9am
I had a dream that I was eating a fat bacon and cheese burger. Then I heard whispers.
"One..two.." I cracked my eyes just in time to see confetti shooting out of nowhere and straight at me. "Happy birthday to you!" I squinted and raised my hands to stop to flood of confetti from getting in my eyes. "Happy birthday, Y/n."
I sat up in my bunk and swung my legs over to see four faces, a cake, and a whole lot of fucking phones. "Shit y'all, thank you." I said with a chuckle and rubbed my eyes. Leigh-Anne held the mini cake with a large two and five candle. I closed my eyes and thought of a wish.. For Robyn to hopefully surprise my ass and fly out. In Megan's voice, real hot simp shit. I blew out the candles and smiled as they cheered.
"Speech!" Jade yelled and I looked down at my boxers and plain white T-shirt.
"Speech in my- okay." I chuckled and shook my head. "I wanna thank the Little Mix girls for a great birthday morning uh.. my parents for being crazy sixteen year old and.. yeah, Almighty of course." I winked before taking a scoop of the frosting off of my cake. "And this delicious-" Before I could finish, the cake was pushed into my face and I closed my eyes as they all laughed.
"Ha! I finally did it!" Jade shouted loudly and I wiped my eyes from the frosting before flicking some at her. "Let's goo, we got birthdays to celebrate!"
They all left, Leigh-Anne graciously handing me a towel, and told me to hurry up and get my ass in the shower. I slid off of the bed and pulled out my phone to see the flood of messages and missed call. Most likely them not knowing about to timezone switch.
I was replying to messages when I saw one notification that mattered.. but it wasn't a message.
@Rihanna: Y'all know I'm not the type to put a whole lot of my private life on here.. but Imma try it out today aight. 25 ON 5/25 IT'S SPECIAL LIKE YOU. It would take all day to list the MANY many things I fuck with involving you so since five seems to be the number today, we're gonna do five.
@Rihanna: FIVE: YOU ARE YOUR OWN PERSON. So many people have opinions about you but they never see what I see. You want me to pay for NOTHING and though it frustrates me at times, it reminds me that you're here for more than the net worth, more than the fancy things. You're here for me and that truly is all I've ever wanted. (I'm happy you let me pay for shit now so thank you.)
@Rihanna: FOUR: YOUR NEED TO HELP. We'e talked about this topic for hours one day and it still amazes me. You were raised with little to no knowledge about everything regarding how you were born and anything LGBT related. And you told me, you said "I want people to know how much these kids value an ear and how easy it is to just listen a little" and that stuck with me. You truly want to make a difference and I am here for it.
@Rihanna: THREE: YOU SEXY AS FUCK. LMAO you know I have to add this. Everything you do is seexxxyyy. The way you walk, talk with ya lil ATL tongue, smile, goddamn drink water. It's not FAIR. But really, the sexiest part about you is your mind. You're always thinking in a 'what next?' sense. You never settle for less than what you think you deserve and are always striving to top your past achievement. That, right there, is some sexy shit.
@Rihanna: TWO: MY PARTNER IN CRIME. I'm always asked in interviews, "what do you look for in the perfect man?" Well shit my perfect man is a woman, first of all. And my answers are usually always the same. Someone that values me, respects me, makes me LAUGH. How did you get all three perfectly? You can go from sweet talking to making me cry laughing in the matter of seconds and I love it. I love you which brings me to number one..
@Rihanna: ONE: GROWTH. I met you in June and to see how different you are from then.. it's almost unreal. You are a new level of mature, a new level of driven. I am so proud of everything you've done and become. You are twenty five today baby, a quarter of the way to the 100 years you promised me. Enjoy yourself today, I love your annoying ass @Y/nY/ln (here's us being cute)
@DBJ: Aye how you just gonna be all sweet and shit. What am I suppose to say now the hell? @Rihanna damn... aye @Y/n we been friends for about six years now- man fuck it. Im on my way homie, turn up lets go!!!
@Beyonce: Very special birthday to you Y/n. You fought through tough days during rehearsals and it all payed out in the end. I hope you have the greatest of days today. Enjoy all of it ❤ @Y/nY/ln
@DBJ: Now Beyonce hit her with the- I can't win. Drinks on me, hows that? @Y/nY/ln
@Y/nY/ln: It's perfect bro 😂😂 @ DBJ
@Y/nY/ln: Hey, I love you @Rihanna thank you for letting me compliment your vibe 🧡
@Navies: She said.. she said 'compliment you vibe' I have never seen a smoother way to say be your boo before. wow.
@JayY/ln19: HBD Twin. One person I can FaceTime at three am and will always answer. It's yo day slime (goofy ass tryna steal my backwards hat swag so I got another)
@TheShadeRoom: #TSRBirfdayz: #Roommates, join us in wishing #Y/n a Happy 25th Birthday. #Rihanna wrote the cutest thread, OFFICIALLY officially confirming the couples relationship since it's been on #Baewatch back in SEPTEMBER y'all. Comment your fav clothing from #BlackMecca
I chuckled and set the phone down before taking a shower to get ready for the day (and get this damn cake off my face) It would be a good day especially since I didn't have to perform. Mikey, the dancer who hurt his ankle, was cleared three days ago so I was back to choreographer until the tour was over.
I decided to wear some jean shorts and a black T-shirt because it was hot as fuck and only nine am. Fucking Miami right?
"So, bad news." I hummed at the girls once I walked into the main area of the tour bus. "We have jam packed interviews today so this is the road end for us but.." My eyebrows raised when I heard music suddenly start playing outside of the door.
When it was pulled open, my eyes widened when I saw Jayden walk in carrying a speaker, Dante holding two bottled of Ciroc, James a mini 'Happy Birthday' sign. "Something something gasoliiinaaa." Jay sung along to the song and I chuckled with a clap, not believing Dante really meant he was on his way. "Happy birthday sis." He said, pulling me into a hug.
"Thank you bruh- what. I didn't know y'all was coming." I said, then giving a hug to Dante.
"Miss your twenty fifth? Fuck I look like." He said before handing me the bottles. "First shot of the day, let's go. We're already behind schedule."
I shook my head. "I haven't ate yet." Jay and Dante looked at one another before falling into laughter. "What?"
Dante sighed and rested his hand on my shoulder. "You sound like my mama, Y/nn." I frowned and looked at Jay who nodded in agreement.
"Fuck y'all." I huffed before grabbing the peach Ciroc and pulling the top off. We didn't have shot glasses so I grabbed four red solo cups and poured a shot size in each one. "We're getting food after this though, alright?" They looked at each other again before nodding with mischief in their eyes.
"Twenty five and alive baby, let the party begin!" I sighed and tossed the alcohol down my throat with them. This was gonna be a long day, wasn't it?
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12pm
"Ah fuck," I tripped over my own feet but caught myself at the last moment as I dropped behind a wall, trying to silence my laughs. Needless to say, I forgot how damn fun Laser tag was.
"Aye, I need your ass to pull your weight." Jay said, dropping next to me with a laugh. "I can't be the Kawhi of our team." I waved my hand and nodded before raising up and slowly walking around the wall in time to see Dante. I raised the gun and aimed for his chest, perfectly hitting his red light plate.
"Dammit!" He yelled and I laughed before running back to the wall across from me.
With my back pushed against it, I felt a buzz and thought I had been hit but the buzzing didn't stop. I realized it was my phone and pulled it out, smiling when I saw the Facetime caller ID. "Hi." I said loudly and let my Laser gun hang as I slid down the wall.
Robyn grinned at me in amusement. "Oh you lit lit." I turned my hat backwards and nodded with a wide smile. "Happy birthday babe. Sorry I didn't call earlier, I was knocked the fuck out."
"Thank you, what time is it there?" I asked, my mind completely wiped of where I was.
"Um.. nine." I raised my eyebrows and looked at my watch.
"Nine? I thought you were in New York." Her lips pursed and she shook her head. "You in LA?" I questioned and she nodded silently. "Oh okay-"
"Bitch nigga!" I raised my head when my chest vibrated and I looked up to see James and Dante pointing their guns at me.
I waved them off and looked back down at the phone to see Robyn pulling a hood over her head as the flashes started to come from the other side of the screen, plus the sounds of shouting. "Where you going?" I asked and she smiled down at the phone once she got into the car.
"To get some food with Melissa. Say hi M." She turned the phone slightly and I smiled at the best friend.
"Oh you lit as fuck." She laughed out and I flipped off the boys as the continued shooting me. "Happy birthday, bestie."
"Aw hell nah." Robyn said with a scowl.
I chuckled and leaned forward. "Thank you best friend." She then glared at me.
"What the fuck? You're my best friend. Don't play with me." I finally raised up and ran after the boys to scare them before leaning against the wall again.
"Don't be pressed babe." I said and smiled at her through the phone. "She can have two best friends-"
"No she can't!" I dropped my head back with a laugh before I quickly shut up when I suddenly saw Dante walking towards me with a bottle. "Shit.." I mumbled.
"Is that- are you talking regular?" He questioned and I looked at the phone at Rob's confused stare. "No slurring? We slackin. Shot time!"
"This is not college anymore!" I exclaimed but tipped my head back and let him pour a generous amount into my mouth. "You gotta come save me." I told my girlfriend and she smirk before shaking her head.
"Have fun babe, I'll talk to you later. Love youuu." She hung up and I looked at Dante who was staring at me with a smirk. I simply raised my gun and and shot his chest plate before walking away with the bottle.
I took a swig of it before sitting it down and pulling my hat back forwards. They wanna play, so imma play.
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3pm
"Like no for real." I said, my head shaking as I looked at Dante who sat on the table across from me at the outside bar-slash-food place. "If I could, I'd propose right now." He nodded with a chuckle as I grabbed his shoulder. "She's the one man."
"I believe you, Y/n." I shook my head, not thinking I was getting my point across. I just reeaally wanted to talk about how amazing Robyn was but he wasn't getting it.
"Nah man," I grabbed my Modelo and took a swig before pointing at him with my pointer finger. "I wanna give her everything. The biggest ring, the biggest wedding, the best honeymoon." He laughed and watched me reach for the nachos I forgot I ordered. "Whatever she wants."
"Man it ain't even five yet and you hit the lovey dovey stage." Jay teased, bumping my shoulder as he grabbed a nacho as well. "What's next, you gonna give her some kids too?"
I hummed and looked up in thought. She did want kids.."I was kidding." He said, all of them laughing when they saw how serious I took it. "How about you focus on you nachos, okay?"
Nodding, I started to eat again as I looked out at the ocean we were eating next to. "Yo.." I stood up and started walking, hearing the boys call me but I was hot as fuck. I pulled my shirt off, then kicked my shoes off before stopping at the edge of the smallish cliff. It wasn't a far drop really, maybe like fifteen feet.
I climbed over the little barrier, my head raising when I heard Dante call me again. "Y/n if you die-"
"I won't." I pulled my shorts off which left me in my boxer-briefs. "Hold on, I'm going live." Thank God for water proof cases. I went to instagram and went live, smiling as hundreds immediately dropped in. "Aye, yes or no?" I flipped the camera and showed the drop.
I saw a bunch of yes's, even more no's but one caught my attention.
Badgalriri: You better fuckin not.
Badgalriri: I swear Y/n
I laughed and flipped the camera back to me. "Imma do it. Hold on- D, how you go live with someone?"
He came over and did the shit 'cause there was no way I was going to figure it out and soon, Robyn was on the bottom half of my screen. "Yooo."
"Y/n." She said with a chuckle. "I know you're lit as fuck right now but chill, no jumping."
I nodded slowly, fully prepared to jump. "Rockstar 101 niggaaa." I sung before running off of the edge and spreading my arms like an angel before doing a last minute front flip into a dive. The rush of cold water sent a shock down my body but also cooled my ass off.
When I popped up, I shook my phone to clear the camera and saw Robyn's wide eyes. "I hate you." She mumbled with a huff. "Why did you do that?"
"Because it's my fucking birthday!" I yelled, raising my free hand when random ass people cheered me on. I reached the shore and shook my hair before throwing my head back and looking back at the phone with a charming smile. "Aye.. you look good." I said, forgetting I was on live.
She rolled her eyes and tilted her head down as she gave me a look. "You look good and beautiful and sexy, you come here often shawty?"
"Oh my God, Y/nn." She mumbled with a soft laugh. "End the live foo." I looked down and that's when I saw the comments coming in at lightning speed with a bunch of capitalized words and exclamation points.
"Shit.. I forgot." I said before blowing her a kiss. "Love you bye." I squinted at the screen and couldn't see where you ended the shit. "Wait, how do you end it?"
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8pm
Okay I stopped drinking.
I wanted to at least be coherent for tonight (which is when the actual party is suppose to be) The girls performed beautifully, as always, and we were arriving at a club to finish the night off.
Dante had set up a little VIP booth and everything for me. "Oh my God- excuse me, Y/n?" I looked over my shoulder and smiled down at the crowd, a few of them with their phones up. We were on a platform booth so we were a little higher than the floor level.
"Happy birthday!"
"Thank you, I appreciate it." I winked at the camera before turning around just as a line of girls started to walk over to the booth with square signs, each holding a letter of my name, and two other girls with bottles that had sparklers in them. What the hell..
They waved the signs and I bit my lip with a smile, keeping my eyes on their eyes since they were shaking more than the signs. I leaned to the side, my hand resting on Dante's shoulder as I whispered into his ear. "Aye not gon' lie, these miami chicks fine as fuck."
He laughed and shook my hand while muttering back. "Nigga I was just thinking the same thing." I licked my lips and looked back at the girls who were giving me eyes. I don't think I need to explain the meaning of eyes. "Keep your dick in your pants." Dante said in my ear.
"You keep yours on lock, nigga. I ain't got a problem, I'm dating fucking Rihanna." He dropped his head back as I laughed. "I'm solid. Don't mean I ain't gon' look though."
He nodded in agreement as we both 'admired' the lovely bottle service girls. "What are we looking at?" I heard in my ear.
I nodded forward. "Them fine ass b.." My brain finally registered the voice and I looked over my shoulder slightly to see green eyes staring back at me. Oh.. shit. I cleared my throat and nodded my head to the side. "Them fine ass bottles, you see? With the sparklers?" Her head tilted and she gave me a sarcastic stare. "Heeeyy baby, you're here, I'm so happy." I quickly switched and draped my arm over her shoulder.
"You so fake." She mumbled in my chest but accepted my kiss. "How you lookin' at them when you got me?" I smacked my lips and pointed at Dante. "Oh he made you look?"
"Yeah.." Her eyes squinted. "Well.. nah but I just told him- listen," I said when she rolled her eyes. "I just told him I wasn't even stressing about them girls because I was with you."
"It's true. Her words were 'I ain't got a problem, I'm dating fucking Rihanna' that's verbatim by the way."
I pointed at him with a nod and she gave us both a suspicious look. "Okay.. don't get cut." She said to me and I pulled her in front of me before pressing my lips to the shell of her ear, swaying us to the beat of the music. "How was your birthday so far?"
"It was cool. It's better now that you here." I kissed up, watching a smile pull at her lips. "Where's the best friend?"
Her head rested on me shoulder. "She has a cold so she wanted to go to sleep, she got you a present though." I nodded and wrapped my arms tighter around her shoulders as I watched the sea of people in the club all dance, drink, just turn up.
"Y/n!" I raised my head and pulled away from Robyn, confusion in my eyes when I saw someone I haven't in a long ass while. The light skin girl marched towards me with a whole lot of anger in her eyes. "You asshole." She shoved me back by my chest.
"Nuh uh." Robyn slid in front of me when she made a move to push me again. "Touch her again and I'll fuck you up bitch." She spat out and Alexis, Aniya's older sister, stepped up as well.
"Nobody scared of your singin' ass, hoe."
What the fuck was going on?
I saw my girls hands turned to fist and I suddenly saw why she was trying to not get me to fight drake that night.. I had a feeling she was about to go apeshit.
"Wait," I wrapped my arm around Robyn's waist and pulled her away slightly. "What's going on?" I said to Alexis. "How'd you even know where I- why are you here?"
Her hard eyes moved from Robyn's to mine before she spoke with venom dripping on her tongue. "You got the nerve to get my baby sister pregnant then just up and leave? I knew you were a sleazy nigga but this, Y/n.. this is a new low."
Again, what.. the fuck was going on..
"Alexis." I said clearly, my head shaking. "That's not my baby."
She scoffed. "You gotta be kidding me- she got pregnant June, and the baby was born in February, Y/n! Who else was she with in June?" My eyebrows furrowed as I shook my head. "I know she slept with Keith but that was August. I know not even you're that stupid.."
I shook my head and held my hand. "Wait no.." My eyes closed as I rubbed my forehead. "I don't have a goddamn child, Alexis. It's not mine." I could feel the fear bubbling up inside of me at the thought that.. that I had a kid. A whole ass kid- no I wasn't ready for that. I wasn't ready to be a parent.
"Y/n-"
"No, it's not mine." I shut down and exhaled heavily before walking away from the two and making my way through the crowd. I couldn't describe what I was feeling. It was a mixture of terrified and the air started to feel thicker.
Aniya said it wasn't mine. She said that.. maybe she was premature but that wasn't my kid. I always wore a rubber with her. Always. There was no way.
Once I was through to the restroom, I locked myself in the stall and laid back on the door as I tried to slow my breathing. Alexis didn't know what she was talking about, she was wrong. I just turned twenty five, I'm on a world tour- I didn't have time for a damn kid.
I wasn't ready.
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So.. it beginsss
What y'all thinkin rn?