I sat on the couch scrolling on my timeline with a chuckle. I mean, I expected shit to be spread around, you know? Just not this shit.
@Sxraaa: So.. what should we talk about today since we got OPTIONS options 💀
@cokebeerflop: LET'S START FROM THE TOP LMAO I ain't know who tf Little Mix was until I saw some shit trending and WELL-
@cokebeerflop: Yes, your eyes are correct. That is the motherfuckin bbyddy to all of us.
@bamzspamzz: Oh shit- That's Y/n!! LMFAOO AND LITTLE MISS THING FROM THE COACHELLA SHIT
@Sxraa: Y'all- look what their account posted yesterday (this is so much fun, I missed tea y'all)
@Sxraa: "When you see the choreography from our upcoming tour, you can thank this one for the moves (and the sweat). @/LittleMix - Leigh-Anne" BITCH THEY LOOK- I ain't gon say it
@queeenrih: Mmmmm I dont know how to feel- it's weird as fuck, is it not? Like just a few weeks ago Rih & Y/n were on Wild N' Out.. tf happened?
@antibitch: right. I refuse to believe Y/n dropped bad gal for little girl like no what?
@RihannaUpdates: Rihanna leaving Coachella last night.
@navygang: it looks like she's either about to break down in tears or break a bitches nose.. maybe both I-
@szaxrih: Oh my God wtffffff she look so upset- I haven't seen her look like that since.. ya know..
@antibitch: I miss my cuties ): this not fun man, can they get back together already.
@TMZ: Tuning their inner #FiftyShadesofGrey elevator footage of Rihanna and Y/n last night leaked. *video*
@jesustakethewheel: Me the first five seconds in the video:
@Navies: I feel like a lot of ppl about to call Y/n violent but that right there.. that right THERE was pure sex- the chin grab ugh what is Rih staring at so hard??
@Navies: Not to mention we ain't about to pretend like we ain't see Rih raise that hand doe 😗
@grandebae:
@Navies: I hate you ariana bitches
@queenrih: normals when they get their neck grabbed during an argument:
@queenrih: Robyn Rihanna Fenty:
@desperado: Robyn Rihanna Fenty:
@queenrih: Robyn Rihanna Fenty running to the dick:
@Navies: Y'all- I have a love hate relationship with this fanbase I swearrr
@ThePerezHilton: #HotMess We all remember the (sad) incident between Chris Brown and Rihanna back in 2009.. PT.2? A video from last night surfaced between Rihanna and dancer bae Y/n. Things were a bit rough..
@ThePerezHilton: (Cont'd) You can see Y/n push Rihanna against the wall, holding her by her neck before dragging her down the hall, only to push her into a hotel room. This looks like the early stages of a little DV relationship. #Yikes #Cancelled
@Y/nY/ln: You've spend damn near your entire career bringing people down. Don't you get tired? You have a family, lead by example and put light in the world bro. How about #NegativityCancelled @ThePerezHilton
@sxraa: AND THATS THAT
@sremmlfee: So graceful so.. so poise, so in tune- I am in love.
@B.Simone: See why I call her da babydaddyyyy?
@Skywalkinondapussy: Not with you using a Rihanna meme- B get out and go find yourself a boooyyyfrieeend
@Rihanna:
I looked up from my phone and saw Robyn walking out of the bedroom, a blanket wrapped around her. "Y/n-"
"Wait." I said and help up my hand. "Before you say anything, I'm going to talk." Her eyebrows raised but she nodded and sat down across from me. "First and foremost, we're not getting back together because of last night- Robyn." I said sternly when her mouth opened and she tried to speak.
"Sorry." She mumbled, nodding. "Go ahead."
Letting out a sigh, I sat my phone down on the table to focus on her completely. "I'm tired of arguing with you so I'm not yelling, I'm not accusing, I'm just gonna tell you how I feel.. like a big girl." I added with a wink and I saw her lips upturn slightly. "I feel like I love you more than you love me, Rob. Do you realize that two months from now is when we first met? Do you know what I was doing April of last year?"
Her head shook but I saw the look in her eyes, she had a hunch. "This time last year I was cheating on Aniya with someone she hated and I can't help but think.. it's like a full circle because what I did to her, you kind of did to me but I believe you when you say you didn't sleep with him. You know why?" She hummed. "Because I trust you, Rob. I believe everything you tell me and when you tell me you're going to sleep.. then I pull up and you're with Drake?"
She nodded softly, a sigh leaving her lips as I huffed. "That pissed me off because it's like 'here I am, not fucking with any females, not giving anyone the time of day and my girl is hanging with a guy I personally don't fuck with' I feel stupid, Rob. I feel like you see how much I'm in love with you so you just.. I don't know, abuse it."
"I know, I'm sorry." She said and I watched her scoot to the end of the couch. "I truly didn't invite him over, okay? Yes I let him come in because he said he wanted to apologize. I didn't lie about anything, I was going to sleep and he just pulled up. I put on a robe because I was in my lingerie because.." I raised my eyebrows when she shook her head with a small chuckle before she raised her head to look at me. "Because I was about to send you pictures."
My eyebrows shot up at her words. Oh.. "Well-" I cleared my throat and shook my head. Not the time, Y/n.
"I believe you, alright? But I still think we have things to work on separately. I need a hundred percent, Rob. I can't give my all to someone who doesn't return it. Especially if I'm going to change everything about myself for them. I love you with my whole heart, I've told you that a million times.. I need you to love me with all of yours too."
She nodded slowly. "So.. this is it then?" I sighed when she rubbed her eyes. "Are we.. Y/n, are we done?"
"I.." A heavy sigh left my lips when her eyes got teary. "I think it's for the best right now, okay?" Her head nodded as she looked down. "I go on tour in a week.. it's for a few months. I want you but you want other things right now and I need you to let that go. I need you to confront your past head on and conquer that bitch so that I can hold all of your heart, not just a slice."
"I love you, Y/n." She breathed out and I saw her shoulders shake lightly. "But I understand, I just.."
"Rob.." I stood up and moved to sit next to her before pulling her into my chest. "This isn't a goodbye, babe." I could feel the physical ache in my chest as she cried, trying to suppress her sobs. "It's a.. think of it as we're both going to therapy for a bit. Those little retreat shits so we can both grow stronger."
She nodded silently. "It's not a break.. this is a break up." I closed my eyes as she sniffed. "How is that therapy?"
"It's to learn, we both need that. I'm dependent on you, Robyn. It's like I'm in the ocean using you as a life jacket and you're trying to swim with weights around your ankles. Neither of us will make it out if we don't free ourselves from the fear of drowning."
She slowly looked up and wiped her cheeks. "When the fuck did you get so smart?" I chuckled softly while pushing her hair out of her face. She sighed and leaned forward, her head resting on my forehead. "One more?"
I nodded and cupped her face before connecting our lips softly. I could taste the tears falling from her eyes and mixing in our kiss but it had to be done. There was no way we could possibly grow if shit grew toxic and I'll be damned if I let that happen. This was a woman I loved, a woman I didn't want to see hurt.
The only way to ensure we could be good together was to be good alone. I didn't want to be fifty fifty, I wanted us to be one hundred on our own so we could thrive when with one another. That's how a relationship should be.
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April 25th
"Okay no really, girls. I need you guys on stage for a second please because there's.." I looked down at my watch and clicked my tongue. "Thirty before the doors open and I gotta make sure everything looks right."
When I looked up, all four of them stayed sat on the golf cart, non-moving. I sighed, knowing who the 'lead ringer' was that made them act like five year olds. "Jade." Her head popped up and she looked around before pointing at herself. "Come onnn."
"Are you talking to me?" She pulled the dark glasses down before tossing some popcorn into her mouth. "There's four of us, ya know?"
I watched her hand reach for the keys. "Jade don't." I looked at the others and they were all smirking as she playfully reached her hand forwards and back. "I'm not kidding we have to- Jade." I said when she started it. I moved my eyes to the passenger seat when Leigh-Anne giggled. "Leigh."
She raised her hands. "I'm just sittin', Y/n."
I groaned covered my face. "Y'all promised you wouldn't do this."
"Boy you belong to me.."
"I got the recipeee." I rolled my eyes when they started to randomly sing as they always did.
"I'm not chasing you." I said when Jade gripped the steering wheel. "Let's go, to the stage."
She only smirked and belted out, "And it's called black magiiic!" Before stepping on the pedal and shooting them forward.
I huffed when they all laughed. "I'm not chasing them." I said to myself as I shook my head. But glancing at my watch, I saw how short we were on time. "Goddammit." I hissed and pulled my pants up before jogging after them.
"You could probably run faster if you wore sweats that fit." Perrie, who was sitting on the backseat, said while drinking a Caprisun. "That way you won't have to hold them. Just a hunch."
I gave her a look before quickly cutting to the left behind a wall to go through a shortcut. "Where'd she go??" I rounded the corner and shot out just as they went to cross my path which made Jade slam on the breaks. "Oh my goodness." She breathed out, her hand on her chest.
I snatched the keys out of the ignition and pointed my thumb over my shoulder. "Let's go." Jade groaned and slid out of the gold cart, trudging forward. I looked at the others and they all climbed out too. See? She made them act like brats.
"My legs hurt." Leigh-Anne said with a frown so I turned my back to her and she jumped up with ease. She rested her chin on my shoulder while I held the back of her thighs and I heard a vivid sniff. "You smell different."
"Quit sniffing me." I chuckled and she hummed.
"What's different?"
I didn't think she'd notice to be honest.. but I threw out my products including my sprays and shampoo. Rogue, it brought back too many memories. "It's Old Spice shampoo." I responded and she nodded, her head pressed against my head as she quietly tried to sniff again. "Leigh, I swear I will drop you."
"Okay I'm sorry, it just smells really good." I shook my head softly and hoisted her higher up my back as we reached the stage.
"Hey no fair." Jesy said with her arms crossed. "How come she get's special treatment?"
"Because she likes me more." Leigh said as I sat her down. "Right?" She added, looking up at me.
"Um.." I pursed my lips and playfully looked away. "How about we get to work-" She slapped my shoulder when the girls laughed. "I'm kidding, shawty you are my favorite. Now go get in line." A wide smile pulled at her lips as she strutted over, her tongue sticking out at the three of them. "I just wanna run the intro alright?"
They nodded and I turned to face the empty arena as I played the song on my phone since they already did soundcheck and wouldn't need the whole nine. "So when you come up in the riser, you're here. Then you.." I trailed of when I heard giggling and whispers behind me so I turned and saw them all staring at Jade's phone.
I closed my eyes and sighed. I swear I was gonna crush adderall into their breakfast before this tour ended. "What now?" I mumbled, pausing the music and walking to them.
"Say hello to the mixers." She turned the phone and my eyebrows raised when I saw me looking at myself. "It's Instagram live."
I raised my eyebrows and leaned forward to see a bunch of comments and hearts on the side. "What's the little hearts mean?" I asked and looked at the comments to see a spam of 'baby daddy' repeatedly.
"It means they like your face." Leigh said with a giggle, leaning on my shoulder as she looked at the screen. "And don't we all." I looked up when Jesy and Perrie suddenly started squealing to one another and jumping away while laughing. Weird asses.
"I don't have a child, stop calling me baby daddy." I chuckled out before grabbing the phone from Jade and holding it up. "How do I flip the camera guys?" I squinted my eyes and looked at the comments to see one in particular.
See? This is why Y/n belongs with Rihanna. They both can't work technology for shit.
I chuckled to myself, my head shaking. Not gonna lie.. that was true. "Ooh I got it, okay." I raised the camera and now showed all four girls staring at me like I was a damn puppy. "Can we work now? Show them a sneak peek."
"Oh yeah." Jade said with a clap. "But not too much. Ready girls?"
As they started their intro, I accidentally clicked the filter shit and I frowned when I saw damn hearts flying around. "Shit." I mumbled and swiped, now the hearts turned to butterflies. "Y'all I- someone tell me how to take the damn filters off."
MelissaForde: Y/n.. the x
"Mel." I said and pouted, pressing the x. "I miss you yo.. damn." The bond I built with Melissa was crazy. She wasn't just my girls best friend at the time, she became like my best friend in a way too. But, obviously, she had to be there for Robyn which limited our interactions. We did still text every now and then but it wasn't the same.
MelissaForde: Answer your phone sometime weirdo :(
I sighed and nodded though she couldn't see me. "I got you." I said, bringing my attention back to the girls. "Swing ya hair ladies yesss." I said, mocking their accent as I walked towards them. "Right on, right on-"
"Y/n shut up!"
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The girls were almost done performing so I decided to go out and watch the last number with fans instead of from the side. I sat near the front and side, my hat pulled down to keep from being noticed. "Barcelona you have been incredible." Jesy said with a wide smile. "Sadly.. this is our last song."
"We want to say a very big thank you for coming out. To all our dancers and the crew and our very special friend, Y/n for the hard work and patience. Wherever you are, thank you." Jade added and I smiled to myself as the music started.
When they started dancing, I raised up and nodded at how perfectly they nailed the choreo. They might have been complete goofballs but they were talented dancers, that was for sure.
"You guys are amazing, best crowd we've ever had."
When they finished, I raised up and started out before everything got hectic because if I was pushed, I was pushing back.
I decided to chill in the bus until they came which left me in silence. And as usual with silence.. I did some headass shit. This may have been idiotic and just painful to myself but.. I went through my photos. I know, I'm only hurting myself right? I just couldn't help it..
I clicked on a video and felt a smile pulling at my lips.
"C'mere babe." I looked up from my spot behind the counter, my head shaking when I saw Robyn holding up my phone. "Come hereee."
I dropped the fruit into the blender and capped it before walking over to the couch and dropping behind her. "What?" She leaned against my chest and held the recording phone up.
"Damn.. we look sexy together." She said, making duck lips as I pressed a kiss to her temple. "You just look sexy period."
I chuckled and slid my arms around her waist. "Nah that's you, shawty." I found myself staring at her instead of the camera, a smile pulling on my lips as she continued smizing my phone up. "I love you." I said and she dropped her head back on my shoulder with a grin. "You know that?"
"Mhm, I love you too." She pressed a kiss to my lips, her tongue tangling with mine almost instantly so I grabbed the phone from her hand and smirked at it.
"I'm sorry future Y/n but I'm not allowed to film shit."
The video cut off with her laughing and my smile turned to a frown. Bet 'past' me wouldn't expect to be watching this video under these circumstances.
With a huff, I sat my phone down in my lap and looked up to see Leigh-Anne walking into the bus with her head down. I watched her pace back and forth for a moment before I cleared my throat loudly which made her jump harshly. "Shit," She breathed out with her hand on her chest. "You scared the hell out of me."
"Sorry." I mumbled and raised out of my bunk. "What are you doing here? I thought you had a meet and greet."
"We do in a few minutes so I'm just.. thinking." I sat down on the lounge couch as she frowned.
"You've been doing a lot of that lately." She looked at me silently so I patted the spot next to me. "I know getting your thoughts out is a lot better than bottling them up. I had to learn that the hard way."
She sat next to me, her legs crossing Indian style. "Um okay.." I watched her chew on her bottom lip, her eyebrows furrowed. "I'm lactose intolerant." My eyebrows shot up at her words. "But there's this cake I want, chocolate cake. I really want it but I know it's bad for me." My eyebrows lowered and I looked away when I figured it out automatically.
I'm guessing I was the 'chocolate cake' huh?
"Hm," I rubbed my jaw and tried to figure out how to explain myself without leading her on.. for now. "Well, you say it's bad for you?" She nodded softly. "Now what's bad exactly, the cake or eating it?"
"Oh no, the cakes amazing." I chuckled slightly at how fast she responded. "But this cake it.. it kind of belongs to someone else in a way, you know? So eating it could cause problems."
I hummed and leaned back against the couch. "How do you know the cake belongs to someone else?" I felt her eyes on me but I kept my eyes forward as I spoke. "What I know about some people with lactose intolerance is that eating little by little doesn't cause problems, right?" She nodded slowly. "So.. maybe try not to take the whole cake but portions. Then before you know it, you had it all."
A smile pulled at her lips when I finally looked at her. "And trust me, don't let this 'cake' make you frown, okay?" Her smile widened as I stood up and started to leave but before I did, I turned around and left her with one more thing. "And Leigh-Anne?" She raised her head and looked up at me.
"I'm more of a red velvet kinda person." Her eyes widened with realization as I winked and left back to my bunk.
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