The words I aceept seemed to repeat over and over again. It had been hours since my declaration yet I was still in complete and utter shock by my own words. Despite being there and the words being my own I couldn't help but to question the fact that it happened.
As I sat on the window ledge of the room alpha gifted me with for his game of shearades with the Royal beta I stared out into the night trying to make sense of the last week and the events that took place.
From first being told about the Royal wolves to my first encounter of the silver beast all the way up to my courageous declaration. I felt like I was about to implode from the complete insanity of my own actions.
Although the night was completly still and silent my mind had never felt louder. Each time I'd play out the events in the office my heart would race like it did when I was there. I couldn't help but to keep replaying it. I couldn't figure out where my courage came from or why I'd really accepted the invatation to be witness to the challenge.
I can't like I didn't exactly know what it entailed me to do so that only deepens my confusion. I knew with out one single doubt I was going to regret it at some point the rage from both Jackson and alpha were enough to confirm that.
"I accept"
My words hung thick in the air as everyone registererd what I'd just said. I hadn't quite believed it myself. Before I could blink Jackson smhad shifted into his dark brown wolf and lunged at me. My eyes open in both surprise and fear my line of sight was quickly invaded by the body of beta colby.
Smshiwing of his impressive speed and strength be quickly flung Jacksons beast out of the window. The sound of glass shattering along with the surprised yelps of Jacksons wolf only intensified the unconscious shake my body took on.
"are you ok"
The concern voice of the beta reached my ear beyond the crashing of glass. I wasn't entirely sure he was speaking to me until I realised he was facing me. Nodding shakily the beta seemed satisfied as he turned towards alpha. His wolf making his presence known as he spoke with earth trembling authority.
"control your mutts Larsen or i will"
His statement made little room for question. I was a mere human but still felt the strong aura of the betas command. Each hair on my kneck seemed to stand at the sizzling will of the betas wolf.
Alphas ego was more than little bruised as the sounds of his growls snarls, and clothes shredding met my already sensitive ears. He midnight black wolf made his appearance as alpha gave in to the beast inside of him. His body low and his teeth bared viciously he snapped his Jaws towards the beta.
Despite me being a complete of utter terror the beta barely seemed fazed as he taunted the alpha. His choice still full of authority as his wolf stubbornly stayed present.
"I dare you"
Were the words that caused the whole room to fall silent and still. The betas body stood strong in front of my frail one as he stood challenging the alpha to start a war. I think my heart actually beating for a moment as I anticipated what was going to happen.
I think everyone was left as she'll struck as me when the alpha made his made up and retreated out of the same window Jackson had been flung out of moments before. Staring after the cowardice aloha it took the three of us a moment to regain our composure. The shirt cominhs of the monster who had raked havoc on my life still never seased to amaze me.
I couldnt help but feel a fraction of anger towards the pack. They blindly followed an aloha that couldn't even stand his ground in his own office among his own people. Don't get me wrong I didn't exactly want to be in the middle of a wolf fight but I frustrated me that they would trust in a man/wolf who was only stronger than thjmose weaker than him.
He only showed power and dominance over those who were unable to fight back. Yet the wolves here seemed to worship the ground he walked on. I would never understand their loyalty to a man like that.
My thought fluttered over the silver beast once more as I looked out into the dao foggy night. I still wasn't entirely sure I'd seen him in the forest. I looked down at the old crinkled blue ribbon in my hand and felt my frustration grow.
This was a reminder as to why I shouldn't trust wolves, yet if the silver beast had been there today thst would mean I'd allowed him in and trusted him with my vulnerabilities. I know I would be no match for him in strength but giving away the only thing I had to give was something I didn't want to do.
Foolishly I kept allowing the majestic creature through the barriers thst we're firmly put in place over the years. I couldn't understand why. I found myself yet again lost in a sea of questions. I couldn't stop my analysis mind mull over every possible question and potential answer.
Yet i fell short of anything logical thst could explain why he kept showing up. Again the nagging dull throb began in my head the more I thought fi him the more it's throb. Deciding to try and forget about the silver beast and the troubles of my life I jumped of the ledge of the window and mad ent way to comfortable looking bed.
Drawinf back the covers I lifted my tired body onto the soft mattress. I felt my aching body sink into the soft material of the sheets and Pillows. Pulling the quilt up to my neck I snuggled close to the pillow I'd been graced with as I tucked my blue ribbon underneath it.
Before finally giving into a much needed sleep I found myself chanting the same sentence in my head. As if it were the lullaby that lulled my soul to sleep.
"don't forget"