~Y/N POV~
Five years later.
Things in this castle have definitely changed over the years.
Not physically but more like the atmosphere for everyone inside the castle walls.
A year after Jungkook got married, the worse day of my life, his dad was murdered. He was stabbed to death in his sleep, nobody knows who it was and nobody was imprisoned for it either. It was just so sudden but people were thankful he was gone.
So that meant Jungkook became king a few months later and his wife Sakura, devil in disguise I call her, became queen.
I hate Sakura, not because she's married to Jungkook but because she's just pure evil. She hates me too. I don't know why because Jungkook and I had never spent time alone since the day before he got married. The best day of my life if you ask me. That night was very special to the both of us, I loved him very much and I still do.
It's just very hard to tell if he still feels the same way. Jungkook has become very cold, he barely speaks to anyone but Sakura and his friend who all happen to work with him in his royal duties.
The way Jungkook looks at me is nothing but emptiness. It's hurts because he use to look at me with love even if we were in the same room as each other but couldn't talk.
I know he doesn't share the same room as Sakura, he refuses but that doesn't stop him from having women in his bedroom. I don't know if they actually sleep together but why else would a man take strange women to his bedroom and then never see them again afterwards. It just makes me believe that he moved on and just doesn't care that I can see it all.
Sure we can never be together but a little respect due to our last relationship and feelings would be a little nice.
Everyday I have to face Jungkook with his cold stares that give me the chills. He may be cold and look at me with nothing in his eyes but he still scares me. In fact once at dinner he hit me, something I never thought he'd do but he did it because he was angry with his wife and took it out on me just like his dad.
He was drunk so I don't know if he remembers but I definitely did. But when he hit me he kept mumbling things I couldn't understand and said it was my fault for being so stupid. I don't know what he was talking about but I let that go. My main concern was that he laid a hand on me in that way.
I just don't know what happened to him. I miss the old Jungkook.
He may be the same Physically but mentally he is not.
I have to put up with his stares every day especially at meal times.
As usual Jungkook would sit at the top of the table quietly while Sakura would sit just at his side chatting away at some nonsense.
I had to stand in the corner in case they would request anything more to eat or drink which is not that often from Jungkook but I think Sakura does it to try and wind me up.
I don't want to do morning breakfasts anymore, I don't want to do any meal servings so right now after speaking to Minseo I'm in the middle of changing with another maid called Anna. She does the laundry and changing the sheets. I'd rather do that then this, it's hard enough doing this for the past five years and you'd think I'd be use to it by now but I'm not. So doing the laundry inside means I wouldn't be seeing them around a lot.
"Maid!! More water!" Sakura
I was startled out my thoughts and came to her side picking up the jug of water and pouring her cup full ignoring Jungkooks gaze at me again.
After I poured her the water I bowed politely and stepped back again but this time she grabbed my wrist with a a squeeze making me gasp in surprise.
She grinned at me when she noticed what power she has over me. She's queen she can do whatever she wants to me and I can't say anything.
"So I've been told you're no longer going to be our servant at meal times?" Sakura
I nod lightly, but looking down at my wrist.
"Yes your highness."
I didn't smile but watched her carefully trying to be as polite as I can to her without showing my true hatred towards her.
"Very well. That means I won't have to look at your ugly face every time we dine. It puts me off sometimes." Sakura
She let go of my wrist and I bowed again holding me tongue and taking a step back rubbing the skin of my wrist. She has quite the hold on her.
I mistakenly looked at Jungkook after Sakura began eating again. He was watching my wrists but then made eye contact with me. My eyes widen but he made no reaction.
"Could I get some more water?" Jungkook
He looks straight into my eyes. When ever he asks for something he never calls me maid or servant, he doesn't even call me by name. He simply looks at me and tells me what he wants.
I nod and walk around the table to his side and picked up the jug once again and poured the water in his glass quietly as he watched my hands. Then placing it back down again I bowed and stood back away from the table yet again.
Jungkook didn't touch his water but instead sat quietly tapping his fingers on the table, biting on his inner cheek staring straight ahead as if he had something on his mind.
"Jungkook, sweetie? Are you listening to me?"
Sakura
She reaches out for his hand but he removes it before she can touch him.
"No." Jungkook
That all he says still staring forward not having a care about Sakura pouting. I watched the two but Sakura quickly whipped her head around her shoulder to squint her eyes at me for some reason and then back to Jungkook.
"Jungkook I want to talk to you about something." Sakura
He only hums but still doesn't bother looking at her.
"I think we should have a baby." Sakura
My eyes widen at what she said and Jungkook didn't react. Instead all he did was push out his chair and stand up to look down at her.
"We've talked about this and no. That's never happening between us." Jungkook
"But Jungkook yo-" Sakura
"No! I'm not changing my mind. I don't want children with you and I never will and if I die without an successor then so be it." Jungkook
He glares at Sakura one last time and storms out the dining room now leaving Sakura and I alone.
Once the doors slam close Sakura pushes her chair away and stomps over to me and slaps me across the face.
"This is your fault! He can't even sleep with his own wife because of you!" Sakura
She slaps me across the face again but harder and I held my cheek from the stinging pain.
How is it my fault?
"Oh please don't act all innocent. I know of you two together before Jungkook and I got married I'm not stupid. I've tried to get rid of you but he won't let you go anywhere." Sakura
How did she know about that?
It was an unspoken thing between Jungkook and I that only Jungkooks mother knew of us before she died and Sakura never met her.
"Maybe it will be best you do laundry and never have to see my husband every god damn day. But I'll tell you know go anywhere near him and I will kill you!" Sakura
She pointed at my face and I nodded quietly. I was in verge of tears but I couldn't let them fall. Sakura scoffed at me before she slapped me across the face a few more times as I stood there having to take it and then she walked out the room like nothing happened.
I stood there for a moment, trying to wipe my tears form the pain of my burning cheeks. But I had to push it a side and clear the table taking everything back to the kitchen and cleaning the table.
Once that was done I set out to start cleaning the library. It was on my next set of chores for the day so that's where I had to be. Another day of being abused by Sakura and cleaning away my pain.
This is what my life is like day to day.