum asked as he appeared in front of me with a bottle of water in one hand and two pills in the other.
"Oh um I was just going back to the hotel to lay down." I lied through my teeth and cringed with how horrible I felt for lying to him.
He looked at me sadly and tucked the pills into his pocket before walking closer to me.
"Is everything okay? You're acting really weird today." He pulled me in for another hug and I did my best to hide my pain.
"I'm fine." I choked out and did my best to stop my voice from shaking. He looked down at me worried and I hugged him closer so he couldn't see my face.
"I'll talk to you later." I whispered before leaning up and placing a long passionate kiss on his lips.
He let out a shaky breath once I pulled away and without another word I walked out of the arena and covered my face with my hand bag so I could find myself a taxi with anyone noticing me.
The whole car ride I did my best to hold in my tears but I just couldn't.
I hate myself so much right now.
One day I wanted to be just as famous and accomplished as my brother but now the only kind of famous I'm going to be is the little sister of One Direction who got knocked up by 5 seconds of summer then appeared on the next season of teen mom by herself.
I'm going to turn out to be a depressed ugly C-list celebrity.
"Are you alright there Miss?" The taxi driver asked me knocking me from the black hole I call my thoughts and future.
"Uh Not really. Had some bad news today."
It was true, I was neither physically or emotionally alright at the moment.
"Cheer up Miss, You're Katie Payne! Frankly your music is pretty amazing and you're a very pretty young girl." I blinked and smiled at the man who was looking worryingly at me through the review mirror.
"You know who I am?" I asked slightly shocked that a middle aged man knew my music.
"My daughter loves you, and I do too." He laughed quietly and I thanked him as I felt my self esteem grow a fraction.
Maybe I was thinking of the worst case scenario before, There's no way I could fall as low as a C-list celebrity.
Right?
"Here you are Miss Payne." The taxi driver, whose name I found out to be Frank, parked at the back of our hotel like I had asked him to when I first got into the taxi.
"Oh thank you." I mumbled as I wiped away the last of tears and pulled my wallet out.
"It's on me, you look like you've had a rough day."
I smiled un-easily at him as I hopped out.
I fumbled in my bag until I found a spare piece of paper and quickly autographed it for him.
"For you're daughter." I stated simply and he smiled widely before driving off.
Afterwards I went straight up to the hotel room that my dad was sharing with Liam. Thankfully none of the boys were here right now so I could face whatever was about to happen on my own.
When I opened his hotel door, the first thing I saw was my fathers back facing me as he talked on the phone. I have a very strong feeling that he's talking with mum right now.
Before I even had the chance to consider running, he hung up and sighed before turning around.
When his eyes locked with mine, he sent me a sad smile and softened his features.
"I'm so sorry daddy." I sobbed as I looked down at the floor in shame.
"Oh come here sweetheart." He whispered as he held his arms open for me. I ran straight into them and sobbed as he held me tight.
"A-aren't you mad at me?" I dared to ask after a few minutes of silence and he sighed.
"This isn't your fault. Teenage boys are horny idiots."
I laughed slightly and he placed his hands on both my cheeks to make me look up at him. He gently wiped my dried tears away and rubbed my flat stomach.
"I honestly thought I would have to wait for Liam to have children. You never seemed like the type of person to want kids."
"I don't." I snorted and he looked at me sadly.
"Are you going to get rid of the baby?" I swallowed the lump in my throat and answered truthfully.
"No. I'm not that cruel."
He nodded in understanding and checked his phone that had just gone off as I quickly walked to my room to pack up my suitcase.
I need to get out of here. Mum will know what to do and truthfully I've had enough of the loud shows and all the stress on this tour.
My dad poked his head through my hotel door and helped me finish packing.
"The boys don't have time to come back to the hotel before the show so we should leave now."
I nodded but deep down I felt guilty.
Just leaving without explaining why but I have to do this. I can't rely on these boys forever, and most definitely not for something like this.
"Okay I'm ready." I sighed and dad grabbed his bag too.
"I got us a last minute flight. We'll be back in London by tomorrow morning."
Without answering, I swung the door open fast and stopped in my tracks when I came face to face with Calum.
"C-Calum? What are you doing here, I thought you didn't have time to leave the arena?" I stuttered and his eyes left mine and travelled down to my bag that was on the floor next to me.
"I came to check on you. You've had me worried all day and now your bags are packed? What's going on?" He asked quietly and crossed his arms in an angered way.
"I um I'm going back to London with my dad." My voice came out just above a whisper but I knew he heard as his eyebrows shot up in surprise.
"Your leaving? And you weren't even going to say goodbye?!"
I looked down and fiddled with fingers as I tried my best not to let my emotions and word vomit get the best of me.
Mum said not to tell him.
But then again he is my boyfriend... and I guess you could call him my baby daddy now too.
"Sweetheart, talk to your boyfriend. At least say goodbye."
I gulped as I watched my dad disappear towards the elevator before I turned back to Calum.
"What's wrong? What's so bad that you're leaving?" He asked as he stepped forward and gripped my hands.
"I can't tell you." I replied instantly, still replaying my mothers words in my head.
He frowned and bent down to connect our lips. "Please tell me what's wrong baby." He whispered against my lips and I whimpered feeling like I was about to give in at any moment.
"It's uh... It's a family thing." I lied and he shook his head.
"Then why isn't Liam going?"
"Fine! It's a me and my parents thing." I groaned making him frown.
"Please baby?" He whispered one last time while brushing the hair out of my eyes.
My bottom quivered as all the news I had today replayed in my head.
"I'm pregnant." I blurted out before I had realized what I was saying.
My hand instantly flew up to my mouth as his eyebrows shot up. I quickly turned away and walked over to my dad who was waiting by the elevator.
I knew all hell was about to break lose but it just felt right to tell him.
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A/N - It's been a year since I started this fanfic! And I finally made myself a twitter so go and follow me at kass_april
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