WARNING: IS ABOUT A PRETTY GRAPHIC MISCARRIAGE, TALKS ABOUT BLOOD A LOT
Harry and Camryn's Age: 18
Liam and Niall's Age: 19
Louis' Age: 20
Darcy: 18 months
What Darcy's wearing
Camryn is standing in a pool of blood right in front of the toilet. She couldn't make it. The blood was pooling down her leg. She sits down on the toilet in tears as her shaky hands dial Harry's phone. Her hands feel clammy and she feels like if she opens her mouth she'll be sick.
Harry: Hi bug!
Camryn chokes on a sob.
Camryn: Harry, I- I. Something happened. You need to come home.
Harry: Baby what do you mean? What happened?
Camryn: I- I don't know. I was with Darcy in her room and I felt a gush of something. There's so much blood.
Harry: A gush of blood? Yours or Darcy's?
Camryn: Mine. Mine.
Harry: Ok love I am coming home right now. I'm only five minutes away. I'm leaving the studio right now. Stay calm. Do you want me to stay on the line?
Camryn: I don't know. I need to get cleaned up. I need to go back to Darcy. The baby Harry. What if it's the baby? Do you think it's okay?
Harry: Bug, don't move, okay? I'll get you cleaned up when I get home. I don't want you to move, okay? Darcy is okay. She's probably just playing with her toys.
Camryn: The baby, Harry! What if something's wrong with the baby.
Harry pauses before he replies. He purposely avoided the question when Camryn first brought it up.
Harry: Don't worry, buggy. We'll get this figured out. We're alright. You're alright.
7 minutes later
Harry opens the front door to an eerie silence. He shuts it quickly and hears tiny footsteps tapping against the hardwood floor in a run.
"Dada!"Darcy exclaims running towards Harry. Her brown curls are tied up in two pigtails with light pink bows and her denim dress is flowing behind her.
"Hi baby girl,"Harry greets reaching down to pick her up, "I love you. Where's mummy? Do you know?"
Darcy giggles as Harry gives her a kiss on the cheek, "potty."
"Okay, should we watch a show?"Harry asks bringing Darcy over to the couch and rushing to put a show on, anxious to help Camryn.
"Pwincess!"Darcy exclaims putting her pacifier in her mouth.
"Princess? How about Princess Belle?"Harry asks clicking on Beauty and the Beast. He runs upstairs taking two at a time and immediately going to the bathroom.
"Sweetheart?"Harry asks opening the door. His eyes land on Camryn who's sitting on the floor in a puddle of blood. Her jeans are soaked red and pushed down below her knees and there's soiled toilet paper all over the floor from her unsuccessful attempts to clean up the mess. Her eyes are red and swollen from crying. Upon seeing Harry she bursts into tears again.
"Hi, buggy, okay. We're okay,"Harry greets taking in the scene before him and beginning to bend down to comfort Camryn.
"Harry,"Camryn sobs holding up her hand. In her hand is the tiny body of baby, no bigger than a peach.
His voice is caught in his throat as his knees begin to feel weak. The wind has been knocked out of him and he can't process anything.
"Oh, love,"Harry says with tears beginning to uncontrollably fall along with Camryn's.
Harry squats down next to Camryn and surrounds her in a hug. Her hands that are dried with blood go into his hair as she sobs into his shoulder. Harry cries onto the top of Camryn's head.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry,"Camryn sobs, "this is my fault."
"No baby. No. This is not your fault. At all. It's not. Do not ever say that again, okay?"Harry replies tearfully cupping Camryn's face in his hands as she begins to speak looking at him.
"It just came out. A couple of minutes ago. I felt like I had to push. I shouldn't have pushed. I could've kept it in there,"Camryn sobs, "it was like when I had Darcy. My body like pushed for me. It hurt so much."
"Love, you listened to your body. You had to push. It's okay. Nothing you did could've changed this. This is not your fault,"Harry chokes out through his tears.
After another three minutes of crying Harry finally speaks again over Camryn's sobs. "We need to go to the hospital, okay? Lets get you cleaned up,"Harry says kissing Camryn's cheek and standing up, "don't move. I'll go get a change of clothes for you."
Harry grabs a towel off the rack and puts it under the faucet quickly washing the blood off of his feet. He runs into their bedroom and grabs Camryn a pair of black sweats a new pair of underwear and a big sweatshirt of his. While he's in there he takes the time to call Liam.
Liam: Hello mate! How are you?
Harry's throat is caught again. He can't get the words out.
Harry: Liam, I need you to watch Darcy. Camryn needs to go to the hospital.
Liam jumps off of his couch and quickly stumbles around while putting on his shoes: I'm on my way right now. Is Camryn okay?
Harry: she- she-
Harry can't seem to get the words out and begins to cry more.
Liam: Harry calm down. You're scaring me, what's wrong with Camryn? Mate calm down, breathe.
Harry: she miscarried the baby.
Liam stops in his tracks on the way to his car: oh mate. Oh my- Harry I'm so sorry. I'm on my way right now. I'll be there in ten minutes.
Harry: thank you.
Liam: of course mate. I love you.
Harry: love you too.
Harry rushes down the hall towards the bathroom and can't help but hear Darcy's little voice singing along to the movie. His heart aches and the wind is knocked out of him again. He slowly gathers himself again and prepares himself to see Camryn.
"Hey ba-"he catches himself before he says the word and quickly chooses a different word, "sweetheart. I've got some clothes for you."
Harry helps lift Camryn up onto the toilet and takes off her jeans completely, throwing them into the bathtub. He grabs a towel and wets it before using it to wash the blood off of Camryn's legs.
"I can do that,"Camryn sniffles wiping some tears. A useless act because more fall without her permission.
"I don't mind,"Harry replies shaking his head when Camryn reaches for the towel, "Let me take care of you."
Harry raises the towel to begin wiping Camryn's privates. The touch makes Camryn flinch, surprised at how sore and how much it hurts. Harry flinches too, quickly removing the towel.
"I'm sorry, love,"Harry says.
"It's okay. I'm sorry. It's just sore. I'm sorry,"Camryn explains looking down at the baby in her hands.
Harry's eyes follow Camryn's down to the baby. He had been purposely looking down to avoid seeing the baby in Camryn's hands.
"So little,"Harry whispers placing a finger delicately on the top of the baby's head.
Camryn smiles sadly as more tears fall.
Harry continues to wash Camryn until the blood is gone. He then washes the floor.
"Can you stand, love?"Harry asks with Camryn's fresh underwear in his hands.
Camryn nods, "Can you help me?"
"Of course,"Harry says helping lift Camryn from the toilet onto her feet.
"You're gonna need both hands to hold onto me while we get you dressed,"Harry explains, "so what about we put the baby into a nice warm towel?" Camryn nods her head looking down at the baby as Harry delicately takes it from Camryn's hands and gently places it into a clean towel.
Harry opens the cabinet to grab a menstrual pad to put in Camryn's underwear incase she bleeds more. Camryn places her hands on Harry's shoulders as he kneels to put Camryn's fresh underwear and sweats on. Harry stands up and grabs the bottom of Camryn's shirt to lift it up and over her head. He catches a glimpse of Camryn's stomach. She had just begun to show a bit and now the skin is just loose around her lower stomach.
"Oh,"Camryn whispers gently touching the loose skin and beginning to cry again.
"Hey, hey,"Harry whispers putting his arms around Camryn's shoulders as she crumbles into him.
"It's not fair,"Camryn cries in agony. Harry rests his cheek on top of Camryn's head.
"You're right, love. It's not. It's not fair at all. I'm so sorry this happened,"Harry sympathizes squeezing Camryn's shoulders tighter.
Liam approaches the door and raises his hand to knock, but thinks better of it. They're too busy to open the door right now most likely. His hand goes on the handle hoping that Harry thought to keep it unlocked. He did. Liam pushes the door open and looks over to the living room to see Darcy jump up on the couch and look at Liam questioningly, confused about why he's here.
"Miam!"Darcy squeals still having a rough time pronouncing her "L"s most of the time.
"Hi little miss, how are we today,"Liam smiles going over to Darcy to pick her up and spin her around in his arms. She giggles and grips onto Liam as she points to the show.
"Pwincess!"Darcy smiles.
"Princess Belle!"Liam exclaims starting to sing "Beauty and the Beast" as he slow dances with Darcy in his arms, twirling around.
"Hey guess what?"Liam inquires of Darcy as he brings his nose to hers.
"What?"Darcy giggles showing her toothy grin.
"You're my favorite princess,"Liam smiles as he leans in to repeatedly kiss Darcy's neck making her squeal and giggle as it begins to tickle.
*******
"Who's that?"Camryn asks hearing all of the noise from downstairs.
"Liam. I asked him to come and watch Darcy," Harry responds delicately lifting the baby wrapped in the towel from the counter into Camryn's arms.
"Harry?"Camryn asks looking at Harry with tears welling up in her eyes again, "can you- can you make sure I don't see Darcy on the way out? I don't want her to see me like this. She can't see me like this. She's too little."
"Of course, sweetheart,"Harry nods in agreement reaching his hands up to cradle Camryn's cheeks, "I'll tell Liam to make sure she doesn't see. Of course."
"Does that make me a terrible mom, Harry?"Camryn asks starting to cry again, "that I don't want to see her."
"Camryn Renee, I don't ever want to hear you say that again, okay?"Harry says using his hand to lift Camryn's chin so she's looking at him, "you are the best mom I've ever known. Darcy adores you. You're being selfless. I know you want to see Darcy right now, but you're not gonna allow yourself because you don't want to scare her. That's what makes you an amazing mom." Camryn nods her head and gratefully accepts Harry's lips coming toward hers.
"I'm going to set you on the bed, and then I'm going to go downstairs and see Liam and tell him where all of Darcy's things are, okay? And then we'll go to the hospital and get you taken care of,"Harry explains to Camryn.
Camryn nods as Harry carefully picks her up and walks down the hall to their bedroom. From downstairs they can both hear Liam and Darcy singing along with Belle's voice and Darcy giggling.
Camryn gives a slight smile, "she's okay?"
Harry looks down at Camryn in his arms and returns a little smile, "Darcy's perfectly fine, love. She was very happy when I came home. She's very happy." Camryn nods relieved.
Harry lightly lays Camryn on the bed on her side. The baby is placed on her arm and laying on the bed next to her.
"You're okay here while I go talk to Liam?"Harry asks.
Camryn nods not taking her eyes off of the baby as her finger gently grazes it's little cheek.
Harry rushes downstairs and walks into the living room to see Darcy in Liam's arms in front of the television with her eyes glued to it giving a loud rawr when the beast appears on the screen. Liam turns his head when he hears footsteps.
"Hey mate,"Liam greets putting Darcy down who is too enthralled by the movie to be fazed by her daddy's presence.
Liam walks over to Harry and immediately puts his arms around him. Harry crumbles and begins to silently cry into Liam's shoulder. He's careful to not make any noises so he doesn't scare Darcy. Liam hugs Harry tighter as his shoulders shake.
"I'm so sorry mate,"Liam whispers, "so sorry."
They stay like that for about a minute until Harry pulls himself together and pulls away from Liam. He looks at Liam with his eyes swollen and red and his cheeks still wet.
"Alright Darcy's pajamas are upstairs in her room, but I'm sure we'll be home by bedtime. She normally goes to sleep at 7:30 or 8ish. She can eat whatever she wants for dinner. I'm sure she'll request chicken nuggets. She usually eats about four. Ummm what am I forgetting?"Harry runs his fingers through his hair and takes a deep shaky breath, "She can watch as many shows as she wants, that's really the least of my worries right now."
Liam nods, "don't worry mate. I've got it all taken care of. You just watch after Cami. I've got it."
"Okay okay, yeah, right, okay,"Harry rambles nervously bouncing up and down, "oh also, can you keep Darcy distracted when I bring Camryn down? Camryn doesn't want Darcy to see her like this."
"Oh of course, no problem at all,"Liam agrees.
"Okay, I think that's it. You can always ring if you have a question. She should be good though. She's a good girl,"Harry allows himself to smile looking over at Darcy who's dancing around to Belle singing.
Harry walks over to Darcy and picks her up, "Hey, love."
"Daddy! Belle!"Darcy exclaims pointing to the television.
"I know! Princess Belle, hey girlfriend can you look at me for a second,"Harry asks Darcy as her big blue eyes meet his green ones. His heart aches as he looks into the same blue eyes that Camryn has. These ones are so much more innocent. So much less hurt in these ones than in the ones he was looking into just a few minutes ago. "Mummy and I are going bye bye for a couple of hours, okay? You're gonna play with Uncle Liam and have so much fun okay?"
"Okay,"Darcy agrees bringing her little hands to Harry's scruffy cheeks looking into his red eyes, "cry?"
"No baby, don't worry. No cry. Daddy's okay. No cry. Happy, right? We gotta be happy,"Harry tries to smile as he kisses Darcy's little lips.
"Happwie,"Darcy agrees brushing her nose to his.
"You be a good girl for Uncle Liam, yes?"Harry says with his lips against Darcy's cheek. He just wants to feel her close. Wants to hold her forever and never let go. Wants to forever smell the baby shampoo and fruit snack scent that she carries. Constantly have his lips against her blushed and squishy cheeks.
"Yesss,"Darcy agrees with a lisp smiling at Harry and hugging him with her arms around his neck and her cheek pressed against his. She senses Harry's hurt, she doesn't understand it, but she knows somethings wrong.
"Okay, bye bye baby,"Harry's heart lurches as the word falls out of his mouth and Liam notices how Harry's eyes squeeze shut in a cringe for a second. He takes in a deep breath and proceeds, "I love you so much."
"Wove you!"Darcy returns giving him a big slobbery kiss. Harry hands Darcy to Liam as Liam quickly hugs him one more time. He rushes upstairs and into the bedroom. Camryn hasn't moved at inch.
"Okay, lovely, everything's taken care of, you ready to go?"Harry asks leaning down to rub Camryn's arm. She nods as Harry carefully scoops her up into his arms. He slowly walks down the stairs and heads straight to the door.
Liam steals a quick glance and makes eye contact with Harry. He sees Camryn's frail body in Harry's arms. Her blonde hair laying crazily on his chest and a towel swaddled in her hands. A towel? Why is it swaddled? Oh. His heart drops. He focuses again on Darcy making sure she doesn't turn around and see her parents. He tries to keep his stomach from turning at the thought of what's swaddled in the towel.
Harry carefully sets Camryn down in the passenger seat and leans over her to buckle her in. He silently gets in the car and starts to make his way to the hospital. While on the freeway he hears tiny sniffles and looks over to see Camryn crying again.
"Hey bug,"he reaches over to grab Camryn's hand, "what's wrong? Talk to me, please. I want to help you." Camryn just continues to cry with her shoulders beginning to shake.
"Camryn, talk to me please,"Harry begs panicked thinking that somethings happening, "are you hurting?"
"No no,"Camryn sniffles. She takes a deep breath. "They're gonna take it away."
Harry looks over at Camryn confused, "they're gonna take what away?"
"That baby, Harry, they're gonna take it away,"Camryn begins to violently sobs clutching the baby in her arms.
"Hey hey love,"Harry uses his free hand that Camryn let go of to brush it down her hair, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." It's the only thing he knows how to say at the moment. No other words come to him.
The rest of the car ride is silent again except for Camryn's cries which eventually just turn into sniffles. Harry pulls into a parking space in front of the hospital and quickly goes to the passenger side.
"C'mere baby,"Harry whispers picking Camryn up and walking her towards the hospital.
"Styles,"Harry says before the midwife can even ask for their last name.
"Right. Follow me, loves,"the midwife nods already having been informed of the situation when Harry called a while ago. She leads them into a room and Harry gently places Camryn on the bed. Camryn whimpers and keeps her arms around Harry so he has to remain close to her, "don't leave."
"Honey, I'm not leaving. I'm staying right here,"Harry promises kissing Camryn and pulling up a stool to sit beside her with his hand in her's.
The midwife goes around to Camryn's other arm, "alright sweetheart I'm just gonna put a quick iv in you."
Camryn turns her head towards Harry and looks at him.
"I love you,"Harry whispers bringing his face closer to Camryn so that their noses are brushing.
"Okay, sweetie it's all done. The doctor should be in shortly,"the midwife informs them with a gentle squeeze of Camryn's knee.
"Thanks,"Harry nods his head.
5 minutes later
"Camryn?"the doctor asks walking in with a clipboard.
Camryn nods her head and squeezes Harry's hand harder.
"I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Truly,"the doctor says sitting at the edge of Camryn's bed. "Is this the little love?" The doctor motions towards the swaddle in Camryn's arms.
Camryn nods her head silently.
"Okay. So although the baby has been delivered I'd still like to go inside and make sure everything has come out and there is nothing left in your uterus that could cause an infection,"the doctor explains, "It's a fairly easy procedure, and you'd be under anesthesia the whole time."
"Can Harry come?"Camryn asks in a feeble voice.
"Unfortunately no, since you're under anesthesia no one is allowed in the room. But we will bring you back here to be with him when you wake up,"the doctor answers.
"Okay,"Harry nods as he watches Camryn get more scared and fight back tears.
"I hate to have to do this, but I'm gonna have to ask you to say goodbye to this little babe now,"the doctor solemnly informs them.
Camryn lets the tears fall and begins to sob again.
"I'll give you two a minute,"the doctor says exiting the room.
"They're taking the baby Harry! It's my baby. They're taking my baby away,"Camryn loudly sobs, "I want my baby. It's my baby!"
"I know, love. I know. I'm so sorry,"Harry cries too embracing his wife as she completely crumbles into him clutching the baby for dear life, "I'm so sorry, Camryn."
He feels sick. His stomach turns like he's about to puke. Feeling Camryn collapse into his arms in complete despair makes him want to crumble onto the floor and never get up. This is all too much.
"It's my baby, my baby,"Camryn sobs covering Harry's shirt in snot and tears.
"It is your baby, love. It will always be your baby. That's not changing. Whether it's in our arms or our heart. It's still our baby, love,"Harry whispers combing Camryn's hair down with his palm, her face still crushed against his chest.
Camryn begins to quiet down at Harry's words still crying softly and gripping Harry's back.
The doctor silently comes in. Harry looks over at him and nods. The doctor makes his way over to Camryn and Harry bends down so that they're looking each other in the eyes.
"Love, its time to give the baby to the doctor. I know this sucks. It's the worst. But it's time. It will be okay,"Harry promises cradling Camryn's wet cheeks in his hands.
"No, no"Camryn mouths, not being able to use her voice at the moment. Her eyes beg with Harry. His heart shatters looking into her eyes and knowing how much hurt those eyes are seeing right now.
"Give it a kiss, love,"Harry whispers looking at the baby.
Camryn leans down and kisses the baby's forehead lightly. Harry does the same and then takes the baby from Camryn and hands it to the doctor.
"A nurse will be in shortly to get you ready,"the doctor says squeezing Camryn's shoulder.
Camryn looks over at Harry, unable to speak, as soon as the doctor leaves with tears about to spill from her eyes again. "I know, babe. I know,"Harry sympathizes nodding his head and reaching for Camryn to hug her again. "Is there enough room for two?"
Camryn nods her head and scoots over on the bed a bit to create a little space for Harry. He climbs in next to her and her head falls onto his chest with her legs cuddled to her chest in the fetal position. She's trying to make herself as small as possible. The smaller you are the less hurt can fit inside of you, right? Her hands go around Harry's waist and his hands encircle Camryn's head rubbing her cheek with his thumb.
"I want to go home,"Camryn whispers.
"I know love, I do too. We'll be home in a bit,"Harry promises wiping her tears away with his thumbs.
"Darcy! I have to nurse Darcy! She can't go to sleep without me,"Camryn suddenly remembers trying to distract herself.
"Don't worry, love, we should be home by bedtime. Don't worry,"Harry comforts Camryn's panicked thoughts.
"She can't go to sleep without nursing, though. What if I'm not home? She's gonna be so scared without me. Harry-"
"Buggy, she's fine. Don't worry about Darce. Trust me, she's our stubborn girl. She won't let Liam put her to sleep if she doesn't want to. She'd wait up all night for you, if she had to,"Harry smiles a bit at the thought of his daughter.
"Okay, you're right,"Camryn nods into his chest, "can you- can you talk some more about Darcy. I want to think about her. She helps me,"Camryn whispers the last part.
Harry knows exactly what Camryn means because he thinks the same thing. Darcy is their safe place. She makes every situation happier, even the unthinkable like right now. Just the thought of Darcy takes away some of the anxiety and grief that they are both holding so deeply right now.
"Okay, ummm,"Harry puts his chin on top of Camryn's head as he thinks about Darcy, "well when I came down to talk to Liam they were dancing around in front of the television and she was laughing so much. That little cute high pitched giggle she does. And her pig tails were bouncing up and down. I love when you do her hair like that." Harry allows himself to ramble on and on. Both of them are grateful for the distraction and to be able to think about your little girl.
"Keep going,"Camryn encourages when Harry stops talking for a bit.
"Then she gave me the most slobbery kiss ever when we were saying goodbye. Like this,"Harry tilts his head down to Camryn's and gives her a slobbery kiss on the lips. Camryn giggles a bit through her tears. "You guys have the same giggle,"Harry smiles down at Camryn, "don't you just love how she says 'pwincess'? I know it's selfish, but I never want her to learn how to pronounce it correctly. I can't wait to get home and cuddle her."
"Me too,"Camryn agrees nuzzling herself in more to Harry.
The door clicks open and a nurse walks in. "Hi, I'm nurse Campbell. I'm here to transfer you into the examination room,"the nurse smiles a warm smile.
"Alright baby, I've got to go now but I'll be right here when you wake up, okay?"Harry promises kissing Camryn.
"I don't want you to leave,"Camryn looks up at him like a little fragile child with tears welling up in her eyes.
"I know, babe. I know. But I'll be right here when you wake up. It will be so fast and everything will be okay,"Harry promises wiping Camryn's tears, "and then we can go home and see Darcy. And you can give her a snuggle."
Camryn nods her head still panicked.
"You're okay, sweetie. You're okay,"Harry promises as he kisses her forehead, "I love you so much."
"I love you more,"Camryn sniffles.
"Not possible,"Harry smirks as he kisses her one more time.
The nurses wheel Camryn's bed out of the room and the door clicks shut. As soon as it does Harry crumbles into a heap on the floor sobbing. He sits with his back against the wall and his face in his hands. After two minutes there's a knock on the door and Harry attempts to wipe the tears off of his face and make himself more presentable.
"Mr. Styles, I'm sorry to bother you, but I just wanted to tell you that there are two people at the front desk who wanted me to let you know that they're here,"the nurse says still holding onto the door.
"Oh really?"Harry asks confused about who it would be, "do you know their names?"
"Yeah,"she replies looking down at the clipboard, "Louis Tomlinson and Niall Horan."
Harry nods, "you can let them in."
The nurse nods and leaves the room. As soon as she's gone Harry begins to cry again. The door clicks open and Harry looks up to see Louis walking in. Harry tries to smile, but he fails and instead cries more. Louis kneels down in front of Harry and hugs him as Niall follows behind and hugs Harry from the side forming a group hug.
"We gotcha mate,"Louis whispers as Harry continues to cry.
"I'm so sorry, mate,"Niall whispers after Louis.
They stay like that for a couple more minutes until Harry sits back and looks at them and wipes his eyes with Camryn's beanie that he's clutching.
"Quite a pathetic sight,"Harry tries to joke.
The boys crack a smile and Louis puts his hand on Harry's shoulder.
"How'd you find out,"Harry asks.
"Liam called. He didn't want you to be alone when they took Cami away,"Niall says.
"Is there anyone you need us to call?"Louis asks.
"No, I'll call my mum in a bit,"Harry sniffles.
Louis and Niall nod their heads. Niall sits next to Harry on his left and Louis sits on Harry's right.
"You okay mate?"Louis asks.
"I don't know. I don't really know. I haven't really processed everything. I think I kind of went into shock,"Harry explains as Louis and Niall listen intently looking at him, "I walked in and there was so much blood. Everywhere. And then the baby. It was in her hands. And- and she looked so helpless. Cami. And she just looked at me and I didn't know what to do. She was covered in blood."
Niall and Louis shake their heads in sympathy. They have no words.
"I don't know how to tell Darcy,"Harry frets, "Oh gosh I really don't wanna tell Darcy."
Louis puts and arm around Harry as he begins to cry again.
"It's okay, mate. She's still so little. I don't think she'll really understand. It will be okay. She probably won't be too strung up about it,"Louis comforts.
Harry nods his head, "you're right. She just barely caught on that there was a baby in Camryn's stomach after 14 weeks."
"Is Camryn, okay? Well like considering everything, is she okay?"Niall asks.
"Um yeah, I guess? No. Actually no. This is gonna hurt. For a long time. She's destroyed. I'm worried she's gonna blame herself,"Harry says staring straight ahead.
"We'll all be there for you guys. You've got all of us. And we can watch Darcy anytime. Anytime you two just need some time alone to heal. We can take Darcy,"Niall offers.
Harry nods his head gratefully, "thanks guys. Really. Thank you for coming."
They sit like that for an hour. Sometimes in silence. Sometimes one of them would break the silence to say something. Niall got up to get Harry a water from the vending machine that Harry gratefully accepts and gulps down.
There's a knock on the door. The doctor appears and Harry jumps up with the boys following his lead.
"How is she?"Harry asks anxiously pulling at his shirt.
"She's great. Everything went perfectly,"the doctor informs.
Harry exhales a breath that he was well aware he was holding all this time and Niall pats his back.
"The nurses are going to wheel her back in here in a couple of minutes. She's still asleep but should be waking up shortly. After she's awake we can discharge her and you can make your way home,"the doctor explains to Harry.
"Great. Thank you so much,"Harry nods relieved.
"She'll probably be pretty sore for the next couple of days and she might be in a little bit of pain,"the doctor adds.
"Okay, I'll make her take it easy,"Harry says.
The doctor shakes Harry's hand and leaves the room.
"Alright mate, we'll leave now and let you and Cami have some time together,"Louis says giving Harry a hug. Niall gives him one after.
"Love you,"Niall and Louis say at the same time.
"Love you guys too,"Harry replies waving to them as he sits on a stool.
3 minutes later
The nurses open the door and wheel Camryn's hospital bed back into the room next to Harry's chair. She's still asleep on anesthesia. Harry grabs her hand and runs his thumb across her knuckles. He savors the peaceful look on her face knowing that it will go away once she's awake. Four minutes later as Harry looks down at his phone to reply to a picture of Darcy from Liam, he hears Camryn take in a breath.
"Hi, love. Hi, buggy,"Harry whispers as he jumps out of his seat to sit on the corner of Camryn's bed so that she's closer to him.
"Hi,"she yawns still groggy.
Camryn looks around the room a little confused from her groggy haze. She sees the small whiteboard on the wall across from her bed with her name on it and suddenly remembers. Her hands go straight to her stomach, but the touch makes her whimper.
"Hey, hey darling. Don't touch,"Harry whispers peeling her hands off of her stomach, "you're probably a little sore." Camryn nods silently and looks at Harry. Her eyes pleading with him to make it all better.
"How do you feel?"Harry asks.
"Empty,"Camryn quietly replies looking down at her stomach.
Harry's breath hitches at the word. He nods as his hands travel to cup Camryn's face as he gives her a light kiss on the lips.
"I love you,"Harry whispers.
Camryn grabs his wrists, "I love you too."
"Forever,"Harry kisses her again.
"And ever,"Camryn replies with a small smile. This is the game they play with Darcy.
"To the moon,"Harry whispers his lips against hers.
"And back,"Camryn says the lines that usually belong to Darcy.
"And back,"Harry kisses her again, hungry for Camryn's comforting taste.
"And back again,"they both say at the same time.
"I'm ready to go home,"Camryn whispers.
"Okay, I'll go get the nurse to discharge us,"Harry replies standing up from the bed.
"Wait, Harry?"Camryn suddenly says.
"Yes, love?"Harry asks turning towards Camryn again.
"What time is it?"
"Half past 6,"Harry replies looking at his phone.
"I can nurse her,"Camryn whispers settling against the pillows.
Harry's lips form a small smile, "you can. She's gonna be so excited to see you."
Harry gets the nurse and they both carefully help Camryn back into her clothes and into a wheel chair. Harry signs the discharge papers as the nurse pushes Camryn through the halls. They wait inside as Harry grabs the car to pull it up front. He carefully helps Camryn into the passenger side seat and she curls up against the window. Harry gets into the car and stays silent as they leave the parking lot.
"How do you feel, love? Does anything hurt?"Harry asks looking over at Camryn's curled up figure.
"Yeah my stomach a bit and my privates a lot,"Camryn explains, "and my heart." Camryn's voice cracks in pain as she says the last part with tears dripping down her cheeks.
Harry shakes his head to try to keep the tears back. He's already cried enough in front of Camryn today. He wants to be strong for her now. He promised himself he would be.
"I know love, mine does too,"He replies putting his hand gently on her knee. Camryn picks up her hand and tangles her fingers through Harry's.
7:45 PM
Harry looks over at Camryn's sleeping figure as he parks the car in the driveway. She fell asleep on the freeway while they were stuck in traffic. Harry steps out of the car and calls Liam.
Liam: Hello?
Harry: Hey, we just pulled up on the driveway. Do you mind distracting Darcy again while we walk in? Camryn wants to see her, but I think it would be better if I laid Camryn down in bed before Darcy saw her. I don't want Darcy to jump on her.
Liam: Of course, we're in her room reading books, so it won't be a problem.
Harry: Okay great, thanks.
"Babe,"Harry whispers rubbing Camryn's cheek to wake her up.
"Hmm?"she whimpers slowly waking up.
"We're home,"Harry whispers.
"Okay,"Camryn stretches slightly and then grabs Harry's hands to help her out of the car.
"Lean on me babe,"Harry says with an arm around Camryn helping her to the front door. Harry opens the door and helps guide Camryn in.
"Do you want me to carry you up the stairs?"Harry asks.
"No, I can do it,"Camryn insists holding onto the banister with one hand and holding Harry with the other. She slowly makes her way up the stairs with little winces escaping her mouth that make Harry's heart pinch. He guides her into their bedroom and lays her on the bed.
"Are you okay here?"He asks tucking the blankets around Camryn.
"Yeah. I want Darcy,"Camryn says rubbing her eyes in exhaustion.
"Okay. I'll go get her,"Harry says kissing her forehead.
Harry walks into Darcy's room to see her half asleep on Liam's chest while he reads her a book.
"Dada!"she exclaims with her pacifier in her mouth taking her head off of Liam's chest and reaching her arms up. She has her favorite pajamas on with little pink bears on it and pink bear heads on the feet.
"Hi, my love. I missed you. I love you,"Harry says picking her up into his arms and hugging her. Her head flops against his shoulder and her little hand moves to his chest rubbing it.
"Do you wanna go see mama? She wants to see you. And you can nurse,"Harry asks with his lips against her brown hair that has been taken out of its pig tails.
"Mama milk,"Darcy mumbles tiredly.
Harry and Liam chuckle a bit. "That's right babe, you want some milk,"Harry asks. Darcy nods her head looking at Harry with her big blue eyes, her pacifier hanging out of her mouth.
"Alright can you give Uncle Liam a big hug and say thank you,"Harry leans Darcy towards Liam. She throws her arms around his neck. "Tanks Miam,"she responds.
"Of course princess. I love you,"Liam says kissing her cheek.
"Wove you,"Darcy smiles.
"Thanks man. Really, thank you so much,"Harry says hugging Liam.
"It was no problem. Call me please. I can help with anything. Please call. Don't try to do this on your own,"Liam instructs.
"Okay,"Harry nods and then walks out of Darcy's room with Liam following him.
"Goodnight,"Liam says.
"Goodnight,"Harry responds making his way to the his bedroom with Darcy in his arms.
Harry knocks on the door lightly and opens it, "I've got a special delivery for a," he lifts Darcy up to pretend to read words off of her bum, "Mrs. Camryn Styles." Camryn giggles a real giggle for the first time today and Darcy cracks up flailing her legs in the air.
"Mumma!"Darcy exclaims seeing Camryn.
"Hi, my love,"Camryn greets Darcy reaching for her. Harry walks Darcy over to Camryn and gently lays her next to Camryn.
"Hi, love. I missed you,"Camryn whispers as Darcy cuddles into her side.
Harry takes off his clothes so that he's just in his boxers and snuggles into the bed with Darcy in the middle of Camryn and him.
"Milk mama,"Darcy asks starting to climb on Camryn.
"Hey Darcy love,"Harry shoots up from laying down to sit up on his arm, "be careful with mama's tummy."
"She's alright,"Camryn winces as Darcy's little knee accidentally jabs into Camryn's stomach.
"Baby,"Darcy says putting a hand on Camryn's stomach, thinking that her daddy told her to be careful of the baby.
Camryn looks at Harry as tears form in both of their eyes. "Darcy,"Camryn begins trying to get her attention. Darcy is paying no attention to Camryn, she's too busy putting her hands on Camryn's stomach and giving it kisses.
"Darcy, look at mama,"Harry instructs.
Camryn cradles Darcy's little face, "Darcy, there's not a baby in mama's tummy anymore."
Darcy's brow furrows as she tries to understand what Camryn just said, "baby bye bye?"
Camryn takes in a sharp inhale with a couple tears rolling down her cheeks. Harry cringes at the sentence. "Yes, honey. Baby went bye bye,"Camryn says trying to keep her voice even.
Darcy, still a little confused decides to settle for laying her head on Camryn's chest. Camryn cries silently as she combs her fingers through Darcy's curls. Harry cuddles with his stomach against Darcy's back and wraps his arms around both of them. Camryn raises her head off of Darcy's to look at Harry.
"We'll be okay,"Harry mouths.
Camryn nods her head trying to believe him.
"Milk mama?"Darcy asks yawning and rubbing her eyes.
"Yeah, baby. You want some milk now?"Camryn asks. Darcy nods her head.
"Here, lets get more comfy,"Harry says positioning himself to be sitting against the headboard. Camryn lays on his chest and brings her shirt up. Darcy climbs into Camryn's arms as she latches onto her boob.
"There we are,"Camryn whispers bringing a finger to rub Darcy's cheek as Darcy sucks.
Harry lingers a kiss on Camryn's temple as he keeps a hand cradling the top of Darcy's head.
"I love you little miss,"Camryn whispers gently tapping Darcy's nose, "yes I do."
"Mmmm,"Camryn inhales sharply as her vaginal muscles contract, hiding her head in the crook of Harry's neck.
"You okay, love?"Harry asks.
"Yeah just a muscle spasm the doctors warned us about,"Camryn says tightly as she whimpers.
Because Camryn vaginally delivered the baby in the bathroom, her muscles were spread apart. Her body will contract for the next day to bring her muscles back to normal. Harry gently places a hand on her lower stomach.
"We're going to be okay,"Harry whispers looking down at Darcy who's eyes are beginning to flutter closed but her mouth continues to suck fervently.
"Promise?"Camryn whispers looking up at Harry.
"Promise,"Harry whispers his lips against Camryn's.
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This one hurt my heart to write :( Thank you for reading!! Love you all!! MWAH!