Minho's POV
Never agree to go into a pet shop with Hwang Hyunjin, you'll be in there for hours. Me and Felix ended up sitting on the floor against the the shelves of dog food as Hyunjin tapped the glass the puppies were in and talked to them. I sighed and looked over at Felix's phone and saw him texting Changbin.
"Can you stop texting your 'oppa' for like three seconds and talk to me?" I said, earning a glare from him.
"At least my 'oppa' notices me." He smirked.
"By what? Texting you back?"
Felix frowned and checked his phone, showing no reply from Changbin yet.
"Oh guess not."
Felix shoved me then crossed his arms.
"Don't listen to him Felix, he thinks he's the shit because Chan took him to the aquarium." Hyunjin scoffed,
"I'll have you know it was extremely romantic." I told him, feeling my cheeks go red.
"You'd think after a whole year of being completely whipped for him something would have happened by now if you two were 'meant to be' like you always say when you've had too many drinks." Felix sighed.
"It's not a stupid crush guys stop making it out to be." They knew that pissed me off.
"Okay Im sorry, I know how important he is to you I won't make fun of it anymore." Felix said for the 136th time this year, he would be back to teasing me tomorrow.
Hyunjin finally walked away from the puppies and we walked over to the fish. I laughed as I watched one of them that looked exactly like the Jisung fish me and Chan saw at the aquarium a couple of weeks ago.
"Why don't you get another fish?" Hyunjin suggested.
I thought about for a few seconds, I mean it was just a fish and I already had 5.
"If I get the damn fish then can we leave?"
Hyunjin nodded excitedly and went to get an employee to get it out for us.
I sat in the back with the bag on the lap. I smiled as I watched it swim around, but as usual my thoughts were interrupted by Felix.
"So what are the plans for today?"
"I don't know what ya'll are doing but Jisung is coming over."
"Isn't it kinda weird that you're ditching your best friends to hang out with your ex who also happens to be best friends with the guy you like." Felix had a point when he said it like that, to others it may seem weird but me and Jisung had become kinda close.
"It is kinda weird but we should be happy that they're getting along." Hyunjin said, I hummed in agreement and went back to watching Fish Jisung.
"Hello I'm here." Jisung walked in the door, puffing and looking tired.
"Are you okay?" I asked as he sat on the couch and stole the remote from me.
"Yea I just got chased by all the paparazzi."
"Yep I'm sure that's what happened." I sighed. "Get up I need to show you my fish." I told him.
"Human Jisung meet Fish Jisung."
"So you're really gonna start calling me Human Jisung because you named a fish after me?"
"Yes how are people supposed to know which one I'm talking about? Theres two Jisungs in my life now."
"So how's things with your boy?" Jisung asked, getting up and going through board games in the cupboard.
"He isn't my boy."
"Not yet, you know, he talks about you a lot."
"Really?" I felt my heart beating faster again, forever hoping that maybe he secretly feels the same. But it was stupid to hope, I knew he never would, heck three months ago he hated me more than I hate carrots. No matter how close we've gotten, he only saw me as a close friend, but I was okay with that, being anything to him was enough for me.
"He always brings you up in conversations, and whenever we plan to go somewhere, he suggests we invite you too." Jisung finally settled on Monopoly, taking it over to floor, us sitting around it.
"That's probably because he feels bad." I sighed, part of the reason I didn't want him to know about my mum was because I was scared he would treat me differently, feel bad for me.
"Shh thats not true he did it before he knew about your mum, is he acting any different around you than he did before?"
"Not really."
"See. He probably understands that you would think that, he may be an idiot but he's still kinda smart."
"That doesn't make sense"
"And thats why he's the smart one."
I sighed and picked my character, Jisung got lost in his thoughts a lot and ended up rambling on about everything.
About half an hour later Jisungs phone started buzzing like crazy. "Apparently Chans having a mental breakdown and he would rather talk to you instead of Woojin."
The thought of him wanting to see me made me smile, it was a nice feeling, to be needed.
Jisung packed up the game and left, saying Chan would be over soon. I ran to the mirror to check my appearance. I decided to keep my hair messy, Chan had developed a habit for fixing my hair, and whenever he did my heart did little back flips. I cleaned up a bit, wanting the place to be tidy for him even though I knew he wouldn't care. I still panicked when Chan was coming over, it didn't feel real, I still couldn't get over the fact that we were friends. He actually cared about me and didn't hate me. Thats all I've ever wanted.
There was a knock on the door and I quickly walked over, I took a few deep breaths and cleared my throat before opening the door. And there I saw a panicked Chan.
"So whats wrong with you?" I asked. He ignored me, walking to my room. I closed the door and followed him. He was sitting on my bed with his hands together, looking like a parent about to give the talk.
I sat next to him and raised my eyebrows.
"This is gonna be a really weird question bu-" He started.
"Hurry up and I ask."
"Can I kiss you?"
I wasn't sure I heard him right, that couldn't be what he said.
"Excuse me?" I asked, trying not to show the fact that my heart felt like it was about to beat out of my chest.
He sighed and covered his face. "No one will let me kiss them."
"Mind my language but are you fucking stoned?"
"No, I think. I think I'm gay."
I nearly screamed.
"O-oh really?" I asked, once again I had to check to see if I heard him right.
"The past couple of weeks I've been thinking about it, I've never really likes girls and I mean, I have no interest in dating them but then I thought about dating Taemin and thought, hey that wouldn't be that bad and then suddenly I'm on YouTube watching every move performance and looking at photos of him on Pinterest-" I interrupted him by laughing.
"Shut up this is serious I need help."
"So you want to kiss a guy because?"
"To see if I am or not."
I sighed and stood up, leaning against my wall, I don't know if I could handle kissing him again, I think I might actually have a panic attack.
"Please Min, no one else will, Woojin pretty much chased me out of his house with a broom and everyone else refused."
"And now you're using cute nicknames to try to get me to say yes?" It was working.
"Yes." He gave me a hopeful smile, making my heart melt. What he didn't know was that I couldn't say no to him, it was impossible. All he had to do was smile with his adorable dimples and I was willing to do anything.
"We've already kissed, is that not enough?" I asked.
"No I mean, like an actual proper kiss like the ones in the movies."
"Well what movie would you like to base it off?" I smirked, knowing it embarrassed him when I said shit like that. Sure enough, he threw a pillow at me, making me laugh.
"Shut up you know what I mean."
I sighed and sat down next to him, I felt bad for him, I knew what it felt like.
"Fine I will make you a deal." I told him, he looked up at me, looking kinda worried.
"Go kiss a girl, if you really don't like it then you can kiss me."
I didn't want him to kiss anyone at all, but at least this could give time to calm down down and actually prepare myself because O H M Y G O D HE WANTS TO KISS ME ASDFGHJK.
He thought for a few seconds before nodding and skipping out of my room and leaving.
I said on my bed, chewing mints and trying to calm my breathing. It felt like my heart was trying to have a race with itself. It had been at least half an hour since he left and would probably be back soon, though I had no idea he could have kissed. Maybe the idiot just grabbed someone from the street and now he's at the police station.
Then I heard my door open.
"Yep defiantly didn't like it" He said, sitting across from me.
"Who did you kiss?"
"Jeongyeon."
I just about choked on my mint, Jeongyeon hated any type of contact with men, I'm surprised she didn't slap him.
"You're an idiot you know that?"I laughed.
"Yes I'm aware."
We sat there for a few seconds in silence, knowing what was about to happen.
"So, can I kiss you now?" Chan asked, moving closer, sitting right in front of me.
"S-sure." And then I waited, and waited, but he didn't move.
"Anytime now."
"Shut up I'm scared." He said, his cheeks and ears going red, making me laugh which made the atmosphere a lot less awkward.
"You're the one that asked to kiss me, you better hurry up before I change my mind."
"Can you kiss me first?"
"What? No thats not part of the deal."
"I don't know how to and I don't want to do it wrong and looking like an idiot."
I laughed again.
"Shut up don't laugh."
"Okay I'm sorry." I said, trying to keep a straight face. He hit my arm and whined, hiding his face in his hands like the adorable dork he is.
"Channie look up." I said, removing his hands from his face and moving slightly closer.
"Its just kissing okay, it's not that hard, I promise not to laugh or tease you about it okay? You're fine with me." I smiled, making him calm down a bit. I seemed chill but I defiantly wasn't, I didn't even know how I was breathing properly.
"Okay, I'll try not to mess it up."
And then he was moving closer, until we were only a few inches apart. The feeling I had was how I felt before my first dance performance, the nerves made my stomach feel sick but the excitement made my heart race.
He brought his hand up and moves my hair out of my face, giving me butterflies.
His gaze went from my eyes to my lips, I couldn't help but pinch myself, checking to see if this was actually really.
Then he did it.
He kissed me.
And I closed my eyes, and kissed him back.
His lips were awkward but he seemed to know what he was doing, one of his hand was gently touching my waste, the other caressing my cheek. I ended up putting my arms around his neck, pulling closer.
I didn't how I wasn't dead yet, I couldn't stop freaking out. I'm kissing Bang Chan, Bang Chan is kissing me. Am I dreaming?
He got less awkward and seemed to calm down a little, I had to resist the urge to smile, because then he would realise that this meant a lot more to me than it did to him.
Thats when I pulled away and open my eyes, catching my breath and looking at him. Then he did something I didn't expect. He kissed me again, it was only quick but something about it gave me that feeling, the feeling of hope. And I couldn't help but think, maybe it meant something to him to?
I ended up smiling and laughing a little at the situation just because I was so happy. He was staring at me, wide eyed, like he had just remembered he left the stove on.
"So, did that help?" I asked.
"I- I don't think I like girls."
And there it was again. Hope.
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