"God I don't want to do this" Renjun complains as he bumps his head against the steering wheel repeatedly. Jisung and I chuckled while loading items into the trunk. "I would offer, but I'm too tired" Jaemin said entering the passenger seat. Renjun turned to look at him with a scold. "You're no help in this world" he replied before groaning in frustration. Carmen stood waiting outside the car for Jisung to enter first. While the lanky boy entered the far back, Carmen followed and then myself. "Why don't we just get a hotel if you're so tired?" Jeno stated as he leaned his head up against the window. Renjun looked back at him for a second and then all the way to Carmen and I. The idea of getting a hotel room at this rate seemed nice. Its going on 10 at this point. "I mean I would only if you girls are comfortable with that?" Renjun said shrugging his shoulders. I could tell he was exhausted and so were the rest of us. I turned my around to look at Carmen, she just shrugged her shoulders. "Yeah sure, we're exhausted as well" I replied simply. "Ooh sleep over!" Chenle announced through the car.
I can't imagine what the hotel receptionists are thinking. A group of 8 teenagers without a sign of luggage and obvious signs of the beach trying to check in sometime around 10 pm. "Hey dad I wanted to let you know that Carmen and I spent all day the beach and we're pretty tired. So we're going to book a hotel for the night and be back tomorrow" I said over the phone. I stayed pretty far away from the rest in the lobby so he wouldn't hear the guys talking. "Which hotel? It's not some cheap motel right?" he questions over the line. On his end I could hear chatter and phones ringing. "No it's definitely not a motel. The place is called Waikiki" I replied. The hotel seemed pretty nice, but it's design had a retro beach theme so it felt casual. Lots of wood and color accents that added to the massive windows of the lobby. It was probably expensive considering we found the place just about a mile away from the beach parking. "Alright as long as your safe. I love you both and make sure to tell Carmen as well" my dad says. As he spoke my eyes wandered to her as she joked around with Jeno near the reception area. They seem to be finally warming up to each other. "Love you too and I'll tell her" I replied before he ended the call.
"Welcome to our la casa for the night" Jaemin says as he swings open the door of our room. 305. I was beginning to feel bad. They booked a two bed suit with a couch and from the design the place looked expensive. And not to mention the place is supposedly walking distance to the beach. "Ooh, fancy" Chenle comments as he almost melted upon the small seat in the corner. "We've been to nicer" Jisung comments under his breath, but I was quick to shut him up with a light tap. "Alright I think we should get sleeping stuff organized before it's too late" Renjun states clapping his hands together. "Kaya and I will get last pick since you guys paid" Carmen says as we gathered in the living room. "Ah don't worry about it. We'll just give you girls the pull out mattress with the couch" Renjun insists. "You sure?" I ask with a little confusion. He nods to reassure me. "Then Jeno and I will take one bed" Jaemin stated. "And Chenle and Jisung will play rock paper scissor shoots for who shares the bed with me" Renjun adds. Chenle gives Jisung and challenging look. "Bet" Jisung replies holding out his fist. "Rock, paper, scissor, shoots!" Jisung calls off, but Chenle's is the one laughing with victory. "Then I'll crashing on the living chair" Jisung says with a sigh.
"Hey I'm running down to store in the lobby and snacks are on me, do you guys want anything?" I ask as everyone was beginning to settle around the tv in the living room. "Bring movie snacks we're going to watch Guardians of the Galaxy" Jaemin says as he holds the remote in his hand.
As I walked down the outside hallways of the hotel I felt a presence gain a upon me; when I turned around I jumped to the site of Jisung. "What are you doing?" I ask after gripping my chest in surprise. If his smile didn't say it, then his slight chuckle shows he obviously found this funny. "You think I'd let you go alone?" he asks now walking beside me. He at this point he had his shirt back on, but I still couldn't get his image out of my mind. "Awe look who cares about me" I say playfully shaking his arm. He rolls his eyes before sliding my hand away. "Of course I care about your dumb ass... you are my girl" he replies before shoving his hands in his pockets. I scoff to his response. "Your girl? I thought we already went over that" I replied as we descended down the flight of stairs. "Yes and you for some reason think that you're not" he says chuckling a little. "That's crazy because I'm not. I'd rather be no ones girl than be one of your millions of girls" I say continuing down the hallway to find the entrance of the lobby. "You see, I still don't understand how you think I have multiple girls" he replies. I stopped for a second and tilted my head in confusion. He's kidding right? The amount of girls hearts he's broken by now is unfathomable. "Do you know how many girls I've seen you with?" I question before beginning to walk again. "None of them are my girl" he says while making sure to emphasizing my girl. What does he mean? "Yeah okay" I reply as we almost approached the door, but I was stopped my Jisung.
He gripped my hand quickly and pulled me close enough so he could lean me up against the outside wall. This is so cliche. But my heart was beating a million miles per hour. "Look Kaya... none of them mean anything. You're the only one who does" he says looking into my eyes. But the claim of meaning nothing brought my thoughts back to our fight. "Yeah I've heard the mean nothing phrase before" I reply crossing my arms. He didn't seem impressed as he rolled his eyes. "When are you going to understand I lied. I didn't mean it. And I said it just to get a reaction out of you" he says. "A reaction? You really got one, a lot of tears came with it as well. You knew that those words would hurt my feelings and yet you still said them" I said still keeping my gaze on him. "You don't think your words hurt any less? Do you think I want to hear the girl that I care the most about tell me that I'll end up dead? Look, I know I do a lot of stupid shit. You probably don't even know the real amount" Jisung says calmly. I felt a small wave of guilt begin to form. It really wasn't right for me to say that stuff... as much as he hurt me, I must've as well. "I'm sorry then" I say looking down for a second and then back up to him. His grip against the wall hasn't changed and his eyes haven't flickered. "But do you notice you still hurt me? You sit there and claim you care about me, but will hook up with girls on the side. I can't ever take you seriously because I just feel like you're playing me like before. Exactly why me? Why am I your girl when we both obviously have different situations. You deal drugs, and my dads a cop. You could sit there and could have any girl, but yet you stick around and show up every weekend at the diner" I say in frustration. I felt my tears begin to weld, but I didn't hear a response from Jisung. Only him matching my frustrated expression while he looked at me. But before he could, I moved under his arm and walked into the lobby.
"And will that be all?" the lady at the cashier asked. After confronting Jisung my hands were becoming shaky and I just grabbed a bunch of popcorn and candy and headed towards the check out. "Yeah" I reply handing her my card. I have no clue if Jisung is still out there, or he left. But a part of me slightly wishes he's still out there. Wishing he didn't leave even when I push him away. "Alright here you go" the lady says as she hands me my card and the bag full of snacks. "Thanks, have a good night" I reply walking out of the store. When heading towards the door to the hallways, I felt my heart pumping. But walking out my heart pumped even quicker as I saw his figure leaning up against the wall I left him at. Do I stop or keep walking?
"Fine, I'll be honest with you" Jisung says turning to look at me. I guess I'm stopping. "I keep having this debate in my head as to why I want you in my life. You're right we come from two totally different aspects, but you still stay. Just as much as I do. You're innocent and instead of having the idea to corrupt you like I would, I want to protect you. You care for me to an amount that the guys can't. Although you nag and push, I always hope you do. Because as much as I have these low thoughts upon my head considering what I do, it goes away with you. You're a breath of fresh air through a muggy mess of my life" Jisung states. His tone in stern but filled with emotion as I hear his shakiness. "So yeah I show up every weekend to the diner just so I can get that little breath of fresh air... And maybe the weekdays when it gets hard. But god damit Kaya I can't deny I care for you, and even though you won't belie-" he says, but I cut him off by wrapping my arms around him. As the snacks were now dropped on the ground I didn't care. I just made sure to keep him tightly against him as I leaned my head against his chest. I could feel his heart racing and his breathing begin to slow down. He brings his arms up and wraps them around me tightly. "Okay... I believe you" I say as I can feel a tears about to drop from my eyes. He chuckles softly and when I look up to him I can see his eyes glossing over. "Don't cry" he states while beginning to softly rub my back. I shoot my head down so he couldn't see me. "I'm not crying, my eyes are just sweaty" I replied in a light tone. When I looked up again he smiled to my expression before wiping my eyes. "Let's get back before they get suspicious" he states letting go of the hug, but gripping my hand.
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"Get up idiots" Jeno says nudging me. When I opened my eyes I saw the boys beginning to wake up, with obvious signs of bed head. Leaning up I look back down to Carmen who was seemed to be passed out cold. "Why are we getting up so early?" I question rubbing my eyes. From the slight light shinning through the windows, the sun was just about to rise. "It turns out Jaemin's sweet talking couldn't get us a late check out" Renjun claimed walking by scratching his back. "Dude try getting a room at 10 pm on a Saturday near the beach it's not easy. So with getting the room, they said we had to get a early check out" Jaemin said in justification. "Carm get up" I say shaking her a bit, but she just mumbled under her breath. "Jisung get up" I heard Chenle say nudging him as he sprung awoke from the living chair. "Is she not waking up?" Jeno asked looking down at Carmen. I shook my head as I stood up to stretch.
"Why won't she let go?" Jeno asked in frustration as he held Carmen in his arms. With having no luck of waking her we had no choice, but to just carry her. "Totally forgot to mention, shes a cuddlier" I replied chuckling a bit. Jeno huffed in annoyance but just held her in his lap while taking a seat in the car. Making my way to the back I see Jisung already trying to lean his head up against the window to get some rest. "Someones still tired" I softly commented. He flickered his eyes open to watch me enter the seat next to him. "My back is killing me, that chair is not fucking comfortable" he replied in a groggy deep voice. I chuckle slightly to his tired expression. He looks so cute when he has bed head. "Come here" he says holding out his arms. As I shuffle closer to wraps his arms around me to pull me close. Laying my head back on his chest, he rests his chin upon my head. The soft rumble of the engine fills the vehicle and cool air of all the windows being open keeps us company. "Everyone say good bye to the beach" Renjun states through the vehicle as we drive off back home. But I don't want to. The idea of leaving beach day behind me almost feels empty. But my worries fade as I think of now. As I'm held close by Jisung, things don't feel empty. As the silence of the car is rather filling then barren, with a slight sound of wind blowing by us.
You could say I did what my dad suggested. I went to the beach, stayed in a city I didn't know, and I had fun. When I saw Jisung and his friends I thought all they were was trouble, and in aspects they can be. But in reality they're real people still and live to have fun. Maybe I could learn something from them...
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