[This Chapter does affect the Plotline]
"This is actually my first time being out of the country since my trainee days 6... 7-ish years ago. When I was a trainee it was non stop work for me, I didn't get very many breaks and if I did it would just to catch up on sleep. When I debuted I wasn't very big so I more of just traveled around the country, and I still didn't get very many breaks either. It was a struggle trying to keep in contact with my parents, at first they were furious, but they just accepted it, and I felt guilty because it's my fault that I can't see or talk to them. But I can't do much about it." I tell the camera and producers.
"The Red Bullet Tour? At that time I was actually still at Seoul throughout it because I didn't know the dances or lyrics, so PD-nim decided to let me stay and work on some new stuff, like finish or start some music for the next album and stuff like that. I did see their show in Seoul, but I went home when they decided to leave for the next show." I explained.
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*The interview questioning segment*: "This is my first concert outside of being a solo artist and just solely us, no awards shows or any of that nature. We all worked hard to give the ARMY something that will be... memorable. This is my first time in years that I'll be on stage, on my own, for thousands to see."
"It's incredible." I say and look into the camera.
The Wings Tour D-Day
Korea
Seoul 2017.02.18-19
I walk around a corner of the room and do vocal ranges, trying to reach as far up as I can while reaching as low as I can that isn't uncomfortable. I head towards Eui and get my makeup done and given my outfit which is similar to the boys' outfits.
"Good Luck Darling." Eui gushes. All of BTS gather around the couches in a group huddle.
"Just as we prepared. Just as usual, ok?" Namjoon starts his pep talk.
"It's everyday life for us. We prepared the concert while appearing on TV. Don't consider this just one more day. People gathered after a lot of work, so we must show them something." He finishes.
We all stand up, i'm in between Jimin and Yoongi in a group huddle.
"Bang Bangtan!" Namjoon yells
"Bangtan!" We all yell back, separating and doing final things before the big show.
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"You wouldn't believe the amount of people that were there! It was crazy! Like when the screen moved to reveal all the ARMY bombs my eyes widen in shock. It was the biggest I've ever seen!" I said excitedly to the camera, everyone in the room laughing at my reaction.
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"ARMY, scream!" Hoseok yells into his mic, we all stood in a line, and I was in awe.
"There you go."
"That's what we want." ARMY's screams died down a little.
I smile and look around the stadium, the left side of my oversized jacket falling off my shoulder, revealing my tank top and my exposed shoulder. The ARMY went CRAZY, the yells were louder then ever. I smile out of embarrassment and looked away from the crowd. Yoongi runs in front of me and fixes my jacket, he brought the side back up my shoulder and zipped it up, making the ARMY scream louder than humanly possibly and I laugh as Yoongi goes back in line.
"So many things that we feel grateful for happened in 2016. But the most important thing is the Grand a prize that were were awarded along with you guys, ARMY." Announced Jin, army bombs shook in excitement and I smile, seeing all the ARMY.
"We could give the big concert thanks to you, ARMY." Taehyung adds, finishing with a quick silly dance then ending it with a finger heart.
"Really. We truly thank you. We love you." Tae continues and ends with a big heart made with his arms.
"Thank you." Jimin says.
"Whenever we read your letters, we can feel how you're dealing with life and how you're surviving it. How you're dealing with the pain. And we like that very much. So we want to stay together with the love you show us to continue to feel you and walk this road together. As long as we stay together, just like the title of our song, we will see the Spring day come. I have no doubt about that. So let's spread our wings and fly to our Spring Day. Thank you." Namjoon says as the ARMY scream, I try not to cry because of how emotional it was. I clap and some tears build up as I wipe them away and smile seeing Army Bombs shake and ARMY screaming.
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The screen closes on us as we wave goodbye to the ARMY, marking the end of the concert. Jin and I quickly leave and head to the dressing room, Namjoon close behind us. I grab a lighter and Jin holds the cake and I light the candles, I stand next to Jin and Namjoon sits.
Hobi walks in with everyone and we all sing happy birthday to him.
Afterwards Jin hands him the cake and he makes his wish.
"Health for BTS, ARMY and Big Hit. That's what I wish for."
"Thank you everyone!" Hoseok finishes and smiles at the camera, then Jimin heads towards him.
"We promised we won't play with food." Jimin says and he stands next to Hoseok, his hand near the cake.
"Oh, right."
"Let's just eat it." Jimin's finger takes some icing and he swipes it on Hoseok's cheek. Downside is, the cake falls onto both Yoongi and onto Namjoon's bag.
"Sorry." Hoseok apologizes, cream over his cheek.
"Your bag's covered in cream!" Jungkook teases as I start to laugh.
"Lift it straight up." Hoseok says and someone takes the cake. Everyone starts to chant "Park Jimin".
"How much was that bag?" I asked and see Namjoon cleaning it.
"Oh, come on. What now?" Namjoon says annoyedly, but smiles. I help him clean up the bag.
"He said the f word" Hoseok said holding his beaten cake.
"That's an expensive bag." Jungkook announces as I start to laugh.
Everyone moves past the incident and we all take a picture, Namjoon, Yoongi, and Jungkook holding a "We'll be the Wings of BTS" sign then someone takes our picture.
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2017.03.10
The Wings Tour, D+21
Santiago, Chile
As we walked, ARMY started to scream as we all made our way through the airport, I waved and threw up some finger hearts and smiles, we all left and got inside a van, I sat next to Namjoon.
"What's up, guys?" Namjoon jokes in English
"You know BTS?" Hoseok says also in English.
"What's up, Chile?" Namjoon says again in English.
"We prepared this stage, man." Jungkook practices in English.
"What was that?" Namjoon jokes in English and we all laugh. Now everyone is imitating Namjoon by saying "what was that."
"Cool people say it like this." Namjoon explains in Korean then switches back to English.
"What was that?" Namjoon says as everyone starts to repeat it.
"Is there anybody who cares..." Hoseok starts in English then Jungkook answered with "what was that?"
"Grow up" Jungkook finishes then translate it to Korean.
"BTS, grow up." Jungkook says in English.
"Can you speak more slush?" Taehyung says in English.
"Slush?" I ask in English giggling.
Taehyung corrects himself "slowly?" Now everyone is saying slush.
Then Jungkook starts to feel nostalgic and mentions how he wants some slush where you can buy near schools.
"Darling-Noona did you have something like that when you went to school?" Jungkook asks me, everyone's attention now on me since they were curious.
"No, from what I know about Korean schools, many students walked to school, right?-" the boys nodded.
"-in America that doesn't work like that, yes some students do walk to school, but that's at more of an older age. Buses are provided for the students only, we have our own transportation system that has bus drivers drop students off or pick them up at bus stops or sometimes at students homes, it depends on the area." I explain to them they all go "ahhhh" after learning new information.
The van stops and everyone gets out as we walk inside.
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"Chile?" I say to the camera, my legs uncross themselves as I lounge more into the hotel chair and look at the camera.
"I went to Chile one time, I don't remember it because I was about 2 or 3, apparently I was there with my parents for about a week, my dad had some business there for his company and he wanted the rest of us to tag along, I saw pictures of it when I was much older, but I don't physically remember the experience." I told the camera.
"It was hot though when we were there, I read online that Chile gets pretty hot during the summer, and we were there on a pretty hot day, when we're were on stage the air conditioning felt non existent, because so much heat was radiating off of everyone and everything, from the ARMY, to us, to the lights. I tried to drink as much water as possible, but I was having way too much fun to really focus on getting a sip of water." I told the camera.
"It was hard, for me!" I corrected.
"It was hard for me to keep up with my body, when i'm on stage, my mind and body aren't really connected, my body wants to keep the adrenaline going, it wants to keep moving and dancing, but my head says that we should pace ourselves and we should slow down. On stage sometimes they don't like to listen to each other all that well." I laugh.
"My individual song?" I question the producers, they nod and I start to think.
"It's an interesting topic for me. Because when I wrote it, I wrote for my solo career with a completely different melody and tune, it's not the techno song you hear now. The outfit I guess is a little restraining since it's a corset and an oversized jacket, but it's nice." I laugh at my lame compliment.
"I do like my outfit, It's pretty and I'd definitely wear it, it showcases my style pretty well, but I don't know if I'd wear it for my performance." I said, hoping none of the stylists would get upset.
"Save me, is probably my most favorite BTS song we have out. I like the choreography, I like the song in general, i like everything about it, the melody, the use of the metronome in it, it's unique and I really like it. For me it's an enjoyable song. I don't know what happened to me when I fell, I think it was because it was really hot, we were in large sweaters and pants and it's like over 80 degrees out. I don't really remember what happened, I blacked out when we did the chorus the first time, I just know I was still dancing and I blacked out when we kicked, and I think I fainted at one point, but I continued on, my sweater was like super soft, and it was big and heavy and it just kept the warmth in my body especially with that long sleeve striped shirt and leather pants! I also had my corset on for my solo song since I was the next one after 'First Love' so I had a difficult time moving because it was tight, not too tight, just at that moment it was extremely tight, and it was hard to breath at some point, was a lot, the sweater felt heavier and heavier every time it moved up and I'm pretty sure I over-exhausted myself to an extent that I couldn't focus. I think I did black out again during the very beginning of 'I Need U' because I couldn't hear Yoongi rapping after the first minute of us being laid down, I think Jimin noticed I didn't move up on time and grabbed me, then I came back." I explain
"Next thing I know, I somehow made it to the dressing rooms and the sweater and long sleeve were being taken off for me and I was given the jacket and shorts, the stylists helped me into them and I tried to get my shoes on, but I had no luck, everyone said my hair was sticking to my face and drips of sweat were going down my face and neck, one of the stylists told me that I felt hot, not even warm, like REALLY hot, they put the wireless mic on me and I made it to the stage, my mouth was open, trying to breath and get as much air as possible, but my throat was extremely dry, I saw a water bottle by the stage stairs and I tried to grab it, but they pushed me on the stage saying I was running late, so I had to ignore it and move forward, I did my solo song, but I had no energy. I think the fans noticed and I tried to make the best of it, but the corset was just killing me. I couldn't even dance because it was just so bad," I say to the camera.
[the Song is originally 3:14 long, but this video is live and also presents a Chicago band]
"Then I walked off, I tried to find that water bottle that was by the stairs, but it was gone, I held onto the railing and I almost collapsed there too, I know Taehyung saw me because he carried me back to the dressing room, Tae had to go back so Jimin, Jungkook, and Yoongi were in the room, all the stylists frantically took the jacket and shoes off, one of the female producers was holding me up as I was leaning forward, the the stylists grabbed the back of the corset and it all popped off at once and I just fell, right on the producer. I woke up and Jin's solo just started and I was on the ground with an oxygen mask on, I saw a doctor and all the boys surrounding me."
"The doctor told me that I shouldn't go back out there, but I disagreed and said that I needed to go out there for the ARMY, and I was fighting with everyone, the boys, the stylists, even the doctor. I didn't want to disappoint the ARMY so I was practically begging beyond this point to let me at least go up there for fire and leave before the title medley started and they agreed. So I quickly put everything on and I made my way to the stage quickly, after Fire I ran off stage, super tired and sat on the stairs, the stylist by me kept handing me bottles of water.
"Can I at least go in for War of Hormone?" I yelled, they thought about and agreed saying that I have to go back stage once it's over and I nodded, I waited for "War of Hormone" to start and I slowly got up and headed back on stage, the fans screaming louder when I returned, I smiled and waved throwing up some finger hearts and making my way towards the boy. We sang the song for a bit then '21st Century Girl' came on and I left, waving one last time and changing into the 'Blood Sweat and Tears' outfit, waiting for that to start. Then the whole concert ended after that. It was a whole train wreck. I heard Jungkook collapsed, but it wasn't as bad as mine, I just hope the ARMY had fun, that's all that matters to me." I finished off, smiling and using both my hands to show finger heart's.