A/N The reunion concert has already happened, you will hear about it in this chapter. Chapters like those ones take time which I don't have at the moment.
Anyway, enjoy the 5427 word chapter.
~2 months later (July)~
Percy's POV
"Welcome back to the Charity show of James Corden to help support the people with mental health issues and people who are struggling to pay off hospital bills. All the money donated in our show today will support either The Jed foundation or The Healthwell foundation. So please keep your class running in" James Corden started "We have just been talking to Mayla Jackson, the sister of Luke Jackson about how her life have changed because of her brother's fame and the struggles she has had with mental health and to support her brother's health"
James took a break, preparing me to come onto stage.
"Now we welcome the man of the hour, Luke Jackson!"
I smiled as I walked onto the stage, sitting next to my sister.
"Hey Mayla" I exclaimed happily "Hi James"
They both nodded at me.
"You look quite well for coming out of a three month coma two months ago" James commented, making me chuckle.
"Yeah" I replied "I'm feeling more alive than ever"
"Your manger was saying you got into a terrible accident, would you be able to go on that?" James asked.
Mayla looked at me, alarmed.
I sighed.
"Well, it's personal information..." I started "But basically it involved electrically which almost killed me"
Everyone but Mayla gasped.
"Wow" James stated "Well, it looks like you're going well after that, I would only imagine the pain you went through"
I shivered.
"Yeah, it wasn't nice but I am a bad luck charm" I explained "I have been in so many accidents I can't count"
"Like the bike incident last year" James said, making me nod.
He turned to Mayla.
"How did you feel about this?" James asked "He is your brother after all"
"Yeah, it was a tough time" Mayla explained "I wasn't with him for the bike incident but I was present for the recent one and it wasn't...it's not something you should see a family member go through"
I held her hand in comfort.
"Just to think that last year people thought you were together" James said, making us both chuckle.
"I know, it was very awkward between us but we teased each other about it all the time" Mayla said "We couldn't even go out for dinner by ourselves without being bombarded by the media...that's the life of a celebrity I guess"
"Yes, it is" James said, and then turned to me "So, you just had your reunion concert with your old band Catalytic Waves last month"
Pictures appeared on the screens of myself and the band, looking happy on stage. Myself mid head bang as I had my guitar in my hand.
"Yes, it went really well" I said "It was great to be back on stage after my break, and I couldn't have thought of any other way to come back"
"I heard positive reviews about it" James said "Mayla even opening, which you were fantastic"
"Thank you" Mayla said, blushing.
"The next question is are you guys getting back together?" he asked, making me move in my seat awkwardly.
I took a second to think about what I am going to say.
"I cannot speak for the others" I started, looking at James "The way we ended the band was on...bad terms between us. And I personally don't want the bad blood to come between us if we ever were to come back. They know and understand that I currently have a successful solo career and they support me with that. I am not giving anyone a definite answer because we don't know ourselves"
James nodded.
"Well said" he said.
He turned to the camera.
"When we're back we're going to test the siblings knowledge of each other's songs, old and new" James said, making me turn to Mayla with wide eyes.
The audience clapped, the 'on air' light turning off.
"I don't know a lot of Mayla's songs" I explained "I was in a coma when she released her latest singles"
"Do you know at least one of her newer songs?" James asked.
I thought about it and nodded.
"Speechless" I replied, making Mayla widen her eyes.
"Well I hope you're putting it down a key" Mayla exclaimed "It's high, even for me"
I smirked.
"You would be surprised at the pitch I can sing dear sister" I said.
"We can change it to one song of each if that's better" James said, making Mayla and I nod.
James stood up, Mayla and I following to the stage set area, mics given to Mayla and I.
"Now basically what I'll do is a game called artist switch" James explained "Where you guys would sing your owns songs until I yell 'switch' and then you do your sibling's song, etc"
I looked at Mayla and nodded.
"Okay, and we're live in three, two, one!" the director said, making James put on a smile.
"Welcome back to the Charity show of James Corden to help support the people with mental health issues and people who are struggling to pay off hospital bills!" James said "Today we interview and test Luke Jackson and his sister, Mayla"
I smiled as he turned to me.
"Your first challenge is to have a sing off with your sister" James said, making Mayla and I nod "You are to sing your own songs, interrupting each other when the opportunity comes, and then when I yell 'switch' then you guys have to sing each other's songs, got it?"
I nodded, looking at Mayla, who was looking at me with determination in her eyes.
He then turns to the audience.
"To help the viewers at home as well as in the audience understand, they both didn't know this has happening nor did the band" James said "So it's not planned, whatever happens in the moment...now help me count down to count them in"
"You go first dear sister, ladies first" I said into the mic as the crowd cheered, bowing mockingly.
I could hear her sighing deeply as I came back up, smirking.
"You two ready?" James asked, turning to us as he walked back to the middle of us.
We both nodded.
"With Mayla starting" James said "Whoever can get through the song without interruption wins...and that doesn't include Mayla's mini songs"
She groaned, making me laugh.
"Good" I said.
"Okay, in 3, 2...1!" James said, everyone cheering.
"White lies, but they're getting dark" Mayla sung, the band recognising it straight away.
"Blurred lines, but they're getting clearer
Just tell the truth, ay, it's not that hard
You call me crazy
So am I crazy?"
She walked towards me, trying to immtinate me.
I have a song...I'm just giving her a chance.
"Your words don't hold any weight
I can't seem to get a straight answer
Don't trust you, but who's to blame?
I think you're crazy
But am I crazy?
Got me second guessin' everything you say
Thinkin' that I know you, but you're really a stranger
Doin' what you gotta do to get your way
You're reckless and selfish and you can't help it"
She looked at the audience.
"Say you're talkin' to me honestly
But you're lyin' to me constantly, oh
All the bullshit, I don't need it
And honestly, I don't believe it, nah
Say you're talkin' to me honestly
But I don't want your dumb apology, no
Say you're sorry, you don't mean it
Sorry that I don't believe it, nah
Say too much, but it's not enough
Got me wonderin', 'what a lie you hiding?'
Did you lie when you called it love?
Or am I crazy?
Somebody save me"
I smirked and decided to way right next to her, making her turn to me.
"Got me second guessin' everything you say
Thinkin' that I know you, but you're really a stranger
Doin' what you gotta do to get your way
You're reckless and selfish and you can't help itSay you're talkin' to me honestly
But you're lyin' to me constantly, oh
All the bullshit, I don't need it
And honestly, I don't believe it, nah
Say you're talkin' to me honestly
But I don't want your dumb apology, no
Say you're sorry, you don't mean it
Sorry that I don't believe it, nah"
"Whatever happened to childhood?" I sung, the crowd cheering as Mayla turned to me, mad "Whatever happened to dreams? Whatever happened to memories? Whatever happened to me?"
I smiled as she walked away slightly, to think about a song.
"I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be true
But I, I sold out too" I continued.
'We said we'd make it together
We said we'd never give up
We gave each other forever
But then we had to grow up
We were supposed to be stronger
We were supposed to be true
But we, we gave up too"
I noticed she had a smirk on her face, she has a song.
"We all go numb
We all go numb
We all go numb
Distract ourselves
So we don't see
What we've become
We all go numb
We all go numb
We all go numb
You compromise all you believe in
Then you're numb, believe in nothing"
"Cross my and hope to die
You never cross my fuckin'-"
"Beep" I exclaimed, making her glare at me as she continued
"-mind
Do you know what your lies?
Do you know what I had to through?"
She turned to me, smiling innocently.
"Nothing that you say is true
Spit through shifty smiles
Two faces you've had for a while
You act like such a...beeping child"
I laughed, this is why you don't have swear words in your songs.
"Who are you now?
You're so hostile to me
I'm feeling homicidal you run and try to hide
Ooh, I was livin' in denial through
All this time you had me riled up
All the shit has finally piled up
There's no chance of reconciling us with the falsehoods
I've been filing away for months you've made stories up
Sick from the untruths you're been throwing up
Had me thinkin' I was crazy but
Turns out I'm your thing to discuss"
I smiled as she continued, this song requires a lot of air...
...and she's smashing it.
"You keep on talking just shut it up
You keep rubbing salt into the cuts
Broke the cycle need to reconstruct
You're no use to me I'm giving up
Baby you're a loser and I'm ashamed to say I ever knew 'ya
A user, taking all I'd give 'ya
I swear to God, I'll never miss 'ya
Swear to God, I haven't missed ya
God I hope I miss 'ya"
Everyone cheered, including myself.
Mayla, out of breath, beamed with pride.
"SWITCH!" James yelled, making me think about Mayla's songs.
"Okay....um" I started "Your laughter haunts me"
Everyone cheered as Mayla, taking back she breath, smiled at me.
I don't normally sing her songs, so this is a new for her too.
"Like a ringing in my ear
You left me long ago, you're still everywhere
I reach out for you
I'm desperate for your warmth
Can you tell me where we went wrong?
At least tell me just to move on
Say what you mean out loud
Drowning in silence when I'm lost in the crowd
'Cause every sweet thing you'd never speak
It's deafening, never knowin' what could be
Wish I could show you how
But you're just a ghost now
You're just a ghost now
But you're just a ghost, ghost, ghost now
You're just a ghost, ghost, now, now"
"I was just an only child of the universe
And then I found you
And then I found you"
I laughed as Mayla started to sing, making her laugh as well.
"You are the sun and I am just the planets
Spinning around you
Spinning around you
You were too good to be true
Gold plated
But what's inside you
But what's inside youI know this whole damn city thinks it needs you
But not as much as I do
As much as I do, yeah
'Cause you're the last of a dying breed
Write our names in the wet concrete
I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me
I'm here in search of your glory
There's been a million before me
That ultra-kind of love
You never walk away from
You're just the last of the real ones"
She was jumping around, enjoying herself.
Now let's stop her fun.
"Laying in the bed that I made all alone" I started "Guess I'm not surprised honestly
Praying in my head that you stayed and I hope
You'll miss me eventually
People wanna talk when I'm not around to hear
Really they don't know what I'm made of
People keep on walking so far away from here
Clearly I'm the one they're afraid of"
I took a deep breath, the notes are in my vocal rage but I don't like hitting them.
"One after another, they've always come and gone
So what if I'm a monster that's been here all along?"
Mayla and the crowd cheered, surprised by my notes.
"They're dropping like flies whenever I'm around
So used to goodbyes, there's comfort in the sound
Maybe I'm the monster that's been here all along"
I smiled, as Mayla wrote this about me and my destructive thoughts.
"Bending 'till you break and you can't take anymore
I'm not worth the trouble it seems
I would say you're wrong, but I've been here before
You won't be the last one to leave
People wanna talk when I'm not around to hear
Really they don't know what I'm made of
People keep on walking so far away from here
Clearly I'm the one they're afraid of
One after another, they've always come and gone
So what if I'm a monster that's been here all along
They're dropping like flies whenever I'm around
So used to goodbyes, there's comfort in the sound
Maybe I'm the monster that's been here all along"
Everyone cheered as I stopped, leaving Mayla to continue.
"Switch!" James yelled before she started.
Luckily for Mayla, she went straight into it anyway.
"Am I my mother's daughter?" she sung softly, making me smile
Please, someone prove me wrong
Addicted to disaster
Love only goes so far"
She turned to me, walking towards me.
"You don't know who I am
It changes with the moon
Give me time, I'll bring out the worst in you too
No happy ever after
You're already gone"
She held my hand as I smiled softly.
"Another head hangs lowly
Child is slowly taken" I sung, the band following swiftly for the song I wrote about rights in wars.
"And the violence causes silence
Who are we mistaken?"
I let go of Mayla's hand and turned to the audience.
"But you see, it's not me
It's not my family
In your head, in your head, they are fighting
With their tanks, and their bombs
And their bombs, and their drones
In your head, in your head, they are crying
What's in your head, in your head?
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie
What's in your head, in your head?
Zombie, zombie, zombie-ie-ie, oh"
"Don't really care about your sweet talk" Mayla sung
"I only wanna hear your dark thoughts baby
You really like the way I'm fucked up
And all you wanna do is come and save me
But when I ask the same questions
You always gotta go and change the subject
With all these one way conversations
You got me wondering about the things left unsaid"
This is one of Mayla's new songs I think...broken girls?
Apparently she was in an relationship while I was in a coma and the guy did not treat her right.
"You love 'em sick, dig up all the ugly shit
Then you offer up your remedy
Your tightened lips never let your secrets slip
Your repressed memories aren't impressing me
You like broken girls
Because they make you feel put together
Broken girls, rip it open then you'll kiss it better
Won't open up to me
Want you to talk to me
I wanna get to know you
Don't just listen to me, baby
Broken girls, because they make you feel put together"
"Eight years old and he's kicking and screaming
'I'll only go to school if you give me a reason" I sung, the crowd cheering, some even joining in.
"The kids are really mean and I already know
All the things they're teaching'
Hopped in the car, mama let him play hookey
Missed the first hour just to get a cup of coffee
She's the only one who saw who he was
No one else could read him
Showing up late but he makes it to class
Just to stare out the window and the clock in the back
He daydreamed away to a sky so gray
Everything's simple, it's driving him mental
Wishing everyday that something would change
Instead his dad makes him play ball by the bay
And every time he cries, father rolls his eyes, saying
'Son it's all your fault, how come you never try?'"
I smiled as the crowd got into it.
"He does all that he should
Why is he misunderstood?
This is a story 'bout a broken boy
With his headphones in just to block out the noise
Of everyone around him telling him the way to go
So he walks the world alone
Wondering if it gets better
Or if he's always gonna feel empty forever
So he gets lost tryna find another way back home
As he walks the world alone
Fifteen years and he's drowning his sorrows
Smoking weed, drinking cheap liquor out the bottle
With a bunch of fake friends 'cause he tried to fit in
But it wasn't working
Ran in with the law 'bout a dozen of times
Nothing too bad, just a few suburban crimes
Still he says to himself
'What are you doing, you don't deserve this
Don't you know nobody will ever understand
The person that you are, learn to hold your own hand
Get your shit together and lose the weight
You'll never be what you want, no, not with that face'
He started writing all of his thoughts on paper,
Realized music made life so much greater
100 pounds down, he looks so different now
As he plans his escape from a crooked hometownHe does all that he should
Why is he misunderstood?
This is a story 'bout a broken boy
With his headphones in just to block out the noise
Of everyone around him telling him the way to go
So he walks the world alone
Wondering if it gets better
Or if he's always gonna feel empty forever
So he gets lost tryna find another way back home
As he walks the world alone, alone, alone"
"SWITCH!" James yelled as Mayla came to sing.
"It's the same each and every night" she sung, making me laugh
"Glare at my screen with two big bloodshot eyesI'm stuck, self-torturing
My meds are failing me
Internal clock in smithereens
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless"
I couldn't help humming the song to myself.
"My eyes are stapled open wide
As I lay down on my side
I am bouncing off these walls
Notice my hands begin to twitch
Unprovoked assaulting of my conscious wit
Me and the TV are enemies
Sickening static surrounds my mind
I'm loosing time, and realizing
That after days of thought
That I'm stuck, self-torturing
My meds are failing me
Internal clock in smithereens
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless
My eyes are stapled open wide
As I lay down on my side
I am bouncing off these walls
As I focus on the clock
Time stands still but I cannot
I should strap myself in bed
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead"
"Here comes a wave
Meant to wash me away" I started sunging low
"A tide that is taking me under"
Mayla looked at me nervously.
"Swallowing sand
Left with nothing to say
My voice drowned out in the thunder
But I won't cry
And I won't start to crumble
Whenever they try
To shut me or cut me down
I won't be silenced
You can't keep me quiet
Won't tremble when you try it
All I know is I won't go speechless"
Everyone clapped me.
I smirked, they don't even know what's happening next.
"'Cause I'll breathe
When they try to suffocate me
Don't you underestimate me
'Cause I know that I won't go speechless"
I held that note longer so it made it more dramatic as I went to normal pitch, which Mayla struggles to get.
"Written in stone
Every rule, every word
Centuries old and unbending"
Everyone cheered.
""Stay in your place"
"Better seen and not heard"
Well, now that story is ending
'Cause I
I cannot start to crumble"
I was getting really into this, making me think this was written for the children of Poseidon.
"So come on and try
Try to shut me and cut me down
I won't be silenced
You can't keep me quiet
Won't tremble when you try it
All I know is I won't go speechless
Speechless"
Mayla cheered as well as the proud, James just stood there in shock.
"Let the storm in
I cannot be broken
No, I won't live unspoken
'Cause I know that I won't go speechless
Try to lock me in this cage
I won't just lay me down and die
I will take these broken wings
And watch me burn across the sky
Hear the echo saying I...
Won't be silenced"
Everyone cheered as I held the note, making me feel good on the inside.
I didn't actually think I would get through with that note.
"Won't tremble when you try it
All I know is I won't go speechless
Speechless
'Cause I'll breathe
When they try to suffocate me
Don't you underestimate me
'Cause I know that I won't go speechless
All I know is I won't go speechless
Speechless"
Everyone cheered as I stopped, some people on their feet when I bowed.
"Luke is definitely the winner here folks" James said "Watch after this quick ad-break to go deep into Luke's life...stay tuned everyone!"
Mayla came up to me, all excited.
She hugged me.
"That was amazing Perce!" she exclaimed "I didn't realise you could hit those notes!"
"Me either to be honest" I said, making her giggle as she let go of me "But dam, my voice is hurting because of your high notes...gods"
"Just take it easy okay?" she asked "You have filming tomorrow"
I nodded.
"Can you two please sit down back in your chairs?" one of the crew said, making me nod.
Together we sat down, smiling.
"I am so hungry now" I said.
"You just ate" Mayla exclaimed.
"Singing makes me hungry" I exclaimed, James laughing as he overheard the situation.
"Back in 3, 2, 1!"
"Welcome back" James said "That was quite a battle of the voices, wasn't it?"
Everyone cheered, making James turn to us.
"You two did quite well, talent runs in the family it seems" James said.
"It does" I replied.
"Now, before we continue" James said "I just want to announce the total amount raised at the moment for the chosen charities"
He widen his eyes as he read the telecast reader.
"Over 2 million dollars" he exclaimed, making everyone including myself clap.
"By the way" I said, making everyone calmer "I will equal whatever people raise so both charities can be equal with the money raised for them"
Mayla and James looked at me with shock as everyone cheered.
"I think everyone will appreciate that Luke, thank you so much" James said.
"Anything to help the people in need" I said, making James smile.
"Now" James said, "We have a surprise for Luke"
I looked at him confused.
"You do?" I asked.
"We have some fans in the audience who would like to answer some questions if that's okay?" James asked.
"Of course it is!" I exclaimed "I love my fans"
Multiple people stood up, one of the crew members passing a mic around.
"Fire away" I said smiling.
"Hi, my name's Blair" a girl said "And I wanted you to answer truthfully and say how you're really feeling at the moment after the coma"
"I recovered very quickly physically from the coma" I said "But mentally it took a while. I mean I am feeling strangely a whole lot lighter, like what happened smacked me back into reality. But apart from that I am okay, thank you for asking"
She nodded.
"My name's Dan" a guy said "Are you going to do another reunion tour with Cataclysmic Waves? A lot of us missed out"
"And I've been hearing you" I said, looking at him "I would love to do a reunion world tour but none of us have the time at the moment. We have recorded the reunion show with behind the scenes and I think that is in the process of editing at the moment"
He nodded, sitting down.
"My name's Maddy" the younger girl said "I heard rumours that you and Ava got engaged...is that true?"
I froze, looking at Mayla.
Ava did talk to me about this before I got here, saying its fine to announce it but I would rather do it with her hear.
I sighed, looking down.
I looked up, swallowing my fear and nodded.
"Yes, we are"
Everyone erupted into cheers.
"Congratulations man, when did this happened?" James asked.
"The day I woke up actually" I replied "No one knew I was awake so we hung out causally in L.A and then I popped the question to her"
I put my left hand up to reveal the singer engagement ring.
"When's the wedding?" James asked.
"After the world tour" I said "So roughly in a years time"
"A summer wedding?" James asked, making me nod.
"We haven't really thought about it and I am surprised that somehow came out" I said.
"Opps"
I turned to Mayla and groaned.
"Of course" I said "Of course"
"You love me bro" she said.
"I guess I do..." I said, making her grumble and everyone else laugh.
"My name is Harvey" the girl...wait, they look non-binary...they said "This is creepyhollow themed question"
I froze, knowing what it's going to be about.
"Okay" I said "Fire away!"
They looked awkward.
"Well there's one episode were you and Mayla's character's talk in your bedroom...and you were shirtless" they said, making me look at Mayla and James "And the commentary revealed that those scars weren't make-up or CGI...it was really your body"
"This is quite interesting" James said "Put up the picture on the screen"
Everyone gasped as they saw the picture.
"Yeah, excuse my language but I've been through some shit in my life" I said "The scar across my stomach was from the recent accident, my wrists are...self harm and the others...abuse"
I stopped in my words, Mayla holding my hand with support.
"Why did you show it?" James asked softly "They said they gave you the option to cover it up"
"I know" I said "I had only just woken up and went straight back to work as they were already behind...and CGI would have taken longer for the release to come out. So I decided to face my fear and do it...and don't worry, not even my family members knew..."
"It was quite a shock to see that" Mayla said "Especially because I had to stay in character after that"
"It also shows that celebrities are human too" I said "I am not some perfect human; I hurt, I make mistakes, I succeed like any other human being. I just am recognised more but that doesn't mean that what anyone is going through is nothing"
I took a breath.
"I want to show no one is alone and I know I always say I try to be transparent with my fans and be there for them as much as possible and I am not joking" I said seriously "If you're in a bad place and you just need someone to talk to, you had an achievement and no one wants to hear it in your life...I will listen. I am always on my DMs and Mayla is in charge of them so they don't go unnoticed like other celebrities"
Everyone clapped me.
"You really are a beacon of hope for so many people" James said "ON their behalf I'm sure everyone would say thank you for everything you've done"
I smiled.
"I'm sorry if that was too personal" Harvey said.
"Don't worry Harvey, I was going to announce it soon anyway" I said smiling.
They're worried frown turned into a soft smile as they sat down.
"We have time for two more..." James said.
"My name's brad" the guy said as the person gave him the mic "And I was wondering how you're stress levels are going, it sounds like you're doing a lot at the moment"
I chuckled.
"Yeah" I said "I've been filming CreepyHollow which luckily I'm only in a couple of scenes for, all of Don't Threaten me with a Good Time series, had to film at least two music videos, planned the reunion and did it...and now doing the last couple of interviews before going back on tour"
"Wow" James said "Isn't that a little chaotic?'
I shrugged.
"I can't live without chaos or drama" I said "I've just had so much of it in my life that it's just always been there and I've gotten used to it"
"Okay, one more..." James said.
"My name is Gina" Gina said "And before I start one behalf on all your fans what you do is amazing and your support really help people like me who don't have great living conditions or mental health"
I nodded, smiling.
"Now, I have been a fan of yours since the start" Gina explained "And I remember two songs we heard a demo of and we never heard of again and I was wondering what happened to them?"
I thought about it for a second.
"I think they're called 'Given Up' and-"
"She don't know" I said, remembering.
"That perfectly leads into the next section" James said "I was going to ask you about that as well"
I nodded.
"Given up was written when I first joined the music industry and right before I was offered to join a band" I explained "After the audition I never really looked at it again"
"Well, that was one of the first songs on your youtube channel" James said "That is still up there today...let's hear a snippet of it"
I watched the screen and noticed he very young, broken looking Percy.
"Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemyI've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me!I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow, somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy"
A few people clapped while other's were frozen in shock.
"Yikes, thats a flash from the past" I said "That was just when my friends just betrayed me and I was being extra angsty"
The audience laughed.
"How do you feel watching that back?" James asked.
"What the fuck were you thinking?" I asked, making everyone laugh "I mean, the song would always be known for me, not forgotten but it reminds me of the time when I had lost everything"
"What would you tell that version of yourself?" James asked, "Honestly?"
I took a deep breath.
"Don't give up on life yet" I started as it went deadly silent "It will be bumpy, it will feel terrible, you will feel suicidal and thats okay. You have a light at the end of the tunnel so keep fighting for what you believe and don't let anyone control you"
The audience clapped.
"Now She don't know" James said "There's no footage on that one"
"I briefly did a instagram story post to tease my return from my...break" I explained.
"Maybe you could sing it?" James said, making everyone cheer.
I chuckled, standing up.
"Give me a guitar and I can" I said, making everyone cheer louder.
One of the crew gave me an electric guitar.
"You wrote this before your solo career right?" James asked.
I nodded.
"A lot of references to my previous love life are in this song...and two of my name addictions when I went down hill" I said as I tuned the guitar.
I nodded and started to play.
Everyone cheered as I did the guitar riff.
The band joined me, making me smile.
"It's getting late now
But to me it's just beginning
This night's tearing me to pieces
And I feel all but defeated, oh no
But she don't know"
Mayla widen her eyes when she recognised this song.
"Never heard someone like this before
My liquid grief spills to the floor
And I'm screaming like a banshee
Wondering how can she just go
But she don't know
Ain't no drug in all the world like loving you
Cocaine and cigarettes will have to do
Won't somebody save me
My heart's beating out my chest
And I just want to hold you
With those steady hands I once possessed"
I laughed slightly before I continued, everyone wanting more.
"Fucked up on my bedroom floor
And my first thought's let's do some more
They say it all kills with thrills
And I hope it does
Can you hear me, love?
Love and poison, all the same
They share these interchangeable names
And I'm jonesing for the dopamine
These things are the means to my end
But I still pretend
Ain't no drug in all the world like loving you
Cocaine and cigarettes will have to do
Won't somebody save me
My heart's beating out my chest
And I just want to hold you
With those steady hands I once possessed
Where did I go
(Oh where did I go)
Oh baby I'm yours
(Oh baby I'm baby I'm baby I'm yours)
If only you'd known
(If only you'd known)
That baby I'm yours
(Yeah)
Go!
Ain't no drug in all the world like loving you
Cocaine and cigarettes will have to do
Won't somebody save me
My heart's beating out my chest
And I just want to hold you
With those steady hands I once possessed
Where did I go
Oh baby I'm yours
If only you'd known
That baby I'm yours"
Everyone cheered louder than anything tonight which surprised me.
"You're luckily this was one of my favourite songs I wrote" I said as I sat down.
"Then why didn't you release it?" Mayla asked.
"At the time I didn't want to write songs that depressing that could trigger it again" I explained "Maybe I might release it now since everyone enjoyed it"
I got cheers in response.
I laughed, smiling.
"I guess so" I said "I might get that on setlist for my tour"
People clapped at that.
"Well that's all for now" James said "After the ad-break we will get Mayla and Luke to do another game of competition"
"Bring it on" I joked, making James and Mayla laugh.
I love this job.