billies POV
I watched lola pace back and forth outside of my green room as she spoke to aura over the phone.
she looked frustrated. I didn't like it.
"I wonder who she's talking to?" violet asks standing by me at the door. I fold arms as I bite my finger anxiously.
"it's her sister" I say, keeping my focus only on lola.
"how do you know?" violet ask as she turns to look at me some and I ignore her.
"also.. she has a sister??" she asks again, raising an eyebrow.
"in law. ish" I answer this time.
"I wonder what there talking about.." max adds in a dramatic tone.
"it's personal stuff" I tell her with a small exhale and max turns to face me also with a stunned look on her face.
"she tells you personal stuff?" she asks in a low tone. I exhale deeply again.
not the time to fucking start
"fuck off max" I say, giving her an obviously annoyed tone. I do not want to be bothered right now and she's already pressing me today and she practically just got here.
"hey, i'm just asking... I didn't know you two were that.. close" she says as she looks off to the side and her eyes dart down, eventually folding her arms. her expression was as if she was holding back thoughts. ones I wouldn't care to know.
i turn to actually look at her for the first time today.
yeah she's the love of my life. of course i'm that close to her
...is what I wanted to say. but I just ignored her as always.
"damnit. I hope she's okay" I say, watching lola again. she leans against the wall with her phone to her ear. she looked disappointed and I really didn't want that for her right now.
"i'm pretty sure she's fine, bil-" violet starts
"shut up" I say right before I make my way to the door as lola comes through it.
"well?" I ask her softly and she puts her phone deep in her pocket.
"well...she's mad. really mad" she says. the worried look takes over her expression again.
"i figured. what did your mom say?"
"she said my mom hasn't said anything.. which i'm shocked about. she said she's just been quiet for the past two days and that honestly scares me" she says with a sigh.
"maybe she's reflecting and trying to figure out why you ran in the first place." I tell her as I get closer to her and she nods with a small shrug.
"I mean I guess" she added and sighs. her eyes go to the ground.
"what did you say to her?"
"I told her...i'm not leaving and i'm staying here" she says in a confident tone as she finally looks up at me. I look at her with a raised eyebrow and watch the confidence leave her body quicker than i've ever seen.
"she knows i'm with you" she said looking down again.
"shit, what did she say?" I pull her arm to a corner where no one can really hear us.
"she got silent, and then all of a sudden she said 'fine' really angrily and hung up"
"damn"
"yeah. she's pissed"
her eyes trail and I know the worry and stress is already starting to fog her head. I take her shoulders gently and she looks at me like she's hoping i'm gonna say anything to make it better.
"just listen to me, whatever happens we will deal, okay?" I say and she looks up at me nodding, seeking more comforting words.
"just...relax. don't let it get to you. besides she has no clue exactly where you are and if I need to hide you trust that I will" I mumble the last few parts and she laughs softly.
"just trust me" I say with a small chuckle and she nods.
"I trust you" she pokes me playfully with a sideways smile. I laugh and lick my lips a bit.
I like knowing that. it makes me excited for some reason.
I know she wants to kiss my right now. her eyes and gestures says it all. and i would kill to give her a good luck kiss before I get on stage, but there are still about twenty people surrounding us right now, so we were gonna have to wait.
"don't you have a show to get to?" she says with a raised eyebrow as she pushes me away slowly and I laugh.
"yeah, yeah I get it. I can wait" I say not surprised tone and I roll my eyes.
I listen to her laugh. but that was quickly shut down once she turned around after her name was called.
"lola" max says as she walks up to her with a sentimental look on her face. lola turns to face her completely and my chest falls completely as I continue to roll my eyes.
"I just...i'm sorry. for being so cold to you" max says as she slightly picks at her nails. which I have never seen her do.
oh this is gonna be good
lola looks at her as if she's trying to find the right words to say. I slowly inch so i'm standing slightly in between them.
"I don't know why I get so...defensive, over this one" max says with a little giggle and places her had on my arm.
that made me wanna gag
lolas eyes went to where her arm rested on my arm and then back up at max's face. her expression unreasonable.
I step back a little.
lola's a sweetheart. but I know her well enough by now to tell when she's getting triggered.
this was one of those times.
she nods a little and keeps her composure as max continues to explain.
"I promise I won't be a bother to you anymore. I know for sure you and billie are just friends" she says with a big smile and looks at the both of us.
all i could take from this was
fake
with a capital fucking F
I know that persuading look and tone max gives upon people that gets them to fall and do whatever she wants. but I ain't buying that shit.
I waited for lola to say "you fake bitch get out of my face"
please lola, beat this bitch up
but instead, a light smile came across her lips and she looked at max hopefully.
"you know what max, it's okay, really. I know you were just being protective over your friend" lola says softly as she smiles at me and then back at max. she puts her hand gently on my shoulder.
shit
"I mean, you have known her longer than I have. I understand where you were coming from."
max kinda looks like she wasn't expecting lola to go so easy on her. "easy"
"well...that's so good to hear than. i'm still sorry though and I hope I can make it up to you" max tells her as she keeps the same light smile on her face. "are we cool?"
"we're cool" lola says with a little smile.
at this point both of their hands were on each of my arms. I felt like I was in a position where I needed to say something but I should probably see how they get along first.
it was kinda difficult to keeps these thoughts running in my head while watching them stare at each other so kindly and so endearing.
it made me feel woozy at the almost forced smiles they were also giving each other
this is not going to end well
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Lolas POV
"fuck" I let sounds pour from my lips as billie was making me cum for the third time tonight.
my finger nails run down her back as she scissored me while kissing my neck slowly but with enough force to leave purple tented marks up my neck.
bruises almost
my mouth hung open when I let the feeling take over my whole body. she told me ahead of time to keep quiet so her parents can't pick up on anyhing.
it was so hard when her body was moving so light but forcefully against me, giving my body the most pleasurable chills and my legs little trembles.
I can't help but release a low moan when then feeling between my legs leads up to me squirting on the lower half of her body, but she gave me sloppy kisses to muffle the moans that escaped into her mouth. her arms around my waist, holding me to her as I arch my back off of the bed and let my orgasm run through.
"shhh baby girl" she eases out as her nose touches mine and her eyes pierce down at my lips while her cum from only a few moments again, leaks over both of us.
our bodies can't get closer.
she continues to kiss me and as I slowly start coming down from my high, I start kissing her back slow and deeply. our lips hit each other's in a pattern.
"mmm" I hum lightly and hold her soft hair in my hands tightly, her hands go to stroke my body and my sides gently.
when she pulls away slowly to look down at me a soft dazed smile appears over her lips and she bites it gently.
I push the hair falling down into her face behind her ear and take in her features with a soft smile on my own lips.
jesus fuck i'm so in love
after a few moments she rolls off of me and we switch positions where my body is on top of her naked one. I lay my head on her chest. my fingers inter lock with hers.
"your so good at that" I mention with a soft breathy laugh and she chuckled softly.
"you make it easy. it's hard going through the day now without trying to touch you. so when it's just me and you time, it kinda just pours out" she confesses in a soft tone as her eyes watch our fingers play with each others.
I look up at her again and she pecks my lips along with a cute giggle after it. I lay my head back down on her soft skin.
after a little bit of us just being, I speak up again.
"billie?"
"hm?"
"can I ask you something?"
"yeah baby, wassup?" she says watching me move to her side and prop myself up on my elbow. I still continue to stroke her cheek lightly.
her crystal eyes letting me know her focus is on me.
"did you and max ever...date?"
"hell no" she says immediately and furrows her eyebrows. I can't help but laugh.
"why so kindle?" I say laughing softly at her aroused expression and she looks at me with dark eyes.
"think about it. who in their right mind would date such a soul like that?" she asks me and I shrug.
"some people would jump on that quick" I say nodding and she eventually agrees.
"true. only for her ass though.. or if she put a spell on them with her witch craft pussy" she laughs and shakes her head as she stares off. I look down at my hand in hers and laugh with her. also keeping my eyes at where they meet. I bite my lip a little.
if we were going to really take this to the next level, I wanted to be honest with her and I wanted to make sure she was going to continue being honest with me.
"have you ever.. had sex with her?" I ask, keeping my vision on where our hands stay but she looks up at my face.
I bite my lip a little, nervous for her response.
her eyes shift for a moment and she looks up at the ceiling, as if she was trying to gather words, and as more seconds past and the longer she takes to respond the more nervous I get.
"yes" she finally answers.
she keeps her eyes on the ceiling and they suddenly move over to mine. I look down at our hands again, trying to find something to say
damnit
i was really hoping for a faithful "no" this time
"it was only a few times, and a while ago" she says and then watches my expression change slowly from fascinated with everything that was her, to mostly disappointment. she sits up a little and her eyes never leave me.
"hey, it.. we never had a thing. never. it was only sex, really, completely" she explains as she looks down at me and swipes her thumb across my lip gently, i nod a little.
"but..why? if you said you would never date her?" I ask, watching her think and look around again.
"well... she was kind of.. a rebound I guess. from my previous relationship. I never wanted to just fuck her, really, but... max can be very persuasive as you know and I guess I was just looking for something to fill that void." her chest falls as she exhales and rubs her arm. "it's...complicated"
"how long did it go on for" I ask her softly.
"not too long.. well, a good minute if I might say, but it was an on and off thing. It was never planned. she would just- throw herself at me and I was so.. not in sync with myself to restrict or say no."
I watch as her past memories start to take over her mindset and she shakes her head every now and then. I nod but then look away some.
I kinda don't know how to comment
"but.. I don't have any buried feelings or intentions on going back to her, you know that right?" she says as she sits up and gets closer to me again.
"I like you lola...not even that, I love you. and only you. i'm really only being honest here"
she speaks softly by my ear and tucks a stand of my wild hair behind it. her finger tips run down the side of my naked body right after she does so. her lips nudge my shoulder softly and my lips curve up into a smile.
"I believe you eilish" I say as I put my focus back on her and she chuckles softly.
"I promise I don't need to go to anyone else anymore. i'm tired of skipping around. I just wanna be in moments like this with you" she says watching my skin glow lightly in the dimmed lights.
"I know. i'm not gonna judge or try and define you by your past decisions and relationships, okay?" I say and her lips get close to mine. she lays them softly on me and nods.
she smiles lightly and kisses my shoulder. I lay back down again and she reaches over me to turn off the lamp and pulls her body back down next to me. I watch her head fill the space where the once empty pillow was.
i smile softly at her features that I can only lightly see in the dark. she places her hand on my check and now takes in my features.
"is she good at it?" I ask, my eyes looking into hers. she shrugs a bit.
"decent"
"is she better than me?"
"no, don't even start comparing yourself shit. max is a whore. she fucks like ten guys a week. your... not even comparable" she says shaking her head.
I bite my lip some and her eyes travel to the side, her messy hair overshadowing her face.
"besides, i've.. made love to you. which I haven't done with anyone in my life. especially not max. so that should give you an idea of where my feelings are as of now" she says and I could tell she was nervous to just get that out.
but it made my heart flutter and do flips.
she's made love with me before anyone else?
"i'm not god at this shit so take this and run with it. fast" she says after a few seconds with a laugh.
"thank you b, for just being honest with me.. that's all I really want. I know it's hard for you but that's really just.. all i want." I say and her lips curve into a very cute smile. she bites her lip softly and kisses my forehead.
"I love you" she says furrowing her eyebrows and I could tell she was holding back from completely falling apart again.
but I was telling the truth. it's really all I needed.
"i love you too"
we fell asleep almost immediately in each others embrace. billies arms were wrapped gently around me and the feeling of her skin brushing off of my back gave me chills. but the best ones. I held her arm lightly over my body so she couldn't pull away
nights like this i'll never get tired of
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me and billie sat in the middle area of the plane as we joked around and talked about everyone walking down the isle.
we had just sat down before maggie tugged on billies huge black hoodie.
"billie, you have to sign these, come sit with me" maggie holds up a stack of papers which just the sight of makes billie slump back
into her seat.
"ugh, oh my god, why didn't you tell me last night??" she whines.
"they need to be done" maggie continues, ignoring her upcoming fight of why she shouldn't do it.
"well why can't Indo them right here?"
"you know you get distracted"
"i do not get distracted.." billie scoffs.
"billie.." maggie says.
"mom.." billie mocks back but soon she huffs when maggie gives a look and she gets up.
"fine"
"bye" I smile and wave her away as she moves up to the seat ahead and veridical of me.
I laugh at her despise of having to work so early in the morning on what she calls 'boring and irrelevant shit'
two hours or so goes by and we're in the air. billie hasn't touched more than a sentence of what she had to do and my throat was sore from trying to hold back laughs because of how stupid billie gets when she's bored.
patrick and maggie we're asleep and i'm pretty sure finneas was watching a movie or some show.
"yup, that bitch is cheating" billie whispers.
she was reading over people's text messages that where seated in front of us. I told her not to do it about twenty times but when she's bored or sleep deprived she doesn't listen to shit.
"your still doing that?" I ask her laughing. "that's mean"
"yeah, but what else do I have to do?" she asks huffing a little as if she didn't have a stack of papers in front of her she was ignoring with all of her power.
it amazes me how she can just decide not to do something and be totally okay with that.
"fuck this" she says getting up out of her seat "scoot over"
"what are you doing?"
"shhh" she says and she takes her seat next to me again.
"your moms gonna be pissed" I tell her, scooting next to the window.
"she's not gonna know" she tells me with a small grin. "anyways, hi mama"
"hey" I say, blushing a bit as if I wasn't staring at her for two hours. but whenever she was this close to me it just hit different.
"ooo, can you see what that one says?" she asks, looking around finneas reddish hair and at someone's phone a couple of seats ahead of us.
I squint my eyes, trying to see what the text says on the phone she's pointing out
"no, I don't have my contacts in so- oh shit"
I pause widening my eyes and billie widens hers too.
"wait- back the fuck up.. you wear contacts???" she asks seaming surprised.
"yes. but I left them at home. damnit" I say, sinking back into my seat.
"...why have you never told me?" she asks.
"I didn't think it was important?"
"wait, can you see me right now?"
"yes billie, I can see you. I just can't see things well far away" I tell her, but she still seams confused.
"do you have glasses?" she asks, intrigued.
"yes, but they look stupid so I never wear them" I say and she nods.
"i doubt that but, when we land you can run to cvs or sum and get some, okay?"
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me, billie and finneas all walked to CVS from our hotel. the three of us stood outside of the store for a moment and watched people inside of it.
"I probably should of thought this through better. I can't go in there. I don't have my hoodie and it's too risky.."
"it's okay, I can run in really quickly" I say.
"no. you could get kidnapped" she says shoving her hands in her pockets and furrowing her eyebrows.
"i've been in a cvs by myself before, b. I got this" I say laughing and fixing my backpack strap on my shoulder.
"okay, but your not home. And I don't trust anyone.. you know that" her eyes are stern, I look down and watch her hand ball in a out of a fist a few times as she looks off, but suddenly turns to finneas.
"finneas go with her" she says to her, much taller than both of us, brother to her right.
"don't you think it's worst you hiding out here than in the actual store bil?" he looks down at his sister.
"'no, i'll be fine. i'll hide behind the building or a bush" she says casually. "go"
finneas and I both shrug it off and I enter the store as he holds the door open for me.
we walk through together and search for the health isle.
"where the hell is it? what kind of cvs doesn't have pharmacy shit?" I ask, looking around.
"oh.. there" finneas points to the stairs going to another level of the already spacious store
"ugh"
we both rush over and jog up the stairs. I immediately start looking around again for where the contact lenses could be, but finneas points them out before me.
"damn, you really need those things don't you?" he chuckles.
"tell me about it" I say rolling my eyes playfully as I grab a box and head back down the steps.
we start casually strolling down a random isle as we surprisingly easy fall into conversation.
"this body guard audition seams to be going well" he laughs and I laugh too nodding.
"yeah, bil was really serious about me getting kidnapped if you didn't come with." I chuckle, shaking my head. "she's crazy"
we walk and the feelings pretty mutual, no awkwardness, no uneasiness, just.. nice.
"you know.." he starts again and I look his way "billie's been.. different since she started hanging out with you"
I stop for a second to process his words. my lips start to curl up into a smile.
"really? how so?" I asked wanting to know more, but in a way we're he thought it was just in a friendly way.
"I dunno she's just been...lighter? happier? definitely more soft which you would never catch eilish doing off guard like ever. or at least admitting to it" he exaggerates and I laugh more
"well, she's kinda had the same effect on me too I guess. before her I really didn't have anyone. and especially not now. billie is kinda.. the only person I have as of now. I dunno" i say, my eyes trail off.
"listen, and this may seem like me bullshiting but hear me out. i've never seen her be so self careless and.. absorbent to someone in a while.. almost like never. so.. trust me when I say you have something deeper with her than most" his words soothingly go through my ears.
it was so good knowing that her own brother can sense the true feelings billie gives off to the people she truly cares for. it's so special.
"all she does is talk about you" he laughs, his eyes peer down to look at my small cracked smile.
I wanted to give him all the details of how cute billie gets around me, but I didn't want to go too far into the 'i'm totally fucking your sister' path, so I set it down easy.
"yeah, she's my... best friend" as Isay it , it's sounds so weird out loud.
me and billie are so far from friends
well, she definitely is my best friend and started off and one but it's very clear that the things we do together aren't just "friendly"
oh, and also the fact that we're dating
but that's all he really needed to know as of now.
he gives me a fond smile and I return one.
we continue to walk, almost to the front where check out was. I spot something orange and I been down and grab a reese's pack from the shelf by were my feet were, my hands return to where they were behind my back with it.
"reese's girl hu?" fin laughs.
"all day every day" I reply proudly.
"i like hundred grand bars" he adds.
"what the hell is that?"
"what?? you don't know what a hundred grand bar is!?!" he faces me and I starts cracking up.
"ohh, you mean that old people chocolate bar?"
"why does everyone say that!?!"
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If only to say, you're mine
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A/N: i'm such a big softie. all i do is watch romance movies and listen to love songs. bye.
luv u
xoxo
- skye ♥︎